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Family Gatherings

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

I'm very interested in my family history. The research I've done has also made my child interested in his history as well, which means I need to do a little research on my husband's side to help.

We're supposed to go to a family gathering soon. I've never met many of these people before and some of them I met and talked to very briefly many, many years ago. I'm learning to accept myself as I am but part of me still feels self-conscious about going to this event to meet people.

It's crazy, yet the feeling is real.

I'm working on changing my thought process and trying to figure out when I became so critical of myself. Did I learn it as a little girl, as a teenager? How do I reprogram myself so those thoughts don't ruin situations for me?*

Just in case you're wondering, these are questions I'm asking myself, not questions I'm asking of anyone else. I'm not looking for anyone to fix this for me. I really believe I have to fix this for myself.

I know I have value, I know I'm a good person, yet still...

  
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PATTYKLAVER 4/24/2014 7:43AM

    I've asked myself those questions so many times. I've given myself some vague answers, but...I really need to sort it out in my head. I am getting better about realizing that most people feel like us at one point or another. So, I make an effort to be friendly and talk to people I don't know well. They remember the friendliness, not the details on how I look.

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BOPPY_ 4/23/2014 12:12AM

    Enjoy the get together. They're lucky to have you. emoticon

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Facing Harsh Realities

Saturday, April 19, 2014

My husband suggested that I buy a new dress as I haven't really bought one in a VERY long time. I went to the store with the intention of getting a new Easter suit for my son and the hope of finding a dress or a little ensemble for myself.

I didn't want to spend a lot on the dress as I don't plan to stay the size I am. I grabbed a couple of pretty items to try and faced that horrible full-length mirror.

I hated EVERYTHING on me.

Harsh reality #1 : I've got some medical issues that are making losing weight harder this time.

Harsh reality #2: It's much, much harder this time.

Harsh reality #3: I'm so much larger than I want to be.

Harsh reality #4: I've got to wear the big girl pants and face the music, even if I don't like the song.

Sooo....I will continue to fight with all I have to get where I want to be.

WONDERFUL REALITY: I am aware of what's happening and I'm working to change things!
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SUPER_CIARA 4/21/2014 9:03AM

    Don't be so hard on yourself. One thing I realized is that we should appreciate where we are each moment. You are beautiful just as you are now and have nothing to be upset about because you are taking the steps to get healthy and improve your figure. You're putting in the effort and that is what matters. Nothing worthwhile is easy.

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PATTYKLAVER 4/21/2014 8:07AM

    The reality check of going in and trying on clothes is so discouraging. It has spurred me on a few times, though. And I do believe that stores are not smart. The lighting in the dressing rooms is always terrible. The mirrors were purchased from a going-out-of-business carnival. They always make my body look distorted.

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ALEX_V 4/20/2014 2:51PM

    Trying clothes on is the worst when you're not happy with your body. On the upside, you have realized that you are still not where you want to be, and you are working toward a healthier, fitter you!

You're on your way! Keep up the good work.

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IRON_RESOLVE 4/20/2014 8:25AM

    I also dread trying on clothes. But facys are facts No matter how hard to face. You are doing that. So you are getting into gear. Acceptance and awareness. Ok so yout've got that. Log your nutrition. That alone helped me. Let's make this journey together. And let's make each day count. So we can gradually make our lifestyle changes, that bring about the results we so need.
I'm here with you

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HAPPYMAPY 4/20/2014 6:21AM

    Awareness is one of the first realities in losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle. You've achieved that reality. I'm proud of you for that. The key to going on is what you do with that awareness...face it or bury it.

It seems to me your facing it! Awesome!

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Moon Watching

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

I couldn't sleep last night. Into the early hours of the morning, I still couldn't fall asleep. I decided to watch the lunar eclipse, or at least, take peeks at it.

Unfortunately, it was too cloudy to see anything but I was able to find a live feed online. It was cool to watch, especially since I was trying to fall asleep. It was just pretty and peaceful.

I think sitting still and observing things is good for all of us. The stillness and quiet is something we all need at least sometimes.

Am I likely to watch another eclipse? It's possible. I don't normally stop what I'm doing to observe an eclipse. Occasionally I will glance at one during different stages. I'm almost always distracted by something. With the next one though, maybe it will be another opportunity for quiet time and observation.

  
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LIVE_2_KICK 4/16/2014 11:52AM

    Very relaxing!

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PATTYKLAVER 4/16/2014 3:21AM

    I never thought to look online. But then...I've overdid things lately and am usually exhausted.

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BOLEBRON 4/15/2014 9:51PM

    I wanted to see it too but it was too late in the AM an then it was too overcast. I did not know you could watch it live online. I hope you sleep better tonight.

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COOP9002 4/15/2014 10:42AM

    Glad you got to enjoy it.

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PEGGYO 4/15/2014 9:27AM

    lucky you got to watch the live feed

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Quick Update

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Today was really better. I've done much more walking, was able to do more housework, and I feel like I may be able to run tomorrow. I thought I would be able to run today but I was wrong.
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Still, today is better. That's a blessing. I am very thankful!
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WINNIE1978 4/13/2014 6:27PM

    I'm glad you are on the mend!

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PATTYKLAVER 4/13/2014 4:24PM

    You did accomplish something today. Don't be so hard on yourself!

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Keep resting and soon you'll back!

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BOBINVA 4/13/2014 10:53AM

    Glad you are better. Hope you have a great run.

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    Have a great day today!
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Much Better Today

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Thank you all for your comments. I'm doing much better today.

I didn't approach stairs with as much trepidation today!
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By Saturday, I think I'll feel like myself again.

Today, I've been taking things slowly, gently.

I've been looking over my work-out from Monday to see areas that I may need to modify. I've decided to back-off of some of the leg work or to divide up different exercises between different days again. For the upper body work, I think will do the same. As for ab work, I think I will be okay if I drop one or two exercises for a few weeks. I think I'll be able to handle the ab load that I had planned.

Glad the worst of the pain is gone. Looking forward to reaching a higher level of fitness.

  
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