Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Actually, no. That isn't accurate.
Everyday (read: all TWO days of this week so far) I am spazzing out on endorphins and caffeine. Today marks the 2nd day of being at the gym at 5:30.
Yesterday went AWESOMELY well.
Mondays are usually good days for me though, so I had to chalk some of that up to start of the week productiveness. I managed to keep myself away from my book so I could do my dishes, set out clothes, pack lunch, and make myself an awesome dinner (that's right, i cooked. It hardly counts though because i made an omelet and those are pretty much my specialty, so...props but not really).
What surprised me most about yesterday was that I was really energetic and pretty focused all day, but then when I got home from my class, I was noticing my body winding down already and my mind sort of shutting off. I was in bed by 10:30 and asleep before 11:00, which nearly NEVER happens. I slept pretty well, waking up only once or twice, and had no problem getting up this morning.
Felt SUPER great!
So, day #2, let's do this thing.
Ran & such this morning at the gym. At lunch today I am doing a pool workout with my crazy coworker, who was a competitive swimmer. I am basically a disabled walrus in the pool--super awkward and not at all efficient. This should be interesting. At any rate, then I have afternoon meetings and then climbing. This is an exerciseful day :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
My alarm went off from across the room, because I am a lazy-a$$ who likes to hit snooze in the morning even though I am usually awake. Not this time. No--I was awake at 4am, but dead to the world when my alarm went off at 5 to remind me that I picked today to start going to the gym before work. Why today? Why the eff NOT?!?! Actually, the real reason is because it seems that work/activities not exercise related/depression have been keeping me from actually exercising.
I still have goals, y'all. Turns out that means I am gonna be hauling myself out of bed to be at the gym at 5:30. Today was easy. It will be tomorrow that is hard.
The behind the scenes:
After getting back from an entirely awesome weekend, I put away my gear, ran some laundry (which got folded and put away IMMEDIATELY, go me!), did dishes, then ran a few errands, which included getting shampoo and conditioner for my gym bag. Which I then packed.
I cannot beLIEVE the amount of time i took me to do this! I am hoping as I do this more it becomes easier. But it took me nearly 45 minutes just to put work clothes, shampoo & conditioner, and some soap in a bag. Well, to be fair, I also set out my workout clothes and packed my lunch. So, here is what I have learned (who says you have to go on a LONG journey to learn something???):
REMOVE ALL OBSTACLES.
There is always something that can be the target of my apathy. Last night I paved the way for my success by removing ALL the obstacles. Tonight, I will do the same.
I am probably going to blog again today (what?) because I got a really cool email from my dad in the middle of last week that I have been mentally chewing on and wanted to share some thoughts. So, if there is time, more later :) If not, happy monday--hope it is a good one!
Friday, September 09, 2011
I joined a challenge in a private team called the Pimp my (P)Ride challenge. To start with we had to do the following before the end of this week:
1. Find your official starting line.
Crunches completed in 1 minute: 31
Pushups (or modified pushups) completed in 1 minute: 25
How long (up to one minute) can you hold a plank: 1 min. (i stopped at a min.)
Pull-Ups (if you have somewhere available to do them) completed in 1 minute: have to check, haven't been to the gym yet this week. Will let you know monday.
Squats (without weights) completed in 1 minute: 38
2. What equipment will be you be using in this challenge?
Gym equipment, mostly freeweights and dumbbells, but some heavy machines as well. My own body weight, some resistance bands. Whatever strikes my fancy when designing my workouts.
3. What dumbbells weight/resistance level are you starting at? (if applicable):
Pretty variable because I lift differently everytime I am at the gym. Sometimes I do supersets so the weights are low, sometimes I do higher weight sets. Depends on the exercise too. I typically dont add a lot of weight doing squats and lunges to protect my knees a little bit.
4. Why do you feel the burning desire to grow stronger, to change shape, to prove yourself?
I want to climb a 5.12 and someday get to big wall. I want to be in as good of shape as I have ever been in when I go in for knee replacement (at age 27!!!) next year. I want to look hot in a short skirt and backless shirt.
5. Create your tracking space.
A google spreadsheet accessible from wherever I am, be it via phone or computer.
6. Your dreaded before pictures.
I didn't have a chance to do my pictures yet. Hopefully monday!
7. Starting line measurements!
Left Biceps: 12
Left Forearms: 10
Left Calf: 16
Left Thigh: 25
Right Biceps: 12
Right Forearms: 10
Right Calf: 16
Right Thigh: 24.75
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
...E-LIM-INATE the negative.
So, I started to write a blog this morning about the perpetual funk I am in (month strong now!) and the serious weight-loss plateau I am also in (it has been a month! no progress for a month!)
But then outta nowhere, this stupid song got stuck in my head.
"...latch on to the affirmative, don't mess with Mr. In-between. You've got to spread joy, up to the maximum, bring gloom down to the minimum, have faith or pandemonium's liable to walk up on the scene..."
So....JUST FOR TODAY...
...Instead of focusing how the scale hasn't budged in a month...
...I am going to focus on the new pair of pants I had to buy because my other work slacks are looking like garbage on me; I am going to focus on the exhausted muscles and soreness in my back and legs from some truly intense workouts; I am going to focus on trying my best to keep eating in range and getting all my nutrients.
...Instead of focusing on how my job has dicked me over again...
...I am going to focus on how much I have learned since starting working here; getting my cover letter re-written (to go with my bangin' new resume); applying for new stuff; getting study materials for the NCIDQ.
...Instead of focusing on how upset I get that I am in AT LEAST as good of shape as every other girl i know despite how much bigger than everyone else I am...
...I am going to spend the day focusing on how I could keep up in a workout with my crazy coworker; how I can do one screamin' hard workout and still climb pretty okay later the same day; how random dude at the climbing gym told me i looked buff (uh...actually he said i had huge shoulders, but whatever); and how I am 100% confident that despite not running in a few weeks, I can still go out and run 5 miles.
...Instead of focusing on feeling sad and down...
...I am gonna focus on getting work done while i am at work; dishes done and laundry put away while I am at home; and enjoying the hell outta Chelsea's company when we eat Moussaka and drink wine tonight.
I have never considered myself a mentally tough person--in fact, I, in general don't think of myself as a strong person almost EVER. But right now, I am going to show that tyrannical part of my brain that doesn't want to be friends with the rest of it exactly what happens when it misbehaves. I will beat this by sheer force if I have to because I REFUSE to let every action be dictated by my emotions.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
A while back I made a post on the Mind Over Body 10-step process that Spark has. If you recall, i made it through blogging steps 1-5 before calling it a day. So, now that ALL of us have forgotten what I wrote before, I am gonna continue on with steps 6-10 of the article. (found here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/mind_o
Step #6: Write Your vision Statement
I LOVED this article because it really resonates in my life and my experiences. It seeks to broaden the focus of your life AWAY from merely weight loss. The article has a little coaching on how to write a vision statement, and asks a few questions:
*What do I want my life to look like in (1, 5 or 10) years? What do I want to be doing, what roles do I want to take on, how do i want to see myself?
It is always very hard for me to look at life in HUGE expanses of time, like 5 or 10 years. The ONE year plan? Totally manageable. In one year, I would like to be taking my first big international trip to Peru. I would like to be a licensed designer. I would like to have my portfolio up to date to begin looking for work in a more specific area of my field, which is to say, environmentally friendly/community focused design. I want to be able to walk.
*What would my ideal day look like? I will look forward to getting up and going to my job. I would love it if the first thing I did everyday was kiss a man I was in love with then ate a delicious breakfast. I would want to go to a job I found challenging and rewarding, and spend time after work with people who love the same activities as I do, and who value our time together. I want to be able to look at each day and FEEL grateful, not just put on a face. I want to tackle problems that arise with grace and dignity and a certain amount of stoicism.
*What personal values do I want my daily life to reflect?
Wow. This was a hard question for me because sometimes I think I do such a TERRIBLE job of actually living the life i believe in, and find that if i reflect on it I really AM falling short, due mostly to apathy. For example, I haven't volunteered in four years. And that used to be my lifeblood. So. Values.
Love--not a day should pass that the people in my life question how I feel about them; not a day should pass that I don't actively seek to express my awe at the world around me.
Community Development--I really believe that it takes commitment and sacrifice on the part of all parties to improve the circumstances around you, for yourself and for the people in your community. I really DO believe that we should help those around us find their way and struggle less.
Thirst for knowledge--This is an easy one to put aside, but I want my life to say that I am constantly re-evaluating where I am at, the things I believe, and the things I learn. I have a pretty insatiable appetite for learning new things and having awesome in-depth conversations with people. I love getting to KNOW people for what they value and believe.
Activity--it is crucial to me that my life be adventurous. I WILL NOT live a life that ends with me in front of the TV after coming home from work and doing nothing. Adventure makes me feel alive and helps me appreciate the world around me from new and exciting angles. I have fallen in love with men JUST because of the way they encounter activity.
Authenticity--I believe in being 100% real with people. Not 100% an asshole, but 100% honest and open and tempered. I don't want to bludgeon people with honesty, but I don't want to lie to my friends and people I care about, and almost nothing steams me up more than when I am lied to by people. I DO work hard to be attentive to others' perspectives and to being open about my own.
There are more. I am sure.
At any rate, bigger picture:
I want to be able to be active well into my later years in life. With 20 extra pounds on my already frail joints, this seems....infeasible. I want to be able to sit down and sketch and travel and ride and yadda yadda yadda.
I'll finish this in a bit, i gotta focus on work now :-P
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