Thursday, April 17, 2014
so...i am back to the old one good day, followed by one horrible day. and by horrible, i mean...horrible. take yesterday, for example: i was great all day, and then in class (after work) i ate a poptart and a package of famous amos cookies (i don't even like them!!!!!!!!). then i had two small pieces of pizza at school. THEN i ordered pizza and garlic bread - i had an entire serving of garlic bread, and three MORE pieces of pizza (might i add...there is a ton of pizza in my fridge right now...this might be tough...).
anyway. by horrible day, i mean HORRIBLE. i can say for certain that i am a stress eater. i am not sure that i ever realized this about myself, but judging by my stress level and how i've been eating recently, i think it's safe to say. i am honestly surprised that i haven't gained more than i have, but i think that the fact that i have had so many good days sprinkled in is helping to balance things out.
here's the deal. my boyfriend is in vegas this weekend, and all of my friends are out of town (yes, literally, ALL OF THEM). i have four papers to write for the end of the semester, and i am ready to have a seriously productive weekend. i have been SUPER stressed between being piled on at work and having so many end-of-the-semester responsibilities. if i can get the school stress out of the way, i think i will feel 1,000 times better.
i am going to have a serious gym sesh on friday/saturday/sunday. i am going to get all of my papers done. i am going to enter my final week at this job weighing 145 or lower, so that i can go shopping for clothes and not feel absolutely, enormously huge (and hopefully be closer to 140 when i start my new job). i am going to drink 8+ cups of water each day.
if i get tempted to eat more than a serving of this pizza, i am throwing it in the trash. outside.
i am putting only clean, healthy foods in my body from friday morning until sunday night. i am hoping that little test run of getting back on track will be enough to get me fully back in the zone.
i am planning to stay on track today, but i do plan to go out tonight so i do not want to include today in the official "challenge". i will include today in a no-binging challenge, however, because I AM SO OVER IT.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
so i am very very happy to say that i stuck to my plan after work, and said no to the ben and jerry's and yes to the gym. i was going to hold off on eating more, since i was already at 1,888 cals, but at around 9.30 pm i was starving and ate a couple of baby carrots with hummus and a tangerine.
i did not remember to try on my skirt, but i did take some beginning measurements. i am feeling good about getting to a comfortable size by the time that i start my job, and then working from there. i am down 5.8 lbs from my monday weight, so i am hoping to get back to my lowest weight very soon!!!
my plan for today:
breakfast (already eaten, it was amazing): 5 egg whites with 2 pieces of applegate turkey bacon, 1 serving of ancient grain oatmeal w/ 1 tbsp of almond butter
lunch: salad bar - include lotsa protein!
snacks: 2 tangerines, and a serving of cashews if STARVING
dinner: i am thinking of going vegetarian...i have tons of broccoli and cauliflower, so i am thinking of sauteeing that in aminos, and then having some carrots + hummus on the side
workout: i am going to take a lunch time walk, and then try to get to the gym again after work today!
Wednesday, April 09, 2014
sooo i had a perfect monday. and then a mostly-perfect tuesday...until i went to dinner w my coworker and ordered a kobe burger w/ truffle fries and one thousand sugar free vodkas and redbulls. woof. and then a horrible wednesday...during which i have stress-eaten everything in my path.
i have this vision of my new job -- a serene office, smelling of some sort of whole-foodsish calming natural scent, and me wearing all sorts of hip and young business apparel. i can achieve this. easily. except...i keep eating. and eating. and freaking eating. every time i feel certain that i am back on track, i decide to eat the world and put myself off-track.
it's getting kind of down to the wire now, where i actually need to buy clothes now, and if i am going to buy the size clothes that i want to, i need to stop eating like this. i also have class all weekend, which ALWAYS sets me into non-stop snacking mode. so i need to avoid that, as well.
i need a really really solid plan, and i need it now!!!!!!!!! i am thinking definitely gym after work today, and then definitely gym after work tomorrow. i can't go to the gym sat/sun or monday, so it is going to have to be super clean eating.
i have the food in my fridge. i have no excuse!!!!!!!!!!!
i am trying so hard to keep this vision in my head. i am thinking that trying on my interview skirt after work might be a good reality check...maybe i should put that on every day as a reminder that i need to be able to fit into clothes like this! 19 days from now! i have seen myself shift my weight (meaning not just weight-loss but actual inches) pretty significantly within even the scope of a week, so i know that i can do a lot in 19 days. but i need to actually do it. it started as the 25-day plan, and then the 21-day plan...and now here we are.
but yes. rather than eating a pint of ben and jerry's after work, which was my plan until about 6 minutes ago, i am going to go home, try on my work skirt, and go to the gym. BOO-YAH OVER-EATING FAT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've eaten 1,888 calories today, so if i leave it there, go to the gym, and drink lots of water, today won't be a total loss.
Tuesday, April 08, 2014
ok - one day down, and i am feeling SO MUCH BETTER! i wasn't able to work out yesterday, and i won't be able to today, but my eating was FINALLY on point! i re-stocked on groceries, so it should be on-point today, too!
breakfast - 1 turkey sausage pattie, iced grande skinny latte w/ 4 shots of espresso
lunch - (ok, we went to this denny's express place at my job, which literally had NO HEALTHY FOOD. i put this omelette together, and the people working there laughed at me because no one had ever ordered egg whites before. it also took them 25 mins to make my food when the rest of my table's food was ready in five...)
egg white omelette with cheddar cheese, a couple of chunks of avocado and about one piece of turkey bacon
snacks - 2 tangerines, one serving of cashews
dinner - salad bar creation before class - about 5 oz of chicken, about a piece of bacon, 2 tbsp of crumbled egg, cucumber, lettuce (this salad bar was WEAK!!!!!!). i also had a cashew cookie lara bar
water - 6 cups
exercise - 5,779 steps, 3 flights of stairs (eek!), 481 cals burned
i ventured out of my comfort zone, and had some ancient grain oatmeal with almond butter for b-fast this morning (i am scared of both of these things...because a) carbs and b) nut butter haha). but it was delicious and i am a happy lady :) i also packed 1,000 snacks for work today, so i have no excuse to go off-track! i am going to dinner with a co-worker tonight, but i picked a place that has lots of healthy options, so i should be good!
thank you all SO SO SO much for your support. i cannot tell you how much it helps!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, April 07, 2014
so, i have been completely on track with my exercise, but COMPLETELY off track with my eating. i am talking non-stop binge fest. i have no idea what's going on. yesterday, i think i ate more calories than i ever have in my life. like ever. 3,666 cals consumed. i worked out hard, but that only makes up for so much!!!
i am seeing the effects of this eating on my appearance/the scale/how my clothes fit, and i'm hating it. it's kind of ironic, i went out on saturday and saw a bunch of people i haven't seen in a while...everyone was like "ah! you're so tiny! don't lose any more weight!" meanwhile, i have gained 10 lbs since march 21!!!!
i have 21 days until my new job, and i SERIOUSLY need to buy new clothes and look good in them. i am creeping back to almost 150, and i am not digging it at all.
i feel so disgusted with how i ate yesterday that i think i shocked myself back into healthy eating, and i really need to stick with what works.
so, for the bajillionth time, i am picking myself back up and getting serious. it is time to match my awesome workouts with awesome eating. only healthy things are going into this body!!!!!!!!!!!
HAVE A GREAT MONDAY SPARKERS!!!!!!!!! you guys are seriously the best, and help me so much with this :)
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