Sunday, February 24, 2013
When I started I was over weight, not fit, hated me, craved junk food, sugar and ate everything in site when the sun went down.
I saw a picture my son took of me and I looked so old and over weight, it woke me up. Then the past two years have been filled with my loved ones having cancer. Three have died and 1 survived. When they thought I had cancer it terrified me stiff so I had to do something and fast.
I began sparkpeople again. I first started by removing coke from my diet. Next I switched mayo for mustard. I also picked apart foods, which ones were low in calories and which ones were high. I hardly eat white food and if I do I measure it. Like rice for example I eat 1/2 a cup. I pick most of my foods from the low calorie list.
I loved junk food so I looked for healthy junk food. My favorite is trail mix with dried fruit, big chunks of dried fruit. I eat 1/4 cup. By the time I get through chewing the fruit I usually don't want anything else. I love coffee, my husband found me peppermint mocha coffee that has no calories. I add 1 tsp of sugar and 1 tsp of creamer and this fills my sweet tooth.
I eat on a 9 inch plate and believe it or not, it works. I fill 1/2 with veggies and or fruit, 1/4 with meat and the other 1/4 with grains or usually more veggies. for lunch most days I eat 1 cup of soup or I have salad. Which allows me more calories at night. If I still fill hungry I only allow myself seconds on veggies. The biggest thing I do is as soon as I am done eating what's on my plate I excuse myself from the table and go into another room. Out of site out of mind. I found by stepping away I wasn't as hungry as I thought I was. After awhile my mind started telling my stomach you're full now. I didn't feel that before.
The first two weeks were murder, but I made rules and stuck with them. After two weeks you realize, hey it worked. I'm eating less and I don't want junk food. I won't lie, it's hard, hard work. I had to say no a lot and I think hard before I eat anything. I take the picture my son took and I look at it often, I hate what I see and before I'm tempted to eat more than I should I ask do you like what you see? And usually I have no trouble saying no. I also take a picture once a week or every two weeks and I liked what I was seeing and at the end of two months I actually realized I hated myself before and was hiding behind the clothes and fat. Now I love myself and work hard every day to unbury me. For me this is a full time job.
I hope this helps someone who has the same struggles I did. It does get easier you just have to make it past the first few weeks of retraining your body and mind.