Friday, January 24, 2014
So, I came across these adorable bracelets! If you've heard of Alex & Ani, they remind me of the meaning/messages behind it. They are probably the next craze. Maybe Alex & Ani is just local...I'm not even sure. After all, they originated in Providence, RI and I'm near the state line. Anyone unfamiliar?
I was going to purchase a few until it dawned on me...why not work towards it! It would be a gift to myself ...an incentive...and it would mean so much more!
My hope is to collect one per 10lbs lost! GOAL SET!!
"Never Give Up"
"One Day At A Time"
"Enjoy The Journey"
Simple statements that tell quite a story!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Ok, so I post a silly "about me" to throw myself out there in a unique way and I have replys shortly after. (I forgot how nice it is to hear from a stranger...and my long lost spark buddies) I've created a distance with my spark friends for quite some time. I pop in and out. I normally have had a couple days with great tracking and then I lose touch with the site. I often use the app to track and I don't socially entwine myself with spark friends, etc. I'm sure many of you have played this game.
I routinely check my email and today I see a couple comments, a post to a couple motivational/humorous pics, and a couple messages...my push for the day, a prayer from a stranger, and complete understanding of those who share this struggle. Suddenly I'm confused...
"SparkPeople Motivator"!? Who? Who me? What the heck for!? I'm so anti motivated right now! Then I'm like...it says "motivator"...not "motivated". And I think...oh! Yes!! That's about right...I'm great at motivating! Just not utilizing the techniques to motivate myself right now. I'm just at a low...and even with all the highs, there tends to be a low. Ok, so I'm not motivated. Others may not experience MY drastic low...although some may. It's definitely been about learning along the way and finding myself.
What's motivating about me? Perhaps because...
I know I can do it! I've done it...in a healthy manner!
Shared many stories and helpful hints on healthy choices.
The phrase "If I can, anyone can!" Soooo...applies.
There is no size in mind, it's feeling good...and living!
I only view my gain/regain as a learning experience.
I always find my way to sparkpeople!!!!! 😊❤️
Feel free to share your opinion! I truly don't know why I was chosen. I just know that it was motivating to receive such news! It was motivating to hear from friends and strangers. It brought a smile to my day!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
So, I borrowed this for a Sparkfriends blog and thought Id throw myself out there. I think it would be wonderful too see other peoples answers and get to know other little things about each other. Our info descriptions and blogs tend to miss things, so without further ado...
A is for Age:
B is for Booze:
Not a big drinker, but my once in a while is probably going to be a fruity concoction! (Pineapply, coconuty, strawberryish...mmm)
C is for Car:
Which one! (I love me some cars...and car payments I guess!)
'13 Chevy Tahoe LTZ and '13 Honda Accord V6
D is for Dad's name:
Eric (miss him everyday! Xo)
E is for Ego:
ugh...thinking psychology, which leads to the thought of school. Heading back next week. Don't want to think about it!
F is for Favorite song or music:
Music lover! Hmm...fave at the moment..."Drink a Beer" - Luke Bryan
(since I don't drink beer...haha)
G is for Goof off thing to do:
Bestie and I though about "borrowing" a garden gnome from a not-introduced-yet-neighbor to utilize as a mascot for our Thursday Ladies Night. (Brought back old times...crazy chicks)
H is for Hometown:
Lil' ol' country town in MA
I is for IQ:
Hmm...3.85 GPA an ok substitution!?
J is for Jam or Jelly you like:
raspberry jam (smucker's) with seeds!
K is for Kids:
Twins - 11yrs old (my life!)
L is for Living arrangement:
Beautiful home on 14 acres! "home sweet home"
M is for Mom's name:
Jeanne (my middle name)
N is for Name of best friend:
O is for Observations:
I definitely observe...and over analyze!
P is for Phobias:
anything that scurries fast or slithers...ugh!
Q is for Quote you like:
"Life would be pretty boring, if everyone was the same!"
R is for Relationship:
14 yrs of strength - been through a lot together! Still going...
S is for Siblings:
2 brothers - 37, 24
T is for Talent:
Giving great advise and support to others and not doing the same for myself. It's become a talent...
U is for Unique trait:
I can wiggle my pinky toe, while the others remain in tact...hahaha...just my mom and I! :)
V is for vegetable you love:
Not many that I don't love, but many I haven't tried.
W is for Worst traits:
too kind (it's truly a down fall at times.)
X- is for X-rays you've had:
Ankle, chest, wrists,...
Y is for Yummy food you make:
everyone loves my buffalo chicken dip!
Z is for Zodiac sign:
So now its YOUR turn! Post this! I want to read more and know more about you!
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Wrote a loooong blog tonight and it erased somehow! Rrr...
Felt good to express myself. Sorry I don't have it in me to do a rewrite.
Finding my smile again...
Saturday, June 15, 2013
A sparkfriend of mine suggested that I start blogging again. I've had the urge, but it has seemed as though my mind has been leaning toward negativity and toward feeling down on myself. I didn't want to whine or complain. I didn't want to rain on anyone's parade. Negative thinking can truly be detrimental in the process of change, but venting whether negative or positive, can be a healthy way to rid of those negative emotions. So, I won't call it "venting" (that sounds negative). I'll call it "expressing myself". It just sounds positive. I didn't think about the fact that sparkpeople may choose to read on or refrain from continuing. It's all about choices, right?
I have to admit that I also have struggled to get going. The first step has been knowing that this lifestyle does not work for me. The lifestyle that I slipped back into, resulted in an unhappy Amy. Living a healthy lifestyle isn't about just eating and exercise. It is also about living happily. I realize that I may have worked real hard on watching my food intake and exercise, but all the mental anquish still remained.
Unfortunately, it has taken an unexpected event to finally start caring for myself, when this should be what I do daily. These moments seem to be the ones that seem terrible at first, but then seem as though they were meant to happen. You know the saying, "Things happen for a reason!" Well, it was meant to be. So, I began going to therapy. I know...some people cringe at the word "THERAPY!". I, however, am very open to it. Not only do I know that I have a lot of baggage to sort through and maybe even toss overboard, but I am determined to live my life taking good care of myself.
I want to know why this addiction to food, whether it is consoling, whether I am hiding behind the layers of fat...whatever! I need to know why and what triggers me, in order to take control of it. Yes, I said the word ADDICTION. For me, it is exactly what we have here. Some people may not understand it in such a way. I researched the signs and thought I could post some, but the list goes on and on, differs slightly...most importantly I keep saying, yes, yes, and yes.
I found some troubling questions that are quite eye opening. Here's a couple...
- Do you think about food most of your day?
(Probably, but I did when I was eating healthy too.)
- Do you sometimes eat behind closed doors, to prevent others from seeing what or how much your eating?
(This is disturbing, but disgustingly true! I guess the car door counts.)
The more I read on, the more it broke my heart. This isn't just a person who makes some bad choices when it comes to food intake. This isn't just a battle between cookies and carrots. This is a HUGE issue for me and I need to gain control over it and overcome this addiction. Most importantly, I need to get mentally healthy in order to be successful.
I've started, then had a day of overindulging and threw the attempt out the window. I restarted, then felt as though if I was ready I'd be dedicated and I wasn't...so I stopped and went back to bad habits. I've thought about it A LOT, but they were just thoughts...not actions. I've felt like I'd fail over and over if I try AGAIN at this weight loss gig, so I even have "thought" about LapBand procedure (which a friend tried to convince me of doing. She's been successful at such a lifestyle.) I, however, do not want to live the rest of my life RESTRICTED. I do not want to do something that I find an unhealthy way of weight loss, when I can do it in a natural healthy manner (done it!). Funny thing....read about it...read the diet PRE and POST...laughed thinking that I could lose a tone of weight just eating the crap they are subject to before and after....haha Liquids...mmmm....ensure....mmmm....morsel
s of food...greaaaaaaaat. I think I even read no dairy EVER...no soda EVER? I forget. I was turned off more and more as I read. Not appealing. Band slippage? A possibility? You have to be kidding me! By no means do I want to give in to such a thing. If I was 600lbs and found it hard to walk, maybe I would be desperate to move! Although, I gotta say...if I continue on this road, I may be looking in the mirror at a 600lb woman before ya know it! TIME FOR CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess my point is that I HAVE been doing a lot of work so far, when I thought I've done nothing just because I haven't put good food choices into effect. The thought process and being mentally ready is probably the most important part of getting started and being successful. I'm working on me. I'm working on making better choices in many aspects of my life, not just with food/exercise. I'm here on sparkpeople. That matters A LOT! I'm trying and even if I have moments where I fall off a bit, it is soooooooooooooo important to get back on and continue. After all this isn't temporary. This isn't a month long experience. This isn't an "I want to lose weight so I can look beautiful on my wedding day." (reason #1) This isn't an "I want to lose weight so I can enjoy being active with my fiance' and children" (reason #2) This isn't an "I want to lose weight so I can get on a plane and take my boys to Disney!" (reason #3) This isn't an "I want feel confident when I enter a room." (reason #4) This isn't an "I want to stop asking for a table/chairs, not a booth that I can barely fit in." (reason #5) The reasons and wants go on and on and on............
My long term goal? It's a feeling, not a look. It's the most important thing in this journey called life...is that I just WANT to smile and be happy. Plain and simple.
End of this story. Today, I begin writing my next novel!!
To my special sparkfriend who inspired me to write this blog. Thank you for never losing touch, despite my long hiatus. You see...in regards to your "tree analogy" (explained in a blog What kind of person are you? - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
You, my friend, are a one of my favorite Root People!
For reference purposes, because calling a person a ROOT PERSON is kind of funny...haha
ROOT PEOPLE -
If you can find some people in your life who are like the roots of a tree then you have found something special. Like the roots of a tree, they are hard to find because they are not trying to be seen. Their only job is to hold you up and help you live a strong and healthy life. If you thrive, they are happy. They stay low key and don't let the world know that they are there. And if you go through an awful storm they will hold you up. Their job is to hold you up, come what may, and to nourish you, feed you and water you.
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