Sunday, August 31, 2014
About 10 months ago my whole world changed someone I cared for deeply was going through something I couldn't believe I was blind too. My whole world collapsed.
My spark Journey had been one of success. I had lost 47 lbs! I was Happy and felt like I could conquer the world. Then It came to a total Halt and I began my downward spiral. Everything in my life became about helping this person.
Its very hard to know someone you love so deeply is going through a struggle and try to hide it from the whole world. I pretended everything was OK and even convinced myself it was. When the weight started to go back on I kept saying I'll start tomorrow, then the next day it was the same thing over and over and over.
By this time I had all but given up. I still logged in the my spark people page. Then one day I was so angry at myself I deleted every Blog I had ever written...I didn't want to see my success. Why? because then I had to admit my failures and Failure is NOT a word I like to use.
I am happy to report my loved one is on a road to a better tomorrow and each day they seem to be a happier person. Lots of things have changed In our day to day life as a family and sometimes we take one step back only to take a step forward the next day. So now It's my turn and I am trying to find myself again.
I really don't know how but now I need to let go of the guilt associated with the unexpected issues and the weight gain. "ONE DAY AT A TIME" those are the words of my grandmother along with "BELIEVE" She's been gone from our family for over 16 years now but I guess she still has the best advice in the world.
So I'm going to take it "ONE DAY AT A TIME" and "BELIEVE" in myself
Until next time my Spark Friends....KEEP SPARKING!