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The Meaning of Sacrifice

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Sacrifice (noun): the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claiim.

I've often sacrificed for friends and sacrificed for church and sacrificed for family; but I'm pretty bad at sacrificing when the recipient of the resulting benefits will be primarily myself. It almost doesn't seem like a sacrifice when it's for self. How can it be? Sacrifice = selfless... not selfish. Right?

BUT...... this week has truly been one where I've learned to sacrifice for ME!

My sacrifices this week have included, but are not limited to:
T.V. time
Reading time
Sleep (this one is a biggie!)
Telephone time
Lounging and doing nothing time (i.e. LAZY-time - oooo that's an ugly word...)
Over-indulgence (i.e. GLUTTONY -- oops, another nasty word..)

I have given up those desirables in order to gain the higher prizes of:
Health
Strength
Weight-loss (hopefully)
Energy (tons)
Positive self-esteem
Confidence

Selfish selfish selfish... BUT, I'm worth it! :-)

  
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HEALTHYAMS 10/18/2010 8:03AM

    I was about to say the exact same thing that Cello23 said. It's not selfish, it's bettering yourself. Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon

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CELLO23 10/17/2010 7:10AM

    I don't think this is selfish at all! But that's a really neat way of putting it, weighing up your choices side by side. Brings it home that we only have so much time, so might as well use it for those higher prizes... emoticon emoticon Congratulations on your 2lbs down!

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Half-Marathon Completed!!! Wooohoooo!!!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Well guys...it's done. I did it. WE (my mom and I) did it!!!! We completed our own half-marathon challenge in 4 hours, 20 minutes! (But the time is not important.)

We made it through my right knee problems (which I've been experiencing for about a week and a half now. I'll get it checked out next week.), her back issues, and both of our feet woes (why do my big toes hurt??)

I can't even explain how overjoyed I am!!

As we got closer and closer to the end, I called my husband to tell him where we were on the journey. As we came around the corner, the homestretch to the finish line (my house) we were met with cheers and claps and hoorays from my husband, son and daughter!!! I just burst into tears!!!

I can't believe I accomplished this! I just can't believe it! Former couch potato just completed her FIRST half-marathon!!

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HALLELUL 8/26/2010 7:23AM

    I'm happy for you and your mom too. You pressed through the pain that I can now understand having one marathon under my belt and training for a half (in October). I hope this will be a special moment for you both to reminensce on and perhaps go for the full????? Then you'll be from couch - to - half to - full.

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JOYSONG50 8/23/2010 10:18AM

    emoticon Congratulations to you and your mom. Love the support you received from your husband and children. That's extra special.
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CELLO23 8/22/2010 4:18AM

    Fantastic - well done! emoticon Shows what's possible if you put your mind to it - maybe in a year or two I'll get there too! emoticon emoticon

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NEWATTITUDE2010 8/22/2010 12:12AM

  I am so proud of YOU and your mom! Congrats to you both...This goes to show what we can achieve when we believe! Alright now...By the way, I just saw your precious birthday greeting to me last week. Thanks so much!

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CFLOTT 8/21/2010 3:14PM

    Whee! What an ACCOMPLISHMENT! Yippeeeee!

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XTMONT 8/21/2010 1:14PM

    Fantastic!!!!

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GAELENEC 8/21/2010 12:15PM

    That is absolutely incredible! Way to go, you have worked SO hard!

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DEBTOLOSE 8/21/2010 11:05AM

    Good for you, emoticon u motivate me emoticon

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Sober Thinking...In search of

Friday, April 23, 2010

Every week I watch VH1's "Sober House" with so many different emotions. I look at the addicts and I see their struggle and I question so many decision that are made. As a person who has never drunk a beer, tried a drug or smoked a cigarette, I thought I really couldn't identify with them...I couldn't understand the destructive decision-making processes of a drug addict. Why would someone return to the drugs that so enslaved them and caused hurt and pain to them and to their families? Still I watch...somehow disconnectedly connected.

I realize that I am more connected to them than I would have thought or imagined. I can now understand where they are and where they have been. You never really realize the struggle until you are actually struggling. When you have surrendered to the addiction and are wallowing in it you are perfectly fine...you're just living life, doing what pleases you and makes you "happy." I'm almost in tears as I think about it. I AM them. They are me. I hear what's said and I see the struggle...the mental struggle and I realize that their struggle is my struggle. I just have a different drug...a drug that I must utilize daily--FOOD. I am a food addict.

I feel, sometimes, like I need to go through a treatment program or something. But I am in one. I just need to work the program. My mind is in such a struggle. Like a drug addict who doesn't want to use drugs, I don't want to overeat. I don't want to be fat. But as Dr. Drew said to the celebrity patients, "Saying, 'I don't want to do drugs,' is different from saying, 'I'm gonna do what it takes to stop.'" Engaging in the same behavior, in the same environment and expecting a different outcome is crazy..it's ridiculous and nonsensical. But that's exactly what I've been doing. I'm not making the changes to my behaviour that I need to be making.

I know that I MUST exercise as well as make wise/informed food choices. If one is done without the other I will not be successful on this journey. I know this for myself because I've been down this road before. I KNOW I must do BOTH. I know this but still I've been unable to stay consistently motivated. Saying, "I'm not gonna be fat again" is not the same as saying, "I'm gonna do what it takes to not be fat again." I'm not doing what it takes CONSISTENTLY. I must. I must. I MUST. There is no other way.

If you're reading this, please keep me in prayer. I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I just need to lean/depend on that strength. I am not alone. I know that. I just need to DO what I need to do.

  
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ELIB123 4/26/2010 1:17PM

    Thank you for this insight and thank you for your support!
It is so good to recognize our behaviors! It is the only way to deal with our issues properly. I think many of us are "addicted" to something! Work, shopping,eating, alcohol, drugs, cutting, sex - all these things can become a "ball & chain" when we let them control us!
A few weeks ago, the substitute pastor at our church talked about "TGIF" - Today God Is First. If we can remember in the morning to lay aside our issues and give our day to Christ, the rest seems to fall in place. That is what I am trying to do, and it has helped me be clearer on my motives and emotions when it comes to eating.
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JOYSONG50 4/25/2010 4:07PM

    I've been away for a couple days. So responding a bit late to this. You're well on your way to receiving your deliverance from your food addition seeing that you admitted to having a problem. We are certainly here for you whenever you need support and will keep you in our prayers.
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SCHENPOSSIBLE 4/24/2010 8:26PM

    We all have our own struggles and vices. Each day one is presented with choices to make - whether it be drugs, alcohol, food, sex, whatever. The first step is admitting there is a problem and you have already done that. The next step is up to you and we will all be there along to way to make sure that you stay on track and that you have the support you need. Be sure to lean on us for that support and we will make sure you get to where you need to go.

All the best to you!

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HALLELUL 4/24/2010 4:58PM

    Sorry for the delay in resonding. I tried too using my I-Touch but it obviously didn't go through.

I've never watched the show you mentioned but reading your blog sounds like it has truly been a help well a wake up for you. To that I say Yippee and I'm glad you recognizing that. Oh and Susanne61 put the nail on the head. We can say no and still be happy. Even today, my mom wanted to go out to eat for breakfast. Instead of eat the restaurant food, I had a protein shake and felt good and food. Yes the order of fries delivered to the next table smelled soooooo good, but not good enough to overthrow me. We have the power to make those decision. But I'm not saying it's easy. I mean have you been to a grocery store lately. Thousand of processed food that are so easy to eat. Just open and consume, whereas the good for you meals take prep and time, but you what? You and I are worth it. I will be praying for you that you will win with food and that it will be a nurishment vs. a stumbling block.

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DOWNHOMEDIVA 4/24/2010 8:22AM

    I love "Sober House" and the way Dr. Drew confronts his patients in love. I am married to a recovering alcoholic, and for a long time, I, like you, didn't understand the addicts behavior. I would always think - just get a gripe and decide what is important here! But not to long ago I also realized that food was my drug of choice. Something I wanted control over, but gave into temptation time and time again. I learned a lot from Al-Anon and my mantra is One Day at a Time!
Good luck on your journey!

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FIT4LIVINGLIFE 4/23/2010 9:58PM

    I will be praying for you....I have struggled with food addiction on the other end...it is a battle to figure out how to make peace with the 'drug' you are addicted to...it is different than most addictions because we have to have it to live, but you can do it!!

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SUSANNE61 4/23/2010 8:54PM

    That was really a powerful blog. I think as over-eaters we struggle on a different level. People can overcome their addiction to drugs, alcohol, smoking etc because one does not need those items to survive. But food on the other hand is a necessary part of life. Not only do we require food to supply our bodies with fuel in order to live, it is also such a complex part of our social lives. After having gastric bypass 3 years ago, I had to really look at my relationship with food. I simply was not able to eat but still wanted to socialize of course. I found I really could go to a party, restaurant or gathering without eating. If I was meeting someone for lunch and simply was not hungry, I could enjoy the time with simply ordering a glass of tea or a cup of soup. Can everyone do this, of course not. It takes remarkable willpower to forgo dining for most. It is so important to really make what I eat count. Yes I could fill up on a small amount of junk, but it really did my body no good and in fact at times made me really sick. So as a food addict (yes, I said it) I am forced to really decide what is important to me, that plate of cheesecake or my future health. No I don't always make the right choice, but I try to more times than not. I enjoy my new body and know I will never have a second chance with the gift that my surgery gave me. For the majority who did not have this surgery, it really is setting a goal, and putting energy into achieving that goal. Not that it's easy and everyday is a struggle but well worth it. My prayers and good wishes are with you. We all know your pain and struggle, we wouldn't even be a part of SP if we didn't. emoticon

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PHOENIX2B 4/23/2010 7:28PM

    I am definitely keeping you in prayer, no doubt. I think you have come to a great place - realizing that there is a problem. There are 12 step groups for food addicts just like there are for drug addicts. Overeaters Anonymous, Compulsive Eaters Anonymous. They use the same Big Book as those trying to get free from alcohol addiction. And their first step is the same as any alcoholic's first step. The first step is to "admit that I am powerless over food, and my life has become unmanageable".

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