Tuesday, December 03, 2013
I know I have gone pretty quiet over the last couple of weeks.
I've been incredibly busy with my two jobs, and Thanksgiving, and getting ready to move next month, and coping with the loss of my dog, Lucy.
Not running and not CrossFitting is killing me. Especially the first week when I was coming down off of all those endorphins--I was a big weepy mess.
My weight has been kind of stuck and I've been lazy about tracking my food. I'm traveling on business this week but I've really been doing a good job of staying away from the carbs. I'm also getting tons of steps, which I haven't done in a few weeks because of the hip injury.
The next 4 to 6 weeks are going to continue to be quite stressful, but I'm going to do my best to continue to do whatever exercise I can and to be better about my tracking.
Also, I've started a Facebook page about my weight loss journey called "Christina Can Change." I'd love you to come "like" my page if you are interested!
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Goodbye sweet Lucy.
I remember the day we found you at the pound, and we were filling out your paperwork and a family came up to the desk to ask about "the little black and white dog in the back." I was quick to point out that she was already MINE. If we had showed up at the pound five minutes later, we might have lost you.
Then the vet told us you had distemper, but we could just take you back to the pound and get another dog if we wanted to. But of course we couldn't do that. We knew they would just put you to sleep and you were already ours and we already loved you. We kept you and you pulled through, and it was the best decision we ever made.
You loved to lick us all to death! You especially loved to lick the top of Bob's head.
You were always so patient and tolerant, even letting babies pull on your fur without complaint.
You slept next to us for so many nights. I remember when you had a run-in with a skunk and you came inside before we realized it, and ran straight to our bed and rolled around all over it! You had to sleep outside for a couple of nights until we got rid of the skunk smell -- and neither of us liked it when you slept outside.
You gave us almost 11 years of love, joy, and devotion. You were a priceless gift to our family and we will miss you always.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Last night I really broke down and had a good cry.
I think that since I'm on hold with the working out until I visit the doctor again on Friday, my body is adjusting to a lot less of those good endorphins coursing through my bloodstream. On top of that, I got my period yesterday so my hormones are all crazy.
Add to that our worries about money, and the fact that I am fairly certain we are going to have to put my sweet dog Lucy to sleep later this week, and variety of other bits and pieces yesterday and it was time for a good old-fashioned breakdown.
I think that our bodies really hold on stress and that holding on to the stress often means holding on to the weight, too. After my good cry last night, the scale finally moved down a pound this morning. Release!
Life without running is not as enjoyable but hopefully, it won't last that long. I do have access to a pool so if the doctor clears me to swim, I'm going to do that until I can get back to running again. I WILL RUN AGAIN!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
So doc says I need an MRI to figure out what is going on with my hip.
Insurance approved the MRI. Great right?
No. Because I haven't met my $1750 deductible this year, the MRI will be 100% out of pocket.
Do I have money to pay for the MRI? No, of course not.
So thanks to the wonderful healthcare system and insurance system here in America, I am a middle class woman with two jobs and health insurance, yet I cannot afford a medical procedure I need.
I cannot afford a medical procedure that would help me to get better so I can continue my newly active lifestyle. That would help me get back to my attempts to be the best, healthy me that I can be. That would help me be one more person fighting against the obesity epidemic in this country.
So what does this mean for my treatment options?
This means that we wait about a month with no running or CrossFit, and we see if it gets better and heals on its own. What if it doesn't? Well that's just too damn bad because even though I have health insurance, we can't afford to treat it.
In the meantime, I feel like I am about to come out of my skin because I can't get out there and run. Last night at work, a customer forgot a bag so I went out to catch her. I turned to come back inside and without thinking about it, I started to break into a jog to get back to my register quickly. Instant pain.
I am not poor enough to qualify for assistance, but not wealthy enough to pay for my treatment. Awesome. I know that I am not alone, there are millions in the same predicament.
Why is it this way?
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