Monday, October 18, 2010
As many of you already know...I'm the treadmill queen. I have a treadmill in my basement and I get every penny's worth out of it. It's my exercise machine of choice. I don't go to the gym. I don't like to exercise around people...and I'm un-motivated to drive to a gym and workout. BUT today I went where I've NEVER gone before.....
I WENT TO THE GYM!!! LOL
My sister (HEALTHYAMS) is a gym member and she goes faithfully pretty much every day. She's been inviting me to go with her one day when I'm working in her area. So today, since I was working in her area, I took her up on her offer!
I'd been wanting to try out this infamous elliptical that everyone talks about. Honestly, from the stories I've heard, I was pretty intimidated by the machine..not to mention the gym environment itself. But guess what?...
It wasn't so scary afterall (the gym or the elliptical). Most people at the gym are minding their own business and concentrating on their own workouts. It's a pretty inspiring place to be actually. Those folks be workin it!! You hear me? WORKIN it! And the elliptical.... not that bad either. I actually enjoyed it.
Just like my sister said, it's soooo much easier on the joints. It took me a while to get used to the motion of it and to get into a flow, but it came together.
I had planned to do only 30 minutes, but my sister had planned to do an hour. I was fine with that. I was just going to go to the treadmill after I was done on the elliptical. But after my 30 minutes were up, I just reset the elliptical and got right back to it. I even challenged myself with one of those hilly programs. It was on an incline of 15 and resistance of 6!! ...seriously worked my bum!!
So altogether I worked out for 55 minutes on the elliptical and burned a ton of calories (which I haven't even logged yet)! The time went by so quickly.
It was nice to have the motivation of my sister there with me. I don't know how long I would have continued without her there. Thanks HEALTHYAMS!! I look forward to our next workout together!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Every week I watch VH1's "Sober House" with so many different emotions. I look at the addicts and I see their struggle and I question so many decision that are made. As a person who has never drunk a beer, tried a drug or smoked a cigarette, I thought I really couldn't identify with them...I couldn't understand the destructive decision-making processes of a drug addict. Why would someone return to the drugs that so enslaved them and caused hurt and pain to them and to their families? Still I watch...somehow disconnectedly connected.
I realize that I am more connected to them than I would have thought or imagined. I can now understand where they are and where they have been. You never really realize the struggle until you are actually struggling. When you have surrendered to the addiction and are wallowing in it you are perfectly fine...you're just living life, doing what pleases you and makes you "happy." I'm almost in tears as I think about it. I AM them. They are me. I hear what's said and I see the struggle...the mental struggle and I realize that their struggle is my struggle. I just have a different drug...a drug that I must utilize daily--FOOD. I am a food addict.
I feel, sometimes, like I need to go through a treatment program or something. But I am in one. I just need to work the program. My mind is in such a struggle. Like a drug addict who doesn't want to use drugs, I don't want to overeat. I don't want to be fat. But as Dr. Drew said to the celebrity patients, "Saying, 'I don't want to do drugs,' is different from saying, 'I'm gonna do what it takes to stop.'" Engaging in the same behavior, in the same environment and expecting a different outcome is crazy..it's ridiculous and nonsensical. But that's exactly what I've been doing. I'm not making the changes to my behaviour that I need to be making.
I know that I MUST exercise as well as make wise/informed food choices. If one is done without the other I will not be successful on this journey. I know this for myself because I've been down this road before. I KNOW I must do BOTH. I know this but still I've been unable to stay consistently motivated. Saying, "I'm not gonna be fat again" is not the same as saying, "I'm gonna do what it takes to not be fat again." I'm not doing what it takes CONSISTENTLY. I must. I must. I MUST. There is no other way.
If you're reading this, please keep me in prayer. I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I just need to lean/depend on that strength. I am not alone. I know that. I just need to DO what I need to do.
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