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Wed April 16

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Stayed busy yesterday but just didn't feel like I was functioning well. After work went to the framers and picked up the rest of the pics for the art display. I have about 6 things that I'll be sharing...I had several old pieces but chose not to take them. I'm pleased with the job that was done. tried to take pics last night but they all turned out poorly...bad light ...so I'll put a few on my pics and change them later.
I got the Black Pig back today. He drove well and I'm making plans to start the body work this fall, but this summer I'll be taking him around to local events and letting him be seen. (BTW, I'm talking about the 41 Ford).
DD left for a conference in Dallas this morning. I have the Senior conference tomorrow and then singing Sun for Easter Services. I hope to get to SIL for his Birthday week and to GS to celebrate the holiday. Maybe Sat. I also have to get the plants in the ground soon. Lots to do!
Tonight is rehearsal and then to bed. About time!!!
Be blessed all and keep Sparkin'!!

  
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NOWYOUDIDIT 4/17/2014 8:14AM

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LINTPICKER 4/16/2014 7:23PM

    I have been in a non-functioning mood lately as well. Perhaps it is the time of year or just being worn out.

I love the name of your old Ford!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/16/2014 4:46PM

    sounds like you are doing well my friend. I hope that you get to enjoy your conference AND time to celebrate with your grandson. Love ya

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Mon April 14

Monday, April 14, 2014

We all have a story to tell. Here's a little of mine. You women would understand a bit more of what I'm about to say.
As you know..I'm single, never married, and date a wonderful man who is so kind to me. I respect him and love him dearly. He is a man of honor and I appreciate him so much. But I have a history.
In my early years I had all the dreams of being a wife and mother and living a normal/average life of cleaning house and cooking meals and ironing shirts..yaddah, yaddah, yaddah!. I met my 'dream man' when I was an early teen. He was clean cut, conservative, and I loved his family. They were church people, and we had the same values and expectations.
When we were 20 we went to the annual church youth camp and just clicked. He was leaving for a stint in the Navy and I was heading off for a Christian college in another state. We wrote, called and when I came home from the term, he called and asked me to come and be with his family while he was on leave. He had changed so much. I thought he was beautiful!
I went to his home and even though there were awkward moments I just knew he was the one. But, half way through the visit (by the way, he stayed with his brother and sister in law while I was there so that there wouldn't be any gossip) he just disappeared. I kept asking but none of the relatives would tell me what was going on. After several days, I told his father to contact him and tell him to take me home. He showed up and I packed and left.
A few weeks later I got my Dear Jane letter. He had run into an old high school girlfriend who had made him 'feel good'. He wanted to be friends. I never responded. I ran into him several years later at a church convention and he approached me again. His wife, the old girlfriend, was there with their 2 adopted children. I felt like I had just been shot again. No pain like old pain.
I think back then was when I decided that I would never marry and that my life would be one of semi-isolation. I eventually healed, but the self-abuse was so evident. I was 200 pounds heavier and hated myself. Over the last few years I have learned so much by using the SP program and becoming part of it's family. This man did not make me gain weight or miss having a normal life. My choices were my own. I was responsible for who I was and what I became in appearance and attitude. I dove into education and earned 7 college degrees, traveled, used my music and presentation skills to create a wonderful life by the grace of God and I have found great happiness in what I've had. But, last night I had a flood of emotions come back over my heart when I got a message from this man's brother announcing that he had died suddenly. I found his FB page and was amazed that he had no family pics, no information, no 'anything' posted. Just the 3 pics I've put on this blog.

Life just happens. We are born, we live, and we die. It's not a sad thing...unless we never say goodbye. To sound real syrupy...I cried myself to sleep last night. I was sad for the days lost, the decisions made, the time I spent missing something/someone who was never mine.
I will continue to mourn my youth...but I will live on..and pray for his family and think of him from time to time, but time has made a change in me. the memories are bitter sweet. God has been good to me and I hope that he had a rich, full life. I will continue to turn the pages. Life will go on.
If you're hanging on to something that is barricading your success...let it go. If someone doesn't love you...love yourself. If life doesn't turn out the way you think it should, go with plan B and keep going. And keep going....and keep going. Don't tie yourself up with grief and regret and bitterness and any negative that keeps you from becoming the best you can be. It's not worth the energy to hang on to a past that makes you sad. Get up...say goodbye...shake it off...cry if you must ...then wipe the tears...wash your face...square your shoulders...and Keep Sparkin'!!! You're worth it!

  
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LINTPICKER 4/15/2014 10:50PM

    Thank you for your sharing. As you have probably read, I am going through a difficult time with a daughter that doesn't want her parents. We are being discarded and it rips my heart out. This blog helps. The hurt is great, but we keep on going. I will forever praise my Lord, for his grace and love. Thank you for sharing.

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/15/2014 4:16PM

    Sending up prayers for your emotional healing and sending HUGS your way my friend. Love ya

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STALEYK 4/15/2014 5:44AM

    Thank you for sharing your journey and encouraging us!

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NOWYOUDIDIT 4/15/2014 2:37AM

    emoticon emoticon Thank You for sharing that! You are a blessing!

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SUNSHINE99999 4/14/2014 11:43PM

  so are you. emoticon

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Sun April 13

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Another wonderful day. We had one of the best Palm Sunday services I've seen in our congregation for ages. The young people started off the service with a presentation of joy that they've been working on for weeks. There were at least 30 if not more who participated and we were so glad to encourage them.
We ran out to grab a bite and then met back at the church to canvas the two local cities with 'treat bags'. We gave them a calendar of pending events in the church and some candy with an invitation to join us on Easter. Fun to have people come out to meet us and welcome our gift and call us be name....don't know who they were...but what a blessing!!!
Worked on the new painting tonight. Really can't wait to see it done! The original photo had the toddler looking for an egg...I think I'll change it to a baseball. Same concept...a little more universal.
Gotta get to bed. To the gym in the morning and back to work. God is good all the time...be blessed and keep Sparkin'!!

  
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ALIALI2013 4/14/2014 11:28AM

    All the time, God is good! Love that movie, it was one of the best!

Are we going to get the chance to see your paintings sometime, I always love looking at artwork of others. :) and I know you're great at it! emoticon

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NOWYOUDIDIT 4/14/2014 1:04AM

    It's such a precious time of year isn't it? emoticon
Praising God!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/13/2014 11:20PM

    God IS good all the time AND.... ALL THE TIME, God is good!

Love ya

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CLAYARTIST 4/13/2014 10:31PM

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Sat April 12

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Long day.
Got up early and worked on a new painting. Seems that children are my new focus. wonder if it has anything to do with GS being in my life.
Worked on a little Spring cleaning in my bedroom then dressed to go downtown to sing. Went out to lunch with sister and then grocery shopping. Even found some plants for the pots in the yard. Came home and hit the field to complete the first mow and after that picked up Honey to go to a surprise birthday party for one of our youth pastors. Now home and just zoning out.
Had the second massage last night and got up without pain this morning...and wouldn't you know it...I had a bad fall and am now bruised and sore and feeling very awkward. No idea what tripped me, but I fell into the book case and hit everything between me and the floor that had an edge. All that therapy reversed! Blaugh. Oh well...back to the basics.
Going to bed...be blessed all and keep Sparkin'!!

  
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ALIALI2013 4/13/2014 8:26PM

    Awww sorry about your little accident, but you'll heal and be as good as new. I'll keep you in my prayers and know that everyone is here rooting for you.

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LINTPICKER 4/13/2014 8:11PM

    you are too busy to be "falling down on the job" (probably a poor pun). But I hope you will be feeling better and a little less black and blue really soon!

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NOWYOUDIDIT 4/12/2014 11:32PM

    Darn! I hate falling! emoticon
You need to post more pictures of your work emoticon

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KAREN608 4/12/2014 10:42PM

    I know, one minute you are fine, next falling and hitting all sorts of things.
You have been doing so well, too. Hope Sunday is a blessed day for you as always.

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/12/2014 10:17PM

    So sorry that you had a fall. I hope that you will be alright. Take care of YOU my friend. Have a nice Sunday. Love ya

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Fri April 11

Friday, April 11, 2014

Got home last night and couldn't resist. I jumped on the mower and with the Lord's help was able to get most of the yard to the pond, down the dam, in front, and up around the garden and side lots mowed by 8:00pm. Sun was going down when I came in ...and it was first cut so it's not the golf course cut...but I'm so excited. It's usually June before I can get mowing started...and last night I just took a chance that I wouldn't slide on those hills with the rain we've had. Cutting lets me see more clearly what odd jobs I need to get to...like pulling vines out of trees, cutting thorn bushes back, seeing things that need repair and just getting a picture of jobs for the summer. The art work and bookings to speak have been a distraction..but I think I can balance it all in the long run. Got a call last night while I was up in the field and will be singing tomorrow at a local place. Sister laughed and asked me if I thought I could keep up with so many jobs being juggled. I'll get tired after awhile and have to stop and rest...but the extra time off this week helped.
Work has been steady today...but not as disorganized as yesterday. I have 2 bosses who are vying for power right now. One says that we have to see every person who comes in with a physical complaint even though we don't have appointments. The other says 'inform them that we are not a walk in clinic, have them take a seat, let them know that it may be an hour or two and make them wait.' we have a lot of people who come in for an appointment in another area of the clinic and 'just because they're here' ask to see the doctor or nurse or anyone who will give them extra attention. Most of the time, I see men who tell me that their wives 'told them to talk to the nurse' before they leave the clinic. About what????really????Call me next time and I can give you that information over the phone...now you've been charged 50.00 just to 'talk to' me or my partner. Phone call's free. I would not dare walk into my Dr's office and expect to be seen by ANYone without making an appointment first. Interesting.
We were supposed to have rain all day today...none so far. Waiting. If it's dry enough...I'll hit the top field when I get home. The wooded areas will still be too wet to mow...but some of the open fields are dry enough to support the wheels of the mower.
The church has planned a canvasing on Sunday...I signed up not realizing that GS would be having an activity as well....so I'm planning on having a private egg hunt for him next week. Hope the weather holds.
Be blessed all and know that you are loved with an everlasting love. Keep Sparkin'!!

  
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LINTPICKER 4/12/2014 11:06AM

    I love seeing things happening in the yard! You are very busy but you seem to keep everything under control.

I think the 50 dollar charge is a great idea! emoticon

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/11/2014 7:49PM

    Congratulations on the mowing job. You'll have a great time with your private egg hunt. I am sure that the canvasing will be totally awesome. Love ya

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KAREN608 4/11/2014 3:52PM

    I can relate to the yard work. I just pick an area and clear away any old brush/weeds. If I looked at the whole job it would seem overwhelming. But just doing it bit by bit it gets done and the yard looks so much more tidy. Happy happy spring to you!

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ALIALI2013 4/11/2014 1:24PM

    You have such a busy life, I'll bet you were happy to get away and enjoy the, well, but for the noise of the mower, peace and quiet of mowing lawn. I love doing that, but normally the husband and son take over the job before I get a chance to. I'm going to be doing it a lot more this year because, well, I love doing it, like you.

Yes, makes a lot of sense to come in and talk to you instead of calling, if those people have that much extra money, toss it our way, we can use it for the playground. *L*

I hope you have a great weekend planned, and keep on singing, it brings beauty to everyone!

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