Sunday, October 27, 2013
I seriously thought about deleting my account... actually I'm still thinking about it. I'm not sure I've resolved it in my head yet. The thought is on pause for now.
It's kind of sad and frustrating to see where I started, where I've gotten to and then where I've spiraled down to again... Revisiting the same places is not cool. Not cool at all.
So, I figured, if I'm practically starting over, maybe I should have a fresh new sparkpage... reach out to new friends... keep some of the old ones... post new pictures (which would hopefully show a continuous DOWNward trend... just start everything NEW again.
But, then I thought... this up and down, back and forth, in and out, is what MY journey, UNFORTUNATELY, is about. It's probably, in some way, good for me to see it. I have to hope that it at least helps someone to not feel alone.
I certainly feel alone in this struggle right now. But, I can't possibly be alone. No one ever is. I suspect that most folks who feel like I do right now, probably do exactly what I was considering doing. Maybe they just up and started a new page... one they could feel good about.... one that marked their "new resolve." I don't know.
But, I know that I've had toooo many "new resolves." It just doesn't feel good. I'm tired.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
I've missed you all!! It's been FAR FAR FAR too long!! I'm telling you... I have MISSED you guys!
I can't use my sister's wedding as an excuse any longer, but honestly, that threw everything way off. All my normal healthy habits.. all my routines... all my goals... they had all taken a backburner to her wedding. But, it's been over two weeks since that blessed event and it's PAST time to get it in high gear and start moving again!!
There are a little over two weeks until Mother's Day; so I think I'll use that as a mini goal marker. I'm going to try to get at least 500 fitness points by then. That'll get me moving again. It'll also be a good way to close out April and a great way to start off May!
Thursday, February 28, 2013
I know many of you have been waiting for an update on how I've been doing with the SHRED Diet.
Well, I had been taking a break from SHRED because I had been so busy with planning my sister's bridal shower and various other wedding planning activities. I did partially do Week 2. I kind of hit and missed my way through it, the same as I did Week 1... but it was more miss than hit. Nevertheless, I managed to maintain the weight I had lost that first week. No loss, but no gain. No harm, no foul.
It was my intention to just resume from where I'd left off after the confetti cleared. But, when that day came, I had devised a different plan.
I decided that since I had one week left before my fitting for alterations to my dress, I would try for some quick weight loss... I decided to go back to my old staple diet: The South Beach Diet. I knew that if I followed it, I could lose about 8-10 lbs in about 14 days. So, I was motivated.
But, ONE day into it and I just came to the realization...
I CAN'T DIET ANYMORE!
I just can't do it. I just can't follow what somebody says to eat, when they say to eat it and how much they say to eat. I just can't do it anymore. It feels confining and restrictive (even when there is SO MUCH to choose from and SO MUCH to eat. Yeah, you could say I'm sort of choosing. But, I'm choosing from a prescribed menu. I'm eating at a prescribed time. I'm eating a prescribed amount. Ultimately, it still doesn't feel like ME, fully cognizant, making choices.
And, I just can't do it anymore. I'm just so OVER and BEYOND it.
I already KNOW what I'm "supposed" to eat and how much and when. I'm "supposed" to eat whatever I want in moderation. I'm "supposed" to eat when I'm hungry. I'm "supposed" to eat enough to satisfy me but not fill me. And, I'm supposed to MOVE and maintain an active lifestyle. This is what Sparkpeople has taught me. Until recently, I hadn't attempted a diet since joining Sparkpeople in 2010. I've just learned so much here that, though the journey has been slow, I never felt compelled to return to a diet of any sort.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not knocking the various diets and I'm not knocking those who choose to follow them. They work! Lord, knows they do. I may, at some point, incorporate some of the ideas and recipes from SHRED--especially the eating cleanse during the week that I didn't even get to--into my healthy eating program. But to follow a diet--any diet--in its entirety again... I just can't go there.
"The places that used to fit me, cannot hold the things I've learned, and those roads were closed off to me, while my back was turned." - Sara Groves
I just know too much about this lifestyle, at this point, to be reverting and turning back to that diet mentality... I know I still have so much to learn; but THIS is what the journey is about... Growing and understanding and learning and correcting and changing, etc. This is how I'm going to successfully lose and keep it off. I'm convinced of it. Diet books and manuals won't teach you that... experience will.
So, I'll just continue to hit and miss... and fall and get back up... and learn... and, ultimately, SUCCEED. It may be taking a little longer than the quick diet fix; but that's just because I've got a hard head. LOL I'll get there.
Until then, I'm just going to go with the flow and do what I know... one day at a time.
Friday, February 15, 2013
I started a new program last week: SHRED: The Revolutionary Diet, by Dr. Ian Smith.
I began the program on February 8th!
BRIEF SYNOPSIS OF PROGRAM:
The program is divided into six cycles, each cycle lasting a week. Each week is designed to stand on it's own and to be different from the weeks before. The weeks are Prime, Challenge, Transformation, Ascend, Cleanse, and Explode.
SHRED strongly focuses on two components that might not be talked about in a lot of weight loss programs: Meal Spacing and Diet Confusion. So, during the program, you are supposed to eat every 3-4 hours. You are NOT supposed to skip any meals, though you don't have to eat everything listed. BEFORE each meal, you are supposed to drink a cup of water and DURING the meal, you are to drink another cup. With four meals planned every day you are guaranteed to get in your minimum 8 glasses! There are also snacks (2-3) that you may incorporate as well if you feel the need. You are supposed to stop when you're satisfied, not full. Each week and each day has a list of choices for the different meals and in the back of the book are recipes and listings of 100- and 150- calorie snacks. But, don't think you have to buy a ton of food. You don't. It's very reasonable and I'm sure there is something on the list that you already eat or have in your fridge or pantry.
I just completed the PRIME week.
The book says: "This week is an induction into SHREDDER Nation. You'll learn about the importance of meal spacing, proper snack techniques, and suppressing hunger without consuming too many calories. The average weight loss this week will be 3.5 pounds. This could be less if you're within 20 pounds of your goal weight. The further you are away from your target weight and the worse your habits have been prior to starting the program, the more weight you will lose."
I started at 160.2. I ended at 156.8. So, I lost exactly 3.4 lbs. I'm right on target!
But, check this out: I didn't even follow the plan exactly!!! This week was exactly what it said it would be--an opportunity to familiarize myself with the program and work out all the kinks. There were plenty of kinks.
Kink #1 - Water Retention. The first four days, my weight remained exactly the same (160.2). The program says that you should only weight yourself the first day of each new week; but I couldn't do it. I understand why it advises that though. I have to admit that I was very discouraged the first four days. I felt bloated and soooo full. I think it was water retention or something. After that, I started to see losses for the next three days.
Kink #2 - Lack of Exercise. You are supposed to exercise 5 out of 7 days. I didn't exercise one single day! I have been in a serious exercise slump and haven't been able to successfully jump out of it yet. But that was LAST WEEK.
Kink #3 - Missed Meals. There were some days that I just couldn't get in those meals... mainly it occurred on Sundays. I'm in church all day and it's hard at the 3-4 hour mark to eat the specific foods that the plan calls for. There were also days when I was working a specific job at that time and couldn't eat on schedule, so my meal spacing was off by 30 minutes or so. But, it is what it is.
Kink #4 - Chocolate Chocolate Chocolate!!! - Between me putting together favor boxes for my sister's upcoming bridal shower AND Valentine's Day, I ate a TON of chocolates last week. I mean yesterday alone, I had about 12 Lindor chocolate truffles!!!!!! Don't even say a word! Shhhh! LOL
But through all the kinks, I never registered a gain during the week. My weight either stayed the same or went down. And at the end of it all, I'm right on target as far as weight loss for this week. So, I'm happy.
I'm not as obsessed as I was at the beginning of the PRIME week. By the end of the week, I was in a little groove with the planning and spacing of meals.
I'm expecting this new week to go well. I have a dinner planned with my best friend tomorrow; but it'll be fine. I follow Dr. Ian on twitter and he's always saying that one day isn't going to stump your progress with SHRED. It's about LIFESTYLE. And my crazy week, proved his point exactly. I had my kinks and I still lost weight.
The plan doesn't call for calorie logging or counting (except for the limitations for smoothies and soups) but I've been logging everything (except the chocolate...LOL) on my SP tracker. So, if you want to see what I've been eating (though your choices might be different) then you can just view my tracker. Also, in my notes section, I write down the times of the meals that I plan/have. So, check it out if you're interested. And by all means, buy the book if you're REALLY interested!
Until next week...
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