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Thursday, April 17, 2014

so...i am back to the old one good day, followed by one horrible day. and by horrible, i mean...horrible. take yesterday, for example: i was great all day, and then in class (after work) i ate a poptart and a package of famous amos cookies (i don't even like them!!!!!!!!). then i had two small pieces of pizza at school. THEN i ordered pizza and garlic bread - i had an entire serving of garlic bread, and three MORE pieces of pizza (might i add...there is a ton of pizza in my fridge right now...this might be tough...).

anyway. by horrible day, i mean HORRIBLE. i can say for certain that i am a stress eater. i am not sure that i ever realized this about myself, but judging by my stress level and how i've been eating recently, i think it's safe to say. i am honestly surprised that i haven't gained more than i have, but i think that the fact that i have had so many good days sprinkled in is helping to balance things out.

here's the deal. my boyfriend is in vegas this weekend, and all of my friends are out of town (yes, literally, ALL OF THEM). i have four papers to write for the end of the semester, and i am ready to have a seriously productive weekend. i have been SUPER stressed between being piled on at work and having so many end-of-the-semester responsibilities. if i can get the school stress out of the way, i think i will feel 1,000 times better.

i am going to have a serious gym sesh on friday/saturday/sunday. i am going to get all of my papers done. i am going to enter my final week at this job weighing 145 or lower, so that i can go shopping for clothes and not feel absolutely, enormously huge (and hopefully be closer to 140 when i start my new job). i am going to drink 8+ cups of water each day.

if i get tempted to eat more than a serving of this pizza, i am throwing it in the trash. outside.

i am putting only clean, healthy foods in my body from friday morning until sunday night. i am hoping that little test run of getting back on track will be enough to get me fully back in the zone.

i am planning to stay on track today, but i do plan to go out tonight so i do not want to include today in the official "challenge". i will include today in a no-binging challenge, however, because I AM SO OVER IT.

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AMANDAUNBIDDEN 4/21/2014 10:41PM

    Oh, gosh I am the same way with stress. Stress makes me want to eat all the foods! Just hang in there! Maybe, you could have some motivational quotes ready to read when you feel like eating poorly or you could write your goals down and reread them when you are struggling. That sometimes helps me stay on track. Good luck!

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TTLEELEE 4/18/2014 9:33PM

    YES! TRASH THE PIZZA and make out the good food list so you don't forget your options when you are stressing over your paper (because Doritoes and Pepsi were always my go-to paper foods.)

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CLESHER 4/17/2014 11:16AM

    you got this, deep brathes and git-r-done


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BONOLICIOUS2 4/17/2014 11:14AM

    Girl I would go right ahead and trash that pizza right now. Don't even let it sit there. Clear it from your life! Kick it to the curb! You can do this!

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t-18 days!

Thursday, April 10, 2014

so i am very very happy to say that i stuck to my plan after work, and said no to the ben and jerry's and yes to the gym. i was going to hold off on eating more, since i was already at 1,888 cals, but at around 9.30 pm i was starving and ate a couple of baby carrots with hummus and a tangerine.

i did not remember to try on my skirt, but i did take some beginning measurements. i am feeling good about getting to a comfortable size by the time that i start my job, and then working from there. i am down 5.8 lbs from my monday weight, so i am hoping to get back to my lowest weight very soon!!!

my plan for today:

breakfast (already eaten, it was amazing): 5 egg whites with 2 pieces of applegate turkey bacon, 1 serving of ancient grain oatmeal w/ 1 tbsp of almond butter

lunch: salad bar - include lotsa protein!

snacks: 2 tangerines, and a serving of cashews if STARVING

dinner: i am thinking of going vegetarian...i have tons of broccoli and cauliflower, so i am thinking of sauteeing that in aminos, and then having some carrots + hummus on the side

workout: i am going to take a lunch time walk, and then try to get to the gym again after work today!

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    Sounds like a plan! emoticon

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GYPSYGOTH 4/10/2014 12:23PM

    It is rather hard to do low-carb and vegetarian at the same time (I've tried), and if you're lifting weights regularly and/or working out pretty hard you may want to try to keep SOME animal protein in your diet to help with rebuilding muscle. Just my 2 cents. I know that a high-meat diet is not sustainable in this world for the majority of the population. I try to support ethical sources who are maintaining the healthy farm cycle, and keep informed, hoping the world will change.

Enjoy those veggies though!

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CLESHER 4/10/2014 10:27AM

    Awesome job on sticking to the plan....


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TWESTEN1 4/10/2014 8:53AM

    Good for you on getting to the gym!!! I'm hoping to get a walk in today too... supposed to be sunny and in the 50s :)
Enjoy your workout today and keep up the great work - you are really doing well!

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vision vs reality

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

sooo i had a perfect monday. and then a mostly-perfect tuesday...until i went to dinner w my coworker and ordered a kobe burger w/ truffle fries and one thousand sugar free vodkas and redbulls. woof. and then a horrible wednesday...during which i have stress-eaten everything in my path.

i have this vision of my new job -- a serene office, smelling of some sort of whole-foodsish calming natural scent, and me wearing all sorts of hip and young business apparel. i can achieve this. easily. except...i keep eating. and eating. and freaking eating. every time i feel certain that i am back on track, i decide to eat the world and put myself off-track.

it's getting kind of down to the wire now, where i actually need to buy clothes now, and if i am going to buy the size clothes that i want to, i need to stop eating like this. i also have class all weekend, which ALWAYS sets me into non-stop snacking mode. so i need to avoid that, as well.

i need a really really solid plan, and i need it now!!!!!!!!! i am thinking definitely gym after work today, and then definitely gym after work tomorrow. i can't go to the gym sat/sun or monday, so it is going to have to be super clean eating.

i have the food in my fridge. i have no excuse!!!!!!!!!!!

i am trying so hard to keep this vision in my head. i am thinking that trying on my interview skirt after work might be a good reality check...maybe i should put that on every day as a reminder that i need to be able to fit into clothes like this! 19 days from now! i have seen myself shift my weight (meaning not just weight-loss but actual inches) pretty significantly within even the scope of a week, so i know that i can do a lot in 19 days. but i need to actually do it. it started as the 25-day plan, and then the 21-day plan...and now here we are.

but yes. rather than eating a pint of ben and jerry's after work, which was my plan until about 6 minutes ago, i am going to go home, try on my work skirt, and go to the gym. BOO-YAH OVER-EATING FAT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've eaten 1,888 calories today, so if i leave it there, go to the gym, and drink lots of water, today won't be a total loss.

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    I think eating right is the hardest part of all of this. It's so hard to find a good balance that keeps the weight coming off. You have good motivation in your new clothes though! And good job on going to the gym instead of the ben and jerry's! You can do this! emoticon emoticon

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/10/2014 8:20AM

    They say having a vision plan like that really helps! Keep focusing on it and using it to fuel your fires! You can do it!

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GYPSYGOTH 4/9/2014 4:28PM

    I missed or forgot news of a new job! Will you be done with school, too?
emoticon in any case!

It is hard to do, but it is simple. Put in the work (and don't put in the donuts) and you will get where you want to be. If you're not at the size you want, but a few lovely flattering outfits for the size you are, and reward yourself with new ones once you get down a bit more. If you mix and match you should be able to make three outfits into at least five! ;)

Good luck beating that snack monster. Sometimes I will eat half an avocado to stop it in its tracks... often works. It's a fair number of calories, but the fat makes my brain stop the "keep eating? What else?" response, and I stop. Amazing, and worth it.

Keep trying!

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MJRVIC2000 4/9/2014 4:20PM

    Plan your day and then work your plan! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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day 2 of "21-day-fix"

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

ok - one day down, and i am feeling SO MUCH BETTER! i wasn't able to work out yesterday, and i won't be able to today, but my eating was FINALLY on point! i re-stocked on groceries, so it should be on-point today, too!


food yesterday:

breakfast - 1 turkey sausage pattie, iced grande skinny latte w/ 4 shots of espresso

lunch - (ok, we went to this denny's express place at my job, which literally had NO HEALTHY FOOD. i put this omelette together, and the people working there laughed at me because no one had ever ordered egg whites before. it also took them 25 mins to make my food when the rest of my table's food was ready in five...)
egg white omelette with cheddar cheese, a couple of chunks of avocado and about one piece of turkey bacon

snacks - 2 tangerines, one serving of cashews

dinner - salad bar creation before class - about 5 oz of chicken, about a piece of bacon, 2 tbsp of crumbled egg, cucumber, lettuce (this salad bar was WEAK!!!!!!). i also had a cashew cookie lara bar

water - 6 cups

exercise - 5,779 steps, 3 flights of stairs (eek!), 481 cals burned

i ventured out of my comfort zone, and had some ancient grain oatmeal with almond butter for b-fast this morning (i am scared of both of these things...because a) carbs and b) nut butter haha). but it was delicious and i am a happy lady :) i also packed 1,000 snacks for work today, so i have no excuse to go off-track! i am going to dinner with a co-worker tonight, but i picked a place that has lots of healthy options, so i should be good!

thank you all SO SO SO much for your support. i cannot tell you how much it helps!!!!!!!!!!!

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    So funny that Denny's had such a hard time making an egg white omelet. lol You are doing emoticon girl! Keep it up! emoticon

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EABL81 4/8/2014 9:12PM

    Way to go - you're back on track!

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GRANDEFILLE 4/8/2014 10:12AM

    that's great! you can do this!

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GYPSYGOTH 4/8/2014 9:17AM

    Glad you are doing so well and feeling so awesome! Keep it up!

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/8/2014 8:23AM

    Planning ahead really helps doesn't it?! I have to give you props for sticking with it with work AND class AND so much going on! You're gonna keep rockin' it!

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cannot get things together!

Monday, April 07, 2014

so, i have been completely on track with my exercise, but COMPLETELY off track with my eating. i am talking non-stop binge fest. i have no idea what's going on. yesterday, i think i ate more calories than i ever have in my life. like ever. 3,666 cals consumed. i worked out hard, but that only makes up for so much!!!

i am seeing the effects of this eating on my appearance/the scale/how my clothes fit, and i'm hating it. it's kind of ironic, i went out on saturday and saw a bunch of people i haven't seen in a while...everyone was like "ah! you're so tiny! don't lose any more weight!" meanwhile, i have gained 10 lbs since march 21!!!!

i have 21 days until my new job, and i SERIOUSLY need to buy new clothes and look good in them. i am creeping back to almost 150, and i am not digging it at all.

i feel so disgusted with how i ate yesterday that i think i shocked myself back into healthy eating, and i really need to stick with what works.

so, for the bajillionth time, i am picking myself back up and getting serious. it is time to match my awesome workouts with awesome eating. only healthy things are going into this body!!!!!!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT MONDAY SPARKERS!!!!!!!!! you guys are seriously the best, and help me so much with this :)

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HONEYBEA 4/8/2014 6:47PM

    I don't know what you're eating, but if it needs cleaning up, more calories are ok when you're working out if they are from healthy food sources.
Can you binge on a big ol' steak? lol!

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EABL81 4/7/2014 9:08PM

    Between you and me, we have one perfect sparker! Too bad it doesn't work like that!
I've been back on track with the food, but now the exercise is slipping. Busy time at work, and I'm not prioritizing the exercise enough. Still, I think this is an ongoing battle. Not sure there'll ever come a time when I'm not falling off or climbing back on. I guess if the time spent on the wagon is significantly greater than the time off of it, then we'll be okay.

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TWESTEN1 4/7/2014 4:48PM

    Okay, so it's just like any time during weight loss - we screw up & then we get back on track. You had some bad days... and now you're getting back on track. It's never going to be perfect, b/c life isn't! Accept that & stop beating yourself up about it. You don't need to worry until the overeating becomes habit again and I seriously doubt you'll let that happen. You were able to stop it this time & that shows that you have the will to continue on the right path. That struggle will always be there, but never forget how strong & determined you are. You got this!

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GRANDEFILLE 4/7/2014 10:25AM

    If you have upped your exercise level and downed your intake too much, it is dangerous to get too hungry. Make sure you are planning to eat enough for the amount of exercise you are doing.

Try cutting your 3 meals in 6. Never let more than 4 hours pass between meals. make sure you have protein in each of those 6 smaller meals. That helps me a lot to not binge.

in the meantime don't hit yourself too hard on the head. It is counterproductive. Just make sure you keep working on it. And congratulate yourself on seeing the problem

Have a great day!

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MOJO0607 4/7/2014 10:07AM

    The important part is you realized it and have the will to do something to change it. Just listen to reason when you feel like eating unhealthy and you will get right back on track. Good luck!!!

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