Sunday, August 11, 2013
At least for a few weeks. On each of the last two weigh ins I went up a pound. Who knows why. But I had been eating well, exercising a ton, feeling great. And the number made me feel not so great.
Let's go the next few weeks focusing on another number, 2000. That should be the maximum number of calories I consume per day. That should leave me with enough of a weekly deficit to lose some weight.
I am getting discouraged and feeling fat. Today I lost control and ate an entire package of biscuits. I feel crappy. I'm also on my period (finally) which is making me feel crappy for two reasons. First, I'm sore. Second, not having my period made me feel like I was doing well with exercising and losing weight. I'm sure my body eventually got used to the new exercise volume, but it still made me feel like I was failing when I saw my period had come back.
Don't get discouraged, Nicole. You didn't think this was going to be easy, did you? Focus on your calorie count, keep exercising, and don't worry about weighing in until after the triathlon.
Friday, August 02, 2013
Whoa. What got into me yesterday? I had an insatiable appetite, and once I was no longer hungry I kept wanting to be chewing on something. I think I'm getting bored of the foods I've been eating. I need to come up with some more options.
But have no fear, this train has not been derailed. I had a chat with myself in the mirror last night. "Don't stop now, Nicole. You're doing amazing. You look amazing and feel amazing and it's only going to get better. I am proud of you. But next week has to be a lower number on the scale. It has to. Otherwise, you're going to fall off course for a few weeks until motivation springs again. Just stay on course."
I rode my bike for an hour this morning and am feeling skinny in my jeans. At lunchtime I'll go for a swim. The goal until next Wednesday is to keep the calorie count down. It has to be under 2000 every day. Aim for the 1800 range. You can do this.
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
I'm nervous about my weigh in tomorrow. I've been doing great, exercising every day, keeping a calorie deficit most days, but I don't feel any different than last week. I've gotten used to this workout load. A month and a half ago it would have felt like a lot, but now it's my usual routine. I think I need to up the intensity - for weight loss purposes and triathlon training purposes.
But for now I'm just nervous. I don't want to see a number higher than 153.5. I want it to be lower.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
I think Wednesday weigh ins are a good idea. Every time I've tried to lose weight in the last several years, I've always stepped on the scale every morning. Two pounds down means I start the day relaxed and happy and proud. A pound up or no change at all and I'm dejected. By the end of the day maybe I'm thinking, at this point, what harm is a bowl of ice cream?
But I know better. I know that weight fluctuates due to all sorts of things besides just losing fat and weighing in every morning is going to capture all the wiggles that don't say a thing about the long term trend. Plus, I think weighing in every day led me to quit early. If I had a bad number a few days in a row, I'd just give up and wait for motivation to strike again later. Weekly weigh ins mean I need to be good for seven days in a row. Yesterday I came in at 153.5. 156 was all I needed to land myself before the blue line on my chart that gets me to 130 by Christmas. On Tuesday night before I went to sleep I practiced my reaction to the scale. "If I'm over 156, I'll keep working my butt off. If I'm under 156, I'll keep working my butt off." So when I saw the number, a strange thing happened, nothing. I wasn't overjoyed that it was much lower than my goal. It was just a number to log, to confirm that I've been working hard. But it didn't change the plan, "keep working my butt off."
I can see a definite change in my body. My stomach is flatter, my legs are leaner, and I think my face is even clearer. I feel great. It's been easy to work out every day because it's my favorite part of the day. I'm always looking forward to my next run, bike, swim, or RU Fit class. I think I've only had 5 days in the last 5 or 6 weeks that I didn't work out. The calorie limiting part has been more difficult. My original goal was to consume 1700-2000 a day, regardless of how many calories I burned, but looking over my reports from the last few weeks, I've expanded that range to 1700-2200. There are some days where I'm in the 1800s, but quite a few in the 2300s or 2400s. I think I can reign it in a little bit.
If I don't lose anything this week I'll still be below the blue line. But now I have a new mini goal. Barker Day is in two weeks. I'd like to see 149 on Wednesday the 7th.
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
I activated this account almost six years ago, while I was still in college and still deep in my dark days of overeating. I never really used it, but I'm ready to give it a shot now. I've overcome the binging habit. Over the last several years I learned to binge less often, and to not be ashamed of it. Not being ashamed helped me get back on track more quickly after a bad night.
In the last few months though, the desire to binge has gone completely. I made a dramatic change to my diet about three months ago - I cut out sugar. I cut it out of the usual places like ice cream and muffins and even the bars that were my go-to snack. I also seriously minimized it in the places that seem healthy - yogurt, milk, fruit. I now eat plain greek yogurt, almond milk, and have fruit only occasionally. I live on eggs, chicken, fish, nuts, tons of green veggies, beans, cheese, and really dark chocolate (85%, 3 grams of sugar per serving, which is like eating nuts). The amazing thing that has happened is that I have stopped craving sugar. I used to be the girl who would say yes to ice cream any time, any place, but now usually when I think of it I could take it or leave it. (Every once in a while I indulge in So Delicious Almond Ice Cream which has way less sugar than any other ice cream).
When I first made this change I lost weight instantly. I dropped five pounds in a few days and I was ecstatic. But the weight came back on and hasn't budged in three months. I feel great, happy, healthy, and energetic, but I just wish this extra weight I've been carrying around since freshman year of college would take a hike and never come back.
So now that I have this new diet lifestyle under control, and I feel like I could live this way forever, I'm going to take a serious look at my calories in and calories out. I'm also going to increase my calories out a lot. I recently ran a 10 mile race on hardly any training and at a faster pace than I thought I could. I also completed a three-day, 180 mile bike ride on arguably less training. Clearly I can do more than I think I can.
At the end of August I'm going to do an Olympic distance triathlon. I'll try to get a Sprint in before then. For the last 10 days I have worked out every single day, at least once a day and I feel better than ever. My body is capable of doing more than I think it can. It's also capable of functioning on less food than I think I need. All I need to do now is train my brain to know that too and I am certain I will reach my goal.
130 by Christmas.
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