Thursday, May 15, 2014
Sooooo a few weeks ago decided to go to the dr. after having bad stomach issues but also a pain in my boob that really freaked me out. It just hurt and didn't feel exactly right. When I went to dr. she did an exam and said she didn't think there was anything there but she was going to send me for a mammagram and an ultrasound just to be safe. It was time for a mammagram anyway. But really wasn't worried because she didn't say anything like"lump" or "biopsy" or any of those scary words.
Went for my mammagram almost 2 weeks ago. They did the initial test. She said they might not even have to do the ultrasound depending on the radiologist and if he saw anything. Then she comes back and says don't freak out but we are going to do an ultrasound on both breasts not just the one. Because we don't have your films from the last time you were here. They have all been shipped off to be digitalized. But don't worry. So then have the ultrasound. She leaves and comes back. And says everything looked ok you should be getting your results in a week. blah blah blah!!
Ok so I leave and am a little worried but still feel like if something was seen they would get back to me pretty quickly. Yesterday still no results. So I call. She said they had to order my old scans. The dr. wanted to compare them. Still no cause for anxiety. This is normal. blah blah blah.
Today go to my sceduled follow up appointment. She asks me when did I have my tests? She calls no one answers so she leaves a message. Then while we are talking she said they are just trying to be thourough because she did feel a lump and it was palpable. AND then she said we might have to send you in for a biopsy depending on results. So now I AM freaking out!! Why else do they need my old scans? And what is taking so long? There has to be something they are worried about. There has to be something there right???? I can't talk to my mom. Lord knows she would freak out more then me. It might set her back and I can't risk that at all. She worries about what freaking mulch to buy let alone her daughter having a lump.
What pisses me off is that I am trying so hard to be healthy in my life. And I feel like I am always going back ward. My cholesterol won't go down, my stomach is jacked to where I need to be on prilesec probably forever. I still have pains all the time and my thyroid is messed up and can't take meds for it. Just thought being healthy I would feel better and get rid of some of this crap.
Sorry I am throwing my self a little pity party today. I am just feeling really down!! Thanks for reading. Just needed to vent and put it down on paper.