Tuesday, April 22, 2014
I'm very interested in my family history. The research I've done has also made my child interested in his history as well, which means I need to do a little research on my husband's side to help.
We're supposed to go to a family gathering soon. I've never met many of these people before and some of them I met and talked to very briefly many, many years ago. I'm learning to accept myself as I am but part of me still feels self-conscious about going to this event to meet people.
It's crazy, yet the feeling is real.
I'm working on changing my thought process and trying to figure out when I became so critical of myself. Did I learn it as a little girl, as a teenager? How do I reprogram myself so those thoughts don't ruin situations for me?*
Just in case you're wondering, these are questions I'm asking myself, not questions I'm asking of anyone else. I'm not looking for anyone to fix this for me. I really believe I have to fix this for myself.
I know I have value, I know I'm a good person, yet still...