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Reward Time

Monday, April 14, 2014

May 13, 2013, I said I wanted to reward myself with a running shoe charm for my charm bracelet if I could complete a 5K with no walk breaks. Well it took me 11 months but Saturday, April 12, I finally did it!

I know I have been silent for months. My weight has held steady but I got lazy about tracking my food and along with that, I stopped losing. I have continued my running and I am feeling great. I have been religiously tracking my food again for the last week and the scale is already starting to show some improvement.

I appreciate all the continued support from everyone here and I hope to be better about keeping track of all you lovely folks here on SP.

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STEPH-KNEE 4/15/2014 1:21AM

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KALISWALKER 4/14/2014 8:00PM

    5K running all the way is quite an achievement!


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NOWYOUDIDIT 4/14/2014 7:16PM

    YEEEEEEAH!!!! emoticon emoticon AMAZING!! emoticon

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MAPFARMS 4/14/2014 2:40PM

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Congratulations that had to feel awesome. That is on my bucket list for 2014 also! Be proud!

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MBTEPP 4/14/2014 2:22PM

    emoticon reward well earned!

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MBTEPP 4/14/2014 2:22PM

    emoticon reward well earned!

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    Wow, congratulations! You did it! emoticon emoticon

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SILVER_WOLF1221 4/14/2014 1:46PM

    emoticon You got this!

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WOUBBIE 4/14/2014 1:43PM

    You rock!!!!

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I'm Still Here!

Tuesday, December 03, 2013

I know I have gone pretty quiet over the last couple of weeks.

I've been incredibly busy with my two jobs, and Thanksgiving, and getting ready to move next month, and coping with the loss of my dog, Lucy.

Not running and not CrossFitting is killing me. Especially the first week when I was coming down off of all those endorphins--I was a big weepy mess.

My weight has been kind of stuck and I've been lazy about tracking my food. I'm traveling on business this week but I've really been doing a good job of staying away from the carbs. I'm also getting tons of steps, which I haven't done in a few weeks because of the hip injury.

The next 4 to 6 weeks are going to continue to be quite stressful, but I'm going to do my best to continue to do whatever exercise I can and to be better about my tracking.

Also, I've started a Facebook page about my weight loss journey called "Christina Can Change." I'd love you to come "like" my page if you are interested!

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KALISWALKER 12/7/2013 1:58AM

    Christina - Do your best to live in the moment and let things unfold.

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DETERMINEDDE 12/4/2013 9:13PM

    I found you and liked you on FB. Keep on doing it! It's a marathon not a sprint.

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SHERYLP461 12/4/2013 8:14AM

    Fantastic, positive steps!

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KELLIEBEAN 12/3/2013 10:46PM

    Always good to see you! I just liked your facebook page! Thanks for sharing that.

Even with everything going on, you still have your head on straight! You'll make it through the next few weeks!


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MBTEPP 12/3/2013 10:38PM

    Baby steps. Hang in there.

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STEPH-KNEE 12/3/2013 9:52PM

    I will definitely head to your facebook page. I am sorry life is throwing so much at you right now but good job holding steady and not going back to old habits, that is a great accomplishment!

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WOUBBIE 12/3/2013 8:05PM

    Being stuck for a little while is OK, especially when you need some time to heal. I'm stressed to the max as well, and it bugs me that I can't find much time during the work day to walk and do my itty bitty little exercise things. I actually had to make my challenge goal this month to do some of my usual workday workouts at home if I missed them. It's still a little hit or miss, but I'm getting there. Which reminds me, better go pick up my weights for a minute or two.


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HILLRUNNER 12/3/2013 6:26PM

    I'm cheering for you!!! Great come back for sure!! emoticon

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LPRUNWALK 12/3/2013 6:22PM

    You are doing all the right things. What a balancing act: two jobs, travel, and a hip injury. I think it's amazing that you're keeping on top of all of this and managing to get your steps in. emoticon

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NOWYOUDIDIT 12/3/2013 6:18PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I would like you if I was on FB. :o)

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Lucy Keltner 2003 - 2013

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Goodbye sweet Lucy.
I remember the day we found you at the pound, and we were filling out your paperwork and a family came up to the desk to ask about "the little black and white dog in the back." I was quick to point out that she was already MINE. If we had showed up at the pound five minutes later, we might have lost you.

Then the vet told us you had distemper, but we could just take you back to the pound and get another dog if we wanted to. But of course we couldn't do that. We knew they would just put you to sleep and you were already ours and we already loved you. We kept you and you pulled through, and it was the best decision we ever made.

You loved to lick us all to death! You especially loved to lick the top of Bob's head.
You were always so patient and tolerant, even letting babies pull on your fur without complaint.
You slept next to us for so many nights. I remember when you had a run-in with a skunk and you came inside before we realized it, and ran straight to our bed and rolled around all over it! You had to sleep outside for a couple of nights until we got rid of the skunk smell -- and neither of us liked it when you slept outside.

You gave us almost 11 years of love, joy, and devotion. You were a priceless gift to our family and we will miss you always.

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GSEATON 1/30/2014 2:56PM

    -Just happened upon your blog today, 2 months late. Just to let you know I am sorry and have been thru the same thing. Pets are so important and just like family. Here's to happier days ahead. :(

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HILLRUNNER 12/3/2013 5:45PM

    I am SO SORRY to read of your loss!!!
emoticon and what a wonderful Lucy dog you have had for nearly 11 years! How beautifully you write of her and if she could have told us all of her love for you and your family it would have been equally lovely!!!
May you find comfort in your lasting memories and joys of Lucy!

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MWWENSIN 11/28/2013 9:33AM

    Sorry for your loss. Sounds like you had a great relationship with your dog and now you have great memories.

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STEPH-KNEE 11/28/2013 2:27AM

    That made me cry, so sorry for your loss but so glad that YOU adopted her and did not give up on her when you found out she had distemper. You are an amazing person and she was clearly an amazing addition to your family. So sorry for your loss. I hope she is in doggy heaven playing with my Sheldon! emoticon

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NOWYOUDIDIT 11/28/2013 1:07AM

    emoticon I'm so sorry. She is beautiful. You were very blessed. emoticon

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 11/28/2013 1:07AM

    Sorry for your loss.

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KALISWALKER 11/28/2013 12:02AM

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Loving a dog means we will out live them. I know how much it hurts to lose your best friend, the one who always had time for you and loved you unconditionally.

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LPRUNWALK 11/27/2013 11:23PM

    Lucy sounds like a character! I love the image of her licking the top of Bob's head. You gave her a good home and let her into your hearts, and it sounds like it was a match made in doggy heaven.
Here's to all the great dogs out there and everything they add to our lives.
Hugs and condolences,

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INGBADEN 11/27/2013 11:12PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Nothing compares to an amazing dog.

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ENDUROVET 11/27/2013 10:20PM

    Deepest sympathy on your loss - I know how hard it is to say goodbye to beloved family member...


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TEMPENATIVE 11/27/2013 10:14PM

    emoticon what a touching memoriam, it really brought tears to my eyes. bless you little Lucy, what a gem emoticon

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SOAPSTRESS1 11/27/2013 9:56PM

    So sorryfor your loss. Hugs to you.

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 11/27/2013 7:50PM

    Here is a nice poem by Ogden Nash:

On a Good Dog

O, my little pup ten years ago
was arrogant and spry,
Her backbone was a bended bow
for arrows in her eye.
Her step was proud, her bark was loud,
her nose was in the sky,
But she was ten years younger then,
And so, by God, was I.

Small birds on stilts along the beach
rose up with piping cry.
And as they rose beyond her reach
I thought to see her fly.
If natural law refused her wings,
that law she would defy,
for she could do unheard-of things,
and so, at times, could I.

Ten years ago she split the air
to seize what she could spy;
Tonight she bumps against a chair,
betrayed by milky eye!
She seems to pant, Time up, time up!
My little dog must die,
And lie in dust with Hector’s pup;
So, presently, must I.

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 11/27/2013 7:49PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful girl Lucy was. emoticon

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ERLYWA 11/27/2013 7:05PM

    Your letter to your sweet girl made me smile; she sounds like she was a wonderful, loving family member. I'm so sorry for your heartache.

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MSHEL7 11/27/2013 5:56PM

    CATHY1970-1 lost her dog today too. I am so sorry for both of you. A sad day.

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BKWERM 11/27/2013 4:51PM

    I'm sorry for your loss. emoticon

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SLIMMINGSHAY 11/27/2013 3:19PM

    I am so sorry. emoticon

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TERI-RIFIC 11/27/2013 2:37PM

    The Power of the Dog
Rudyard Kipling

There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie--
Perfect passsion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart to a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
And the vet's unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find--it's your own affair--
But ... you've given your heart to a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!)
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone--wherever it goes--for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

We've sorrow enough in the natural way,
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we've kept 'em, the more do we grieve:
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-term loan is as bad as a long--
So why in--Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

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KELLIEBEAN 11/27/2013 2:32PM

    I'm so sorry. You gave her 11 years of happiness!

I'm so sorry you are going through this painful situation. I'm thinking about you!


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NHES220 11/27/2013 2:29PM

    Oh, so sorry about Lucy. Sounds like she was a great member of the family and so glad you didn't get to the pound 5 minutes later than you did! You have a lot of great memories to hold on to. Take good care.

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KARLARAMA 11/27/2013 2:09PM

    emoticon It is so hard when we lose our furry family members. She sounds like such a sweet dog.

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MBTEPP 11/27/2013 2:06PM

    I am truly sorry for your loss. She will surely be missed. You gave her a good and long life. What joys our pets do give us. Be good to yourself as you grieve.

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TIGER_LILY_613 11/27/2013 2:05PM

    emoticon to the whole family.
RIP Lucy.

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JAMBABY0 11/27/2013 2:05PM

    awe sorry for loss

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PERFECTVELVET 11/27/2013 2:05PM

    emoticon to you and your family during this difficult time. Lucy looks and sounds like she was a sweet girl.

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IFDEEVARUNS2 11/27/2013 2:03PM

    It's so hard to lose a beloved pet! emoticon

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Life Without Running

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Last night I really broke down and had a good cry.

I think that since I'm on hold with the working out until I visit the doctor again on Friday, my body is adjusting to a lot less of those good endorphins coursing through my bloodstream. On top of that, I got my period yesterday so my hormones are all crazy.

Add to that our worries about money, and the fact that I am fairly certain we are going to have to put my sweet dog Lucy to sleep later this week, and variety of other bits and pieces yesterday and it was time for a good old-fashioned breakdown.

I think that our bodies really hold on stress and that holding on to the stress often means holding on to the weight, too. After my good cry last night, the scale finally moved down a pound this morning. Release!

Life without running is not as enjoyable but hopefully, it won't last that long. I do have access to a pool so if the doctor clears me to swim, I'm going to do that until I can get back to running again. I WILL RUN AGAIN!

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STEPH-KNEE 11/20/2013 5:52AM

    My heart goes out to you, especially in terms of your poor doggy! emoticon I hope you are able to run and feel 100% as soon as possible! I can only imagine how hard it is for you to not be able to do something you love! I will keep you in my thoughts! emoticon

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KRISTA987 11/19/2013 8:34PM

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MWWENSIN 11/19/2013 7:07PM

    Life can be cruel sometimes, but while you can't always control it you can surround yourself with supportive people who can help you through the tough times. I'm sorry about your dog, animals are our 4 legged friends, but sometimes it is better for them to put them down if necessary. Only you can determine that time. Exercise is important you might not be able to run yet, but you can usually figure out an exercise that you can do - perhaps your doctor can suggest some or check with them if an exercise you think is ok is ok. I'll be praying for you and your dog. Too bad life can't be all positive, but we can find ways to cope and people to help us out in our down times.

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STARTINGOVER37 11/19/2013 6:52PM

    There have been times that I have cried while running. Getting all of those pent up emotions out is a good thing. I realized about a year ago for me not to be an emotional wreck all the time I had to exercise at least 15 to 20 minutes every day. It is amazing what those endorphins do for you. I hope that you get cleared to swim, because that is great exercise too.

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KALISWALKER 11/19/2013 6:43PM

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I can sympathize with your feelings. With all you have going, losing Lucy would be terrible.

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    I'm so sorry you're going through so many difficulties.
It's good you had that cry, and great you released that pound!
You have some good plans for exercise. I hope you can run again soon!

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MBTEPP 11/19/2013 2:06PM

    When it rains, it sometimes pours.


I am so sorry about Lucy. Pets are part of the family, and we depend on them, as much as they depend on us. Be strong for her, and have a dear, sweet send off. I know it is hard to do, but sometimes it is for the best.

Swimming is great! My cardio of choice in the winter months.

Glad to hear you destressed last night. Tears are healing.

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NOWYOUDIDIT 11/19/2013 11:38AM

    emoticon Life is so hard. My puppy slipped on ice on the steps this morning and hurt her back leg so bad she can't walk on it. She's on the way to the vet right now- it just always feels like its something. :o(

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LPRUNWALK 11/19/2013 11:23AM

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So sorry you had a hard night, and that you are facing multiple stresses, including having to euthanize your dog. emoticon This is all so hard. I am wishing you the best, and am glad that you saw the scale move today. A ray of sunshine for you amid all the stormy weather.

Keep going, and let us know how you like the pool!


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KELLIEBEAN 11/19/2013 11:12AM

    I went through the same thing last night. I haven't had a good run since November 3 (and I shouldn't have even done that), DH is out of town, had a bad day at work, saw three people running on the way home from work and assorted other issues from the past that piled up and hit me.

At 10:15, I ate a half a bag (a big bag) of Tostitos then had two Special K fruit crisps (two in each pack) and a big glass of milk.

I read some blogs because I was too upset to sleep and then I did the ab work I promised I'd do and when I was done, I was laying on the floor crying it all out.

I'm really sorry about what is happening with your dog! I can't begin to imagine the heartache.

I understand the rest of it. I never thought I would know this lack of running feeling.

I'm trying to refocus my efforts. It's hard but I keep reminding myself it was hard to learn to run and it was hard learning to maintain a weight loss. I have to move on to different challenges.

We'll get there!

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GODDREAMDIVA1 11/19/2013 10:50AM

    emoticon crying is good for the SOUL!

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WOUBBIE 11/19/2013 10:50AM


I'm happy to see that you're working through the stressful times and not letting setbacks totally derail you. Life will never be a smooth straight road that you can run along at will. Sometimes you just need to take the detour through the rocks to get back to the road up ahead.

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SLIMMINGSHAY 11/19/2013 10:48AM

    So sorry to ear about your pet. I know how hard that is.

Hopefully the cry was helpful somewhat and you can find something you can do. Like someone else mentioned, perhaps yoga? Could be just what you need to help clear some stresses.


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PERUSER918 11/19/2013 10:27AM

    I know how hard it is to have to put something like this on hold. Give yoga a try and see if you can get some endorphins coursing again in the mean time.

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CAREN_BLUEJEANS 11/19/2013 10:27AM

    So sorry about your sweetie dog!

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Time for a Rant

Sunday, November 17, 2013

So doc says I need an MRI to figure out what is going on with my hip.

Insurance approved the MRI. Great right?

No. Because I haven't met my $1750 deductible this year, the MRI will be 100% out of pocket.

Do I have money to pay for the MRI? No, of course not.

So thanks to the wonderful healthcare system and insurance system here in America, I am a middle class woman with two jobs and health insurance, yet I cannot afford a medical procedure I need.

I cannot afford a medical procedure that would help me to get better so I can continue my newly active lifestyle. That would help me get back to my attempts to be the best, healthy me that I can be. That would help me be one more person fighting against the obesity epidemic in this country.

So what does this mean for my treatment options?

This means that we wait about a month with no running or CrossFit, and we see if it gets better and heals on its own. What if it doesn't? Well that's just too damn bad because even though I have health insurance, we can't afford to treat it.

In the meantime, I feel like I am about to come out of my skin because I can't get out there and run. Last night at work, a customer forgot a bag so I went out to catch her. I turned to come back inside and without thinking about it, I started to break into a jog to get back to my register quickly. Instant pain.

I am not poor enough to qualify for assistance, but not wealthy enough to pay for my treatment. Awesome. I know that I am not alone, there are millions in the same predicament.

Why is it this way?

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TULULAHFRANKIE 11/18/2013 6:54PM

    I am so very sorry this is like that and cannot fathom why the government see's this as an acceptable situation


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DETERMINEDDE 11/18/2013 5:20PM

    I am so sorry to hear this. May you find some peace during this rest time.

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HILLRUNNER 11/18/2013 2:28PM

    What a frustrating situation for you. Health care in the UK is paid for out of our very high taxes. I do hope a solution is found so you can live as pain free as possible. emoticon

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LPRUNWALK 11/18/2013 11:10AM

    I am infuriated on your behalf, all the way up here in Canada, where I was lucky enough to get a free MRI after a relatively easy wait of 6 weeks. I was born in the U.S. and still love many things about it, but would never live there again full time, in large part because of the deplorable state of the health care industry and especially the health insurance biz. Maybe I've drunk the Kool Aid, but I absolutely believe that a society has no business calling itself civilized if it leaves people like you -- or anyone -- without humane and affordable health care options. I wish you the best of luck, and echo the thoughts of everyone here who is urging you not to give up, to seek out low-impact forms of cardio, and to do whatever you can to get that MRI, even if it involves a payment plan.

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ADARKARA 11/18/2013 9:22AM

    My husband is Canadian, and he prefers the American healthcare system, because if he needed an MRI, it would be free, but he might have to wait up to 4 months just to get one.

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KELLIEBEAN 11/17/2013 11:34PM

    How infuriating!! I was thinking the same thing as MBTEPP. Can they put you through physical therapy that may be covered?

I understand how much it hurts to run. When I skipped the 10K last weekend that I was working towards for months, I was completely bummed that whole day that I could not get out there.

My heel has been aching all evening since running 15 minutes on the treadmill earlier today. We'll if I end up in the same situation you are after I see the podiatrist on Tuesday.

Do you have access to an inexpensive health facility that has a pool. I am telling you, 10 minutes of laps this morning has every muscle in my body turned to jello. Maybe you could do that for a while? Less jarring on your body?

I wish I could make this all better for you! I hope something works out for you!

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STEPH-KNEE 11/17/2013 8:26PM

    I completely understand your rant and I am so sorry you are dealing with this. So unfair. :( emoticon It makes you feel like why do I even have the insurance? That deductible stuff is just a killer. :(

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SIMONEKP 11/17/2013 7:44PM

    Hope something works out for you

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MBTEPP 11/17/2013 6:20PM

    Trixie, hang in there. I know your are between a rock and a hard spot with very little wiggle room. I know you must be frustrated. I had (have but better) hip pain for years that was aggravated by fitness, and the MRI showed nothing negative. I got to a good place with physical therapy and coddled it from there.

Yes, I hope it heals on its own. Please find alternate fitness, like water aerobics or swimming that is gentle on the joints.

This is what I would do, so take this suggestion for what it is worth to you. If the pain is not significantly better by New Years, then schedule the MRI, get on a payment schedule and now you have met your deductible for the coming year.

Please do not let this derail you. Stick to your plan as much as possible, and learn from your sports injury. If you get physical therapy, it will show you how to strengthen your hips. If not, ask your doctor for therapy exercises you can do at home. It will get better.

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ERIN1957 11/17/2013 3:56PM

    Do they want the full amount up front?
I make payments on my co-pay part. I meet with book keeping and we set up a schedule. It ticks me off that we pay huge premiums and still our out of pocket is huge. Now after the first of January it all starts over again with deductibles and out of pocket co-pay. I get very jealous of people that get health care paid for and can get all the good health care they need. Doesn't seen very fair does it?
My best to you and hope it all works out OK.

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NOWYOUDIDIT 11/17/2013 3:47PM

    It's the same for us. I need 2 teeth pulled and I'm saving up for it.

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KRISTA987 11/17/2013 2:35PM

    What a terrible situation! I'm thankful I'm up here in Canada and don't have to worry about health care. Hopefully you will heal on your own. Sending you good vibes!

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KALISWALKER 11/17/2013 11:07AM

    So sorry you are caught in this situation. I hope it heals on it's own and you are feeling 100% soon.

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