Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Last month I reached the milestone of losing 80 pounds, right before we left at the end of the month for our trip to Florida. On the trip we ate out a lot and always really high-calorie food, food that I wasn't paying for and I was expected not to waste the food, so I had to eat as much of it as I could, rather than trying to stay as low-calorie as I could, and we didn't do as much walking as I had expected we would, so ultimately it all added up to me gaining nine pounds while on vacation. I wasn't shocked about it; I could tell I'd gained about nine or ten pounds by the way my clothes were fitting. On the morning we left for the trip, my jeans were big enough on me that they were almost falling off; on the flight back my jeans were feeling tight. So I knew without weighing myself how much I'd gained. And then half the month has passed without me really seriously trying to lose the weight. At one point I had lost all of it save two pounds and then I just kind of lost enthusiasm for everything because of other stressors in my life and regained a little of the weight and right now I've settled at 75 pounds lost or 176. So, my one-year mark since I started losing weight is coming up on Sunday and while I won't be able to make it back to 80 pounds, I'll be at 75 and I'm happy with having lost that amount in one year. And I feel ready now to start back to work again, get back to 171 and then beyond it and keep working towards my ultimate goal of 121.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
It's been awhile since I did a blog entry, so I wanted to do something quick before I leave for my vacation to Disney World today. A lot has happened this month, but mostly I spent the month being depressed and overwhelmed by a lot of things. I got in less activity than usual and expected to really pay for it, but in the last couple weeks just really started noticing all my brand new size 12 jeans getting looser and looser on me. Well, I've lost 80 pounds now in time for the trip, which makes me feel conflicted because I've been trying really hard for a long time to make it to 80 pounds. I had to lose 70 pounds twice just to get to 80 since I regained those 12 pounds and had to spend all of August regaining ground that I had crossed before, so hitting 80 pounds was really important to me. And now we're off to Florida and I know I'll be eating a lot of good food and likely gaining a bunch of weight so I only got to see 80 pounds for a brief moment! It's not something I should stress about because I know it won't take me long to relose the weight, but I feel like I shouldn't have to. Eating is the part about trips that I hate.
I just recently went from a size 14 to a size 12. I had only had two pairs of pants in size 14 even though I was a 14 for a long time due to regaining those 12 pounds. So, when I went down to a 12, I got kind of excited and went out and got like 9 pairs of jeans or something like that. I figured I'd probably be a 12 for a while, long enough to enjoy wearing these pants at least and I even bought two pairs from Maurice's and they fit perfectly. Well, for a week or so. Now that the month is winding up they look terrible on me. Even my smallest pair of 12's is too loose. So, even though I haven't officially tried on any pairs of size 10's yet, it's my guess that I'm a size 10 now. So again there's some kind of mixed feelings about that. Being a 10 is nice, but some of those 12s were pretty cute so I'll miss them. And wearing pants that are too big on you is almost as annoying as wearing pants that are too tight on you.
I'm also back to fitting into my size Medium winter coat that I wore back in 2011. Last winter I was wearing a size 2XL winter coat. It's just kind of crazy how much progress you can make in a year. It's a little hard to believe I've lost 80 pounds now but I've still got about 50 pounds to go. I actually revised my goal weight, though. I originally chose 107 as my goal weight and I've now settled on 121 instead because I considered it and think maybe 107 might be just a little too thin considering I'm 5'7", but if I get to 121 and I'm not happy with my weight, I can always lose more. But, at any rate, I'm only 18 pounds away from a healthy BMI now so I'm getting excited to reach that point and not be overweight anymore, but nothing was a greater relief than when I wasn't obese anymore. But, definitely being a healthy weight will be the greatest relief, right?
Monday, September 01, 2014
I'm officially halfway done losing the weight I want to lose. I'm also out of the 180s and back in the 170s again, which is very nice. Well, beyond very nice. There's really no words for it. It's a huge relief. I feel like I'm making progress again. Momentarily last month I was afraid that I was doomed to gain back all 73 pounds that I'd lost when I gained those 12 pounds. For a second I thought, "Ok, here it is, I'm not going to be able to stop gaining weight now." And then it felt like I was in the 180's FOREVER and maybe I always would be (I even had the conversation with myself at one point that I might have to consider 189 my stopping point and quit trying to lose any more weight, but that thought was momentary), even though it was only June-August that I was in the 180's. But, in August I lost 11 of the 12 pounds that I'd gained in July. With a little more work I should be able to shave off that extra pound and be all caught up. And being 179 puts me at the halfway point in my weight loss journey. But, the best part is that now I don't feel doomed anymore. I don't feel like I am fated to gain back all the weight that I lost--in fact I feel capable again of reaching all my goals and have all the energy and drive to keep losing more weight. And it's going to be a LOT more fun losing weight again now that I'm going to be losing pounds in the 170 range rather than losing weight I've already lost before.
Friday, August 29, 2014
Sometimes I'm not motivated. I have days where I just don't feel like it. Salad doesn't look good and I'd rather watch cartoons with my son than walk nine miles. But, being able to get through that feeling and get back in the game is a big part of being successful. And one of my goals for September is to "just do it" even when I don't feel like doing it. It's my goal to add 20 minutes of activity into each day doing whatever I can, even if it's just being out of my chair for 20 minutes. The goal is to not be sitting. Hopefully this will translate to time on the elliptical or some yoga or kickboxing, but even just cleaning or walking around the house is fine as long as I'm not plopped in a chair somewhere.
I've been drinking my 8 glasses of water regularly and feeling good, so my next goal is to try to raise up my protein, something I'll slowly work on throughout September. I'll be devising some new meal plans focused around getting plenty of protein and see how I'm feeling in October.
And, in October--October 19--it will be a year since I started trying to lose weight. I am not sure I will make it to 80 pounds--we will see--but I will have made it to 70 pounds at least, and that's a good amount to have lost in a year. I'm pleased overall with my progress so far and I will keep at it for another year and see where I am then.
Other goals for September include overall getting more organized. List-keeping again and sticking with my lists, getting more accomplished during the day and doing so consistently. Being as productive as possible during September. Starting a cross-stitch habit again would be nice if possible.
Basically in the coming month I plan on working hard. Nothing worth having comes easy. I've made a lot of progress so far but there's a lot of pounds to go yet so there's a lot of work yet to be done.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Since getting back on track, I have stayed on track and been working hard, getting results slowly but surely. On Saturday, a very hot day, I had a second birthday celebration with my sister and some friends out at a campsite in town and then later in the evening I drove out to Eau Claire to celebrate some more with my friend Bryan, all of which amounted to a day of drinking probably upwards of two gallons of water since I don't drink alcohol anymore and having a very excellent day overall which made up for the blues I was feeling earlier in the week. It also led to some weight loss. In the interest of keeping this weight off, I've been drinking plenty of water, moving as often as possible, and I bought some Tibetan Sorig Stress incense which helps alleviate mental stress & strains which is what usually triggers a lot of my depressions and weight gain. It seems to be helping.
One thing that's really been helping me to stay on track lately is my UP24. It's been giving me these alerts to let me know things like in the past two weeks I've averaged a yellow Food Score of 7.9/10 which means I've been eating a fair amount of healthy nutrients (eating oatmeal with brown sugar in the mornings and string cheese in the afternoon always brings my score down) so if I add more veggies to my diet my score will go green, and on Wednesdays I always beat both my move and sleep goals. As time goes by it's been learning more things about me and giving me more information about myself and my fitness, sleep, and eating, which is really motivating! My habits have been getting healthier and consequently I've been feeling a lot better, which propels me forward. And I credit a lot of my success lately to just drinking enough water. It's still hard to pass up unhealthy food, but it's getting a lot easier to make better choices, especially when I'm trying to get a good food score for the day.
This is my new mantra. I am really trying to keep in mind that what matters is what I'm doing right now, in the present, and the only way I'm going to lose the rest of this weight is if I continue to take steps towards being healthy right now, not tomorrow. So, when I'm tempted to stray from my meal plan I drink some water instead and think about what I'm doing before I do it, if I really want to do that to myself. Exercise doesn't seem to be too much of a problem these days. I have gotten addicted to walking. I do nine miles and right away I want to do twelve. But, I know I need to make time to do other things, too, but walking is fun!
I am really putting in the work these days. I have learned to stop being upset about not getting results when I haven't worked as hard as I could have. You get out of it what you put into it, so I'm putting in as much as I can. Hoping to reach the 70-lb mark again in the next couple of days, that would make me really happy. And just making a point to appreciate and enjoy every day and whatever it brings.
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