Friday, August 17, 2012
Stagnant: characterized by lack of development, advancement, or progressive movement.
That one word pretty much sums up how I feel right now and how I'm doing as well. I've been struggling and my inconsistent efforts leave me in this stagnant condition.
I'm TRYING to stay motivated. But, with me, I lose motivation very easily when I don't see results of hard work. It doesn't take long either. If I work hard ONE lil ole week and I don't see immediate results on the scale--yes, the results MUST show on the scale--I get discouraged and I become unmotivated to try as hard the following week. In actuality, the following week I may do NOTHING. It may be total sabotage.
That's where I am THIS WEEK. But, I shall not remain. I am NOT defeated. I'm always reevaluating...always thinking... always looking deeper into ME. And, I'm always starting over. I'm NEVER down and out. I'm just a work in progress... mentally, most of all. The physical will follow when the mental is in order.
So, my evaluation has led me to come up with a new plan for the next two weeks. I have only 6 weeks until the dress fitting for my sister's wedding. I want to be closer to my goal weight. She has everything planned so early out that we'll own the dresses and have them in our possession well before the date of the wedding. That means, we'll probably not be able to have them taken in or let out after we own them. That's my thinking anyway.
SOOOOOOO...... I have GOT TO BUCKLE DOWN and stop seesawing. It's time to get serious. Well, "getting" serious has never been the problem...it's the STAYING serious that trips me up. So, it's time to BE/STAY serious about the course I'm on and the goals I'm trying to reach.
Don't be surprised if you SEE me soon. I'm gonna try vlogging as an added motivation and accountability factor. A sparkfriend of mine vlogs EVERY single weekly weigh-in. I WANT to do that, but it absolutely terrifies me. LOL I don't know if I'm bold/confident enough to have you all find out (at the same time as me, what my weight is. Also, I normally weigh in naked. LOL Wouldn't that be lovely for all the Sparkers to see? NOT!!! LOL So, I'll have to see how I feel, but definitely I'll be vlogging before, after, or during my workouts.
Thanks for being there for me!!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
I was flipping through some photo albums today and I was shocked to see how big I was in some of the photos. I had forgotten...
You see when your weight goes up and down, you forget when you were huge and when you started losing... AGAIN. Well, I had been focusing on this CURRENT jourmey and I had THOUGHT that I was my heaviest back in November 2009 when i weighed in at 192 lbs. This is me then...
I WAS big... BUT I was wearing a size 14 suit at that time... So, that WASN'T the heaviest that I've EVER been.... There was a time when i wore a size 16 suit and skirt....
Those pictures were taken between Christmas 2002 - Spring 2003. I remember feeling so unhappy with my body at that time. I had such low self-esteem. I had never been a size 16 in my life and to see those numbers was so damaging. It was so damaging that I refused to purchase anything and I just kept trying to squeeze into my clothes that I had in my closet, which, of course, made me feel worse. Thank God for my wonderful mother bought me some clothes so that I could feel halfway decent about myself. But, that was my first real wake-up call. I remember making a decision and it was SET. I was going on South Beach Diet. By late Summer 2003 I had dropped all the pounds... and I kept it off for a good while...
In October 2003...
I don't have any pictures, but I was still small in 2007. So, I kept that weight off for close to 5 years. I started gaining weight again in 2008 through 2009 and that's when my second wake up call occurred.
I am seeing the skinny Vanessa again... She is slowly emerging. She wants to be totally free.... and she will be. This new Vanessa will keep the weight off longer than the 5 years that the old Vanessa kept them off because this new Vanessa has lost these pounds in a very SLOW, traditional way... diet and exercise. No quick fixes this time. No fad diets. This is the THIRD (and hopefully final) year of my journey to goal. This new Vanessa has learned some hard lessons during these last three years and I'm still learning... and when the new Vanessa FULLY emerges, she'll have even more lessons to learn about how to maintain that weight... But she's ready. She's ready.
I'm ready to be back in that purple size 8 suit than I wore in one of the above pictures from 2004... I actually wore that suit ONE time and couldn't fit it again after. I gave it away to my sister; but she has recently given it back to me. She THINKS I can wear it now. I know better. But I will be able to. I'm determined. For now, I have to settle for being in a size 8 dress!
I'm coming down... slowly but definitely surely...
Monday, May 28, 2012
Yesterday, I went to a Memorial Day cookout at my father's house. Before leaving, we made plans to meet up this morning so that we could FINALLY walk the Woodrow Wilson Bridge Trail. I have been wanting to walk it for so long, but I just couldn't figure out where the trail began. Since he rides his bike across the bridge sometimes, he knew exactly where to park and where the trail started.
So, I left the house at 6:00 a.m. and headed to his house to pick him up. Can you believe it was already 71 degrees outside at 6 o'clock this morning!!! I'm glad I'm an early riser!!
It goes from the National Harbor (in Prince George's County Maryland) to Old Town Alexandria, Virginia. But, there is a little distance to travel on foot before you even REACH the trail!
You have to walk 1 mile just to get from the free Park & Ride area on Oxon Hill Road to the official start of the trail. If you start off from the National Harbor, it'll be .5 miles. We started off from Oxon Hill Road, but we parked a little further down Harborview Drive. It's not really a parking area, but a lot of people park there to walk the trail.
Then after you reach the trail, it's another .8 miles before you reach the bridge!
Here is my Dad's back along the way as we were just about to approach the bridge... Nice and sweaty!! LOL
The trail is winding and there are several ascents. I wouldn't consider it too steep (unless you parked at the Park & Ride. Probably headed back to your car is the steepest climb of them all.) But, the trail is beautiful. It also contains a few "bump-out" sections with informational displays and telescopes where you can look out across the Potomac River into Alexandria or the National Harbor.
Here is a picture of our last little downhill as we almost reach the bridge:
My dad has problems with his knees, so the entire walk was challenging, but we made it.
Here we are once we finally got to Alexandria, Virgina on the other side of the bridge. My dad needed to sit for a moment; so we grabbed someone who was just starting his walk from the Virginia side and asked him to take our picture.
The bridge itself is 1.1 miles long. So, are you calculating? That's 1 mile to the trail...another .8 mile to the bridge... then 1.1 miles across the bridge. Altogether, one way, it's 2.9 miles. Then (unless you're taking the water-taxi back across to the Harbor) you have to walk back to your car. So, roundtrip, the trail is 5.8 miles. We mine as well call that 6 miles. LOL My dad and I parked a little closer to the trail, so our distance was shorter--5.2 miles. (If you're interested in seeing the mapped out route, you can access it in my fitness tracker.)
Here are some pictures I took on our way back to the car:
WE DID IT!!
What a wonderful morning with my Daddy!
Happy Memorial Day Everyone! Thank you to all the service men and women who have sacrificed sooo much and have lost their lives defending our freedom. I remember...
Monday, May 21, 2012
If you read my blog from Saturday, you know that I participated in my first ever boot camp workout session. I listed the things I liked and disliked about the experience. But, at the time of writing my blog, which was the same day of the boot camp. At that time I was only experiencing pain in my glutes, so I was still on a relative high from the experience.
BUT THE AFTERMATH on Sunday is that my body hurt ALLLLLLL OVER. It hurt in places that I wasn't even aware there were muscles. It hurt when I stood, sat, walked,.... MOVED, in general. I just didn't know how badly a body could hurt after a workout until yesterday. It was CRAZY!! Of course, I expected some soreness but not like that.
Unfortunately, I didn't have the luxury of just lying around the house all day on Sunday because I went to church and I had to interpret. It was definitely a challenging day. When I finally arrived home, I asked my husband to give me a massage (which HURT... it didn't feel good eventhough he was being gentle) and then I just stretched and stretched and stretched, and rubbed and rubbed and rubbed. And when I went to bed I tried not to even roll over. Oh the pain!!
TODAY, I can finally lift up my leg to walk or go up/down stairs without being in pain. I can finally reach down to pick up something off the floor without screaming. Sitting is still a challenge though. That initial point where my hamstrings press on the chair is painful.
And after all that my real injury isn't bothering me AT ALL. My shoulder and neck actually might be the only thing on my body that doesn't hurt. It might even feel stronger. Imagine that!
SOOOOOO... in the aftermath I can honestly say that I will PROBABLY NEVER do Boot Camp again. It's too intense for me. And the aftermath... soooo unnecessary. I just don't believe a body should hurt THAT much after doing something good for it. That's too much.
And, I'm reminded of that recent dailySpark blog, "An Interview with Fitness Legend Gilad, Plus a Giveaway!" When asked, "If you could change one thing about today’s fitness industry, what would you change or like to see changed?" He answered: "I think the fitness industry has succumbed to "extreme fitness," which, in the long run, is way too intense for most people. In my opinion, it's dangerous. Most of these exercise programs pay little attention to form and correct posture, which are essential for long-term health and injury-free fitness. The intense exercise programs you see out there are geared for very young people and it would be very hard to maintain that level of intensity past your 40s—if you get there in one piece, that is."
I'm right with you, Gilad! I agree 100%.
So, I'm keeping my over-40 years old behind out of the extreme workout arena and going back to more reasonable and sustainable workouts! I don't anticipate my SP future including any blogs about Boot Camp, P90X, Insanity or any other extreme workouts of those sorts.... EVER! LOL
I'm sorry, Body, that I was so unnecessarily cruel to you. I'm going to be REAL gentle with you for the next couple of days... Momma still loves you. :-) LOL
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Today was my first live bootcamp experience. I feel like I worked out, but nothing too over-the-top. I think that tomorrow, I'll DEFINITELY feel it in my glutes and probably triceps the most. But, for today, I feel pretty good.
There are definitely some things I liked and some things that I disliked about this particular bootcamp:
It was outside and it was a gorgeous, cool, spring morning.
The class was mostly women, today. Though I'm told that there are usually guys in the class too. There was only one today and I think he might have been an assistant teacher or something. Not sure... But, I liked that.
I was working out with my best friend! That was the best part! Also, another woman from our church was there as well. It was her and my first time being at boot camp. She remarked that it was harder than her Zumba class.
It was a great cardio workout, so I burned a ton of calories! That's always great!
It was hard, but it was fun. The time flew by.... but not fast enough. LOL We were out there for 1.5 hours!! And that's because I left the class. I think they were going to stay for 2 hours!. But had I been in my basement doing my circuit training dvd, I would have been allll tooo aware of the time.
My glutes were worked out A LOT!!! Since this is one of my problem areas, I was happy for that.
Doing the bootcamp has sparked my interest in my Jillian "No More Trouble Zones" circuit training dvd again. That's pretty awesome! So, that's something that I can add to my exercise program in order to get my strength training in. Jillian's dvd works more muscle groups than the bootcamp did... and in less time too. The bootcamp was more cardio, in my opinion.
The instructor was VERY encouraging to all the regulars. He made a point to call out individual names and tell them that they were doing great. The other instructor (or helper... or whatever he was) was equally encouraging... always giving high-five's and saying "great job." So, I really could appreciate that, even though the comments weren't geared towards me. LOL I guess if he'd known my name, he might have thrown some encouragement my way, personally. LOL But, as it was, I was pleased with the OVERALL encouraging environment and mood of the instructor and of the participants as well.
There were a lot of moves that kept us in push-up position... a lot of planks... push-ups... dynamic push-ups... crawls, etc. All these types of moves put pressure on my shoulders. Because of my job and my volunteer work with my church, I have sustain a repetitive motion injury to my right shoulder/neck region. I have been resting it as much as possible, but the movements today, did cause some strain. Also, I'm not sure how my knees will feel. There were a lot of dynamic movements, jumping and landing, etc. I did wear my brace on my right knee, but I usually don't need one for the left. Hopefully, all is well.
The instructor didn't really take much time to make sure that newbies were doing the moves correctly (i.e., he didn't focus on form) Sure, he demonstrated the movements but didn't really seem invested in making sure the participants were doing the moves correctly. Speed seemed more important than form. So, I had to slow down many of his moves so that I could focus on form. I'm thankful that I knew the right form for most, so I could slow things down and get the muscle burn that the exercise intended. There was one move that I, clearly, wasn't doing correctly. Thankfully, my best friend came over to show me and that drastically improved my performance.
The instructor didn't seem to offer many modifications that would work the same areas but with less strain certain various joints... or modifications for intensity level.
As far as the strength training aspects... there wasn't a lot going on. There was some lower body training (quads, glutes) and some ab work at the end (and with all the planking), but not a lot of upper body stuff... mostly just triceps (because of the push-ups).
It's early, but probably not early enough for my schedule. Because I teach a class on Saturdays, I won't have time to go out there at the time the bootcamp is offered. But, if it were just an hour earlier, I could probably swing it. Also, I'm thinking that if it's still offered in the summer, it'll be scorching hot if he doesn't move the time up.
SO... WOULD I GO AGAIN?....
Meh... maybe. Maybe not. LOL I don't know. If my schedule allowed, it might be fun to meet them out there again. Seeing as though I have more positives listed that negatives, it would seem to make sense to go again, huh? LOL Only time will tell...
But, in the meantime, I can do my Jillian No More Trouble Zones circuit training dvd. Stay tuned...
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