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Turning it back around......

Monday, June 17, 2013

Well, it's real hard to admit this, but after 3 years of healthy living and sparking, I fell off the wagon. For the past year, I added 40 lbs back. Egads. Typing it out makes me take a deep breath because there is the truth in black and white. It happened slowly, insidiously, creeping in. I really thought I had figured it out, finally, finally. I have chastised myself over and over and got really depressed. But, a few weeks ago something "sparked" in me again. I've been back on spark and it feels like home again.....why did I leave? I've turned things around from gaining to losing and that horrible bloat has finally left. I hope I'm here to stay for the next 42 pounds and forever.

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HIKELUV 6/27/2013 8:40PM

    Welcome back. I think it's human nature to think we've got things figured out, and then to relax. I did the same thing after I lost 40 pounds. At least you have all the knowledge from your past success to turn this back around.

I have a feeling that those who help others "figure it out" - Weight Watchers leaders, Spark coaches, and nutrition instructors, etc., might have an edge on staying healthy. They are always thinking about healthy lifestyles, so they can't let it slip their minds. Also they have they accountability of the folks they teach/mentor watching them, following their example.

Good luck with your return to healthier habits!!

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DWSCHUYLER 6/17/2013 8:31PM

    So glad you decided to come back. This is the place to be! emoticon emoticon back!

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RIGEIN24 6/17/2013 7:01PM

    You're not alone...we'll offer you a hand to help you back up again. This is for life, doing what it takes to keep your body healthy and fit. The pounds don't matter. Just take care of you--and give yourself plenty of acceptance, forgiveness and love along the way.

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ZOLS00 6/17/2013 6:03PM

    It's not a sprint, it's a marathon. We've all fallen off the wagon, but the most important is deciding to get back on. You are evermore the inspiration because not only is your exercise routine something to emulate, but knowing that you're human makes me know I can do it too!!

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Blood Test Results - Then & Now

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

I just got my blood test results from my physical last week and I am happy! Two years ago my health was abysmal. Here are my numbers from then:

Weight: 248 lbs
Blood Pressure: 135/95
Glucose: 121
Cholesterol: 244
Triglycerides: 195
HDL (good) cholesterol: 24

It was all bad news. My doctor wanted to put me on two different cholesterol meds - one to lower my bad cholesterol and one to raise my good cholesterol. She also felt I was nearing the point where I needed blood pressure meds and she diagnosed me as pre-diabetic on the fast track to diabetes. I was 248 lbs - morbidly obese and very sedentary. Walking a flight of stairs left me huffing for breath. It was pretty grim. I told her I wanted to hold off on the medications and give me a chance to do this on my own.

Well, two years and a whole lot of determination and work have turned things around for me. Here are my numbers today:

Weight: 165 lbs.
Blood Pressure: 110/70
Glucose: 86
Cholesterol: 203
Triglycerides: 100
HDL (good) cholesterol: 43

I am so very happy!!!! All my numbers are now in normal ranges with the exception of cholesterol. They like to see that under 200, but I am pretty dang close now. My mother had high cholesterol so I think genetics are working against me there, but my lifestyle has certainly helped tremendously. My doc says I have successfully turned things around without medications. This makes me even more motivated to lose these final few pounds. It's never too late. Life is good!!!

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JAMILAH269 8/3/2012 7:20PM

    You see where you were a year ago. You made progress within that year with small steps. You may have made even more progress this year by using the same method. All things are changeable and all you needed was that small shift to get going. Now you're off enjoying a new life and may think this is old news. This is a piece of history that you should cherish and appreciate with all of your might. The past isn't over, it is in living motion. It lives within you forever. It is a transparent, yet powerful foundation that may lead you to bigger things!

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BESEVEN 1/5/2011 10:44PM

    Theresa, first, congratulations! That is so awesome! 2nd, I have a tip for you. Eat a half a teaspoon of cinnamon a day, every day. You can sprinkle it in cereal, on toast, or in coffee or tea. Do that every day for 6 months, and I promise you that your cholesterol will be below 200 without meds. High cholesterol runs on both sides of my family. Mine was at 256. Without making any other changes, or losing weight, it went down to 191 in just 6 months by doing this. If you happen to really hate the taste of cinnamon, you can buy it at most health food stores in capsule form, but you will way overpay. They try to claim that their cinnamon is a better, higher quality form, but there have been studies that have shown that there is no difference between regular, supermarket cinnamon and the fancy health food store stuff.

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SAL2525 9/17/2010 2:22PM

    Wow that is just wonderful~ sAL

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BECKYCOLVIN 9/7/2010 2:53PM

    Good for you! These are amazingly encouraging numbers!

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80 lbs down - 20 to go!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Today I hit something of a milestone - I am down 80 lbs - 80% to goal. And, you know, I think just maybe I have also had a catharsis recently. I was telling my husband (for the hundreth time) something I often say in posts and emails to other sparkers "you know I'm no expert on the subject" and hubby says to me "but you actually are an expert now - being an expert doesn't mean you know everything on a subject - it means you have learned a great deal on it and are continuing to learn". That really struck me and got me thinking. I've been so focused on the NEXT pound. Stay dilegent, stay diligent, stay diligent has been my mantra. I haven't really allowed myself to celebrate my accomplishments lest it make me lose focus.

But, I thought, dang girl, losing 80 lbs is pretty good. You've attacked this thing, this albatross that has been hanging on your neck for 40 long years, on all levels - with the mental being perhaps the hardest of all (although they were all hard). And you've learned so much that I couldn't possibly have envisioned when I took the first shaky step of this journey. It's like you just have to start walking down the path and with each twist and turn new landscapes, obstacles and knowledge are revealed to you. Sometimes I have felt like a fraud because I have fallen so many times. I've been fat all my life - battled bulimia and binge eating. Forty years of disordered eating does not get wiped clean overnight - not by a long shot. I was 200 lbs in high school. The mental scars of merciless tauting were carved deep into my soul and my unhealthy lifestyle had firmly taken root. (btw I recently set up a facebook page and joined my old high school FB page - it was STUNNING to see that many, if not most, of the cheerleaders and others who seemingly took such joy in taunting me are now actually obese themselves - I was the ONLY fat girl in my high school 30 years ago and now I am probably one of the thinnest people from my graduating class - part of me was deeply satisfied that karma exists, but then, I wish obesity on no one, even those who carved such deep scars into my soul)

On this journey, I have often taken two steps forward only to be slammed back hard. I have cried so often, feeling defeated, frustrated, alone. The difference though, the difference now is I made a vow to keep going no matter what. It's been far from perfect. But now, just maybe, it is a time to celebrate what I have indeed accomplished. I'm not there yet - heck I know when I do get to goal some magic curtain won't be opening to make all the struggles go away. This is a lifelong committment but I am finally at a place where I *know* I'm up for it. Give me what you got baby, I can handle it. My new lifestyle, while I wasn't even looking, has crept into to my psyche and taken root. It is the most WONDERFUL feeling ever to be strong, healthy, sexy, confident and FREE. I feel all those things now. Yes, maybe the time has come to give myself permission to celebrate.

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MAMMA3MONKEYS 4/4/2011 1:58PM

    I love your post. I felt that way when I lost my weight, but I lost myself some how. I remember how I felt and how I loved my life. I say to myself now "It's ok, I'm back on my way" and each day is a brand new glorious day on my journey.

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ZOLS00 9/21/2010 9:40PM

    I know this was a couple of months ago, but still inspiring! Keep it up. I hope you don't mind, I'm adding you as a friend. I think you have much to teach, and I much to learn! I am proud of you for sticking with it, even when you don't want too. Can't wait to sing the same 80lb loss song! emoticon

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10INPROGRESS 9/21/2010 6:07AM

    80 pounds you rock :o)

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BECKYCOLVIN 9/7/2010 2:55PM

    This is so encouraging! It's easy, when we still feel like we have so far to go, to get discouraged and feel like this is taking FOREVER!! It's so good to really take stock of how far you've come, and to give yourself credit for good choices made and being so far from your starting point.

I'm almost at 60 lbs lost--really looking forward to the 80 pound mark! :)

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KATERUNS 8/11/2010 9:10AM

    Thank you for responding to my board post earlier this week. It helped. I am having a really hard time and your blog and post inspired me. I will add you as a friend and would like to haer more of your story!


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BIGMAMAT 7/26/2010 7:54PM

    emoticon emoticon. slow and steady wins the race. Congrats on your sucess to a thinner, happier, healthier you!! emoticon

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MOM23AZ 7/23/2010 5:13PM

    I think you have a fabulous attitude. I have never understood how people can be so cruel at any age but if you have never walked in their shoes it is easy to judge. I love that you have made such a wonderful change in your life and can be an inspiration to others.

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KAYLAP101 7/16/2010 12:09PM

    Great Blog! Congrats on your weight loss! Keep up the excellent work! Your doing fabulous!

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SLIMMAR 7/16/2010 11:27AM

    emoticon to you! That is emoticon

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ORGOLDENDUCK 7/16/2010 11:26AM

    80 POUNDS!!! WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO......You definitely should embrace celebration of your easy task if I do say so myself!!! Thanks so much for your honesty in this blog.....especially with regards to having setbacks, and pushing yourself through them....I really needed to hear that!!! Thanks for the inspiration and motivation to keep going!!!

Carrie emoticon

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Monday, May 24, 2010

I've been thinking a lot about plateaus lately because I just came off of my 3rd one in the past 2 years. The first one was easily understandable and only lasted about 5 weeks. I had lost weight very rapidly in the beginning, probably 25 lbs in the first 10 weeks when I hit that first plateau. Looking back, it was my body's way of saying whoa!!! It also made me realize that the honeymoon period was over and nothing was going to be easy from here on out. Every single pound would be hard won.

The second plateau was much different. It came after a good year and 55 or so lbs were gone. I think that plateau was more mental than physical. I was starting to get a lot of compliments, for the 1st time in my life I could shop in the regular section and my mind just kind of freaked. I needed some time to mentally adapt to the changes my body had undergone. It really felt like I had been released from a 40 year prison and the sun was temporarily blinding. That plateau lasted a good 6 months. It was also different in that I was eating more than I had been in the initial phase, so the fact that I was plateauing was not a mystery. I did a lot of mental work in this phase and shed a lot of tears too, but looking back it was very cathartic.

This last plateau was an altogether different animal that the 1st two. I still haven't figured it out totally. I was doing all the things I had been doing - eating better than ever, exercising harder than ever and everything just kind of stopped in the weight loss department. This 3rd plateau lasted almost 3 months. I kept thinking "if I was doing all these things at 248 lbs, the weight would be flying off of me". But, I think the answer probably lies right there. I'm not 248 lbs anymore, I'm 170 and the lifestyle that will cause weight loss at 248 is different from the lifestyle needed to cause weight loss at 170. I realized I needed to step it up because it's a different ballgame now. I dropped my calories by 200 per day and added in some swimming and sprints. I had been walking as my primary exercise for 2 years and I think my body has adapted to that - what was once hard is easy for it now.

What I have really learned is that change is the one constant - in life and in my health journey. So, I finally broke thru this latest plateau and the scale is once again moving in the right direction. Who knows how many more I'll face before reaching goal. In so many ways this has been a journey of discovery and as frustrating and maddening as they are, plateaus have taught me some of the greatest lessons I needed to learn.

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TESSA321 7/21/2011 10:45AM

    Thanks for the advice, and forewarned information. I've hit my first plateau, and hopefully when I weigh in tonight. I'll see a difference, but if not I'll keep on as planned. I appreciate your thoughts! Thanks, Tessa

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ILUVTOTAT 8/25/2010 3:31PM

    Very interesting! Thank you. I'm on my first plateau now, and I was thinking the same thing. The honeymoon is over. Time to get a move on!

Thanks for putting it into words.

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DAISYBELL6 8/25/2010 2:55PM

    This blog really helped me understand my own weight loss journey and my current 2 month plateau. Stepping it up is not the answer I want to hear, since I am so much more active now, but I think it is the answer.


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LUNALORI 7/12/2010 6:01PM

    Thanks for the insights and inspirations! It truly is about the mindset! You look fabulous! You're proof that change can be great! emoticon

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LUNALORI 7/12/2010 6:00PM

    Thanks for the insights and inspirations! It truly is about the mindset! You look fabulous! You're proof that change can be great! emoticon

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AEB523 7/7/2010 8:51PM

    You are an of luck on your journey.

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HIKELUV 7/1/2010 9:05AM

    Thanks for the great blog! I appreciate your patience, and willingness to change. That's a message I definitely needed to hear. I wish you the best of success in your goals and life!

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SPOILTDIVA 5/25/2010 6:16AM

    Great blog! You've helped motivate me once again so I've added you as a friend. I've plateaued before I've even really started which I'm hoping to remedy soon. X Mel

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DALLI24 5/24/2010 1:11PM

    I have been on a plateau what seems like forever. I am going to change my way of thinking, eating and exercising to hopefully fall of this plateau once and for all.

When you hear that you are not alone in this battle it motivates you into trying other things. Thanks for the boost!



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