What is the fear??

Friday, January 15, 2010

I've been down this road before. I get just a few pounds away from breaking past the 200 mark and something scares me off. All my efforts of whatever weight I had lost up to that moment, gets tossed out the window when I begin the sabotage of putting the weight back on. I never get to see if I can do it, if I can lose those few pounds and break free from the 200's.

I don't know what it is that scares me. I can't imagine that it's the fear of feeling good because that's what I'm striving for - to feel good. It can't be the fear of losing weight, because that's what I want to do - lose weight, and I am losing weight. Surely it's not the fear of being healthy because I haven't felt this healthy in a long time and want to feel even more healthier. Am I so used to being overweight that I like the discomfort? The discrimination? The isolation?

I'm baffled by what scares me from reaching this milestone!! Is the fear a figment of my imagination; So ingrained in me that it's the fear I fear?

I'm just 9 pounds away from hitting the 200 mark and for once would like to give myself the benefit of the doubt and squash this fear for good. I do not want to sabotage all the effort I have taken in adopting a new lifestyle and losing the 28 pounds that I have lost to date.

My journey is really just beginning and I want to push past this fear once and for all. I want to see what's around the corner or over the next hill. I want to know what it feels like to be 200 again. Then I want to see what it feels like to be 190, then 180, 170, 160....120.

I want to know what it feels like when I push past the fear and see that it really doesn't have as much hold on me as I thought.

What is the fear? The fear is letting go of the old me and embracing the new me. And I can do it. I am doing it.

  

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PINKDOGWOOD 1/15/2010 10:33PM

You will break the fear. I am behind you and pushing you. I will be screaming so loud with joy for you when you get below 200 you will hear me. The count down is on 9...... Happy New Year.

Day 7 - Weigh-in

Friday, October 23, 2009

WOO HOO! This low-carb lifestyle paid off. I lost 8 pounds this week. The most I've ever lost in a single week in any diet I have ever tried.

  

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PINKDOGWOOD 10/31/2009 3:03PM

Low Carb Sounds good what are you doing... Please

GABBIE00 10/24/2009 8:54AM

tell us what you eat.I would love to lose 8lbs instead 1 or 2

BILOWI 10/23/2009 11:00PM

Congrats! I have low carbed off and on and I know what kind of results it can produce.

KINGDEVIL 10/23/2009 10:29PM

what are u eating????

Day 5 - Pounds are dropping

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Since starting my diet 5 days ago, I've dropped 7 pounds. That's unheard of in my lifetime of trying diets, but this low-carb diet is doing the trick that no other diet was able to do. I feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser show because that's what some contestants would lose in a short period of time. I'm curious now...what will the weightloss be by the 7th day?

I did a HUGE walk today. Not something I planned, but once I got out, I kept saying to myself, "what's a few more blocks?" and so I wound up walking a few more blocks, then a few more, then a few more. I felt pretty good afterwards.

  

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GABBIE00 10/22/2009 10:32AM

VEUVEGIRL 10/21/2009 8:12PM

Congrats!

Day 2 - Liking my new diet

Sunday, October 18, 2009

It's a low-carb diet which is something I have never considered to try because I thought I would miss my carbs too much. Funny enough though, I don't, and what's even more amazing is that I haven't had any problems with my acid reflux which is something I've suffered from for years, daily, so not having any of those symptoms is nothing short of a miracle for me.

This diet is not just something I found in a book, or found on the internet. It's a diet that is monitored closely by a medical doctor on a week-to-week basis. I actually had to be referred to him from my own family doctor, and if my own doctor endorses this diet, then it has to legitimate.



I wanted to comment on how I love the new route maps we can add to our fitness. I am definitely going to make use of this feature and being a Canadian, I am thrilled that our Country is included in this feature. I have saved three walking routes in my neighbourhood that include lots of hills and where I can burn good calories on.



This time around I am glad to be back.

  

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ESSEXCHICKIE 10/19/2009 4:39AM

Back to day 1 and starting over?

Monday, June 22, 2009

Not to start off my first day back with a sob story, but after having taken ill for two months, not knowing why or what the cause was, I thought I'd question if I am really back and really starting over or will this just be another attempt at nothing at all. I guess time will tell.

  

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 6/22/2009 8:12PM

All we can do is our best and set small goals. I have found that telling myself that I am doing this so I can do more and get healthier while do it is a plus, and all the fun I have with the teams I am on it makes it worth it and so I say work, work, work, at it because it is for you.