Wednesday, May 28, 2014
I lost about 55 pounds almost four years ago -- and kept it off. Buttttt, I'm still about 30 pounds away from my goal. And it's time that I lose this weight once and for all.
Even though I am no longer overweight, I'd like to drop those 30 pounds because it will help me run better. I would also like to lower my body fat percentage so that my muscles can be a bit more visible. Ultimately, I'd like to become a size four because I wouldn't mind doing some fitness modeling or training as a side job. But depending on how I look during the process, I might even adjust that.
Nutrition is the beast that's keeping me from my goal -- a bad day at work and my PMDD (I have an intense form of PMS) will trigger me to binge for weeks at a time. I'm going through a very sad time in my life where I feel like I'm no longer progressing or going anywhere in life. I don't really feel that I can talk to anyone, so I binge my feelings.
I'm seeking therapy for this right now. I last saw a therapist years ago, and now when I think about it, the weight loss stopped when I stopped going.
I lost the first 55 pounds by sheer planning, tough workouts, and good food. I also lost this weight because of Sparkpeople, and I miss you.
Thursday, January 02, 2014
So today, I went way past my calorie range.
I ate the unexpected slice of chocolate cake from my coworker. (No regrets there.) I got hungry during the late afternoon and ate an extra banana. Then, I ate some extra cheese and some unplanned almonds for dinner.
So, I tracked it just to keep a record. I've realized two things: 1) I need extra fat during lunch; 2) I really, really need to plan for that mid-afternoon snack.
The good news is that I went to bed on time last night and am about to go to bed on time tonight. I also made my water and fitness goals.
This is just another lesson during the long run to the goal weight stop on my lifetime journey of health. Lesson learned, and I'm trucking along.
When it comes to nutrition, remember that it's about trackin' and truckin'. Good night all.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
I must admit that I am genetically blessed. After reading a recent SparkPeople blog (http://www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp?
ize), I’ve realized that I am a mesomorph with a medium body frame. I’ve gained weight, been obese even, but that weight gain always made sense.
But … I've been stuck at my current weight, 20-25 pounds from the goal, for almost three years. I'm not complaining – I’m proud to say that I've kept more than 50 pounds off for almost three years – but as a healthy 26-year old, it shouldn’t have taken this long.
Yeah, sure, I'm at a healthy weight for my height, and that's not going to change. But I'm not where I'd like to be. I want beginner lines in my abs, and to run a marathon by 30. These three years, with all the plots, all the plans, all of the optimism have been a failure. And that’s not cool, because I can honestly say that weight loss has never been that difficult for me. I know what it takes for me to lose the weight. And when properly implemented, my body has always abided by the rules. When I am committed to eating in calorie range and exercising accordingly, the pounds melt off. My muscles get toned in three weeks, and my stomach starts to look tight. But then something happens, and I inevitably quit.
Of course, I can go on and on about how my life has changed so much, and how I work long hours, and how I’m tired all the time, and yadda, yadda yadda. But that does nothing. Of course, I can eat like a garbage disposal now and skip the gym like jump rope and resolve to “start fresh” come January 1st, but like the lovely Sweet Brown declared in that viral news broadcast (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOMevcsI0l
o): “Ain’t nobody got time for that!”
So I started from scratch. I calculated my daily caloric needs using four different sites and stuck with the average. Then I subtracted a few hundred calories per day. As for exercise, I plugged in my average calorie burn (leaning towards conservative estimates). I increased my calorie range to 1650 a day, from 1400-1500. It was definitely a decision that I didn't want to make, but sometimes, well, you have to adjust your plans when they don't work. My plan of 1400-1500 did NOT work. I spent all of those years battling food cravings and eating extra snacks that I wouldn't track. I spent all of those years hitting my calorie range for the first few meals, and then throwing it all away at the end of the day. So, the reality is that I never really did eat 1400-1500 calories a day. I probably ate an average of 2100 calories a day. That is why the weight didn't come off.
Calorie intake is the key for me. I exercise like crazy, I avoid easy workouts like the plague, but my excess calorie intake trumps that. A friend of mine (who has lost a crazy amount of weight) posted a Facebook meme that stated, “Anyone can work out for an hour but to control what goes on your plate the other 23 hours … that's hard work.”
I love hard work. If I lose 1.5 pounds each week, I can reach 125 pounds by Wednesday April 16th. Just in time for the spring. Just in time to start running outside again.
Monday, April 22, 2013
I started over again after almost two weeks of skipping the gym and binge eating. I won't dwell. I allowed it to happen. It was my fault. But it is my responsibility to stop the cycle. I decided to stop it today.
I wore a sleeveless top at the gym. I successfully decided to pursue a healthy lifestyle more than three years ago, but felt too insecure to wear a sleeveless shirt at the gym. I felt too fat, even at my thinnest. Those days are over. I may not be at goal weight yet, but I have decided to accept my body as is. I am a work in progress. I will wear a red sleeveless top tomorrow morning at Spin.
I bought a pedometer online. I've realized that I binge and overeat when I am sad, lonely, overwhelmed, bored, and at home for too long on the weekends. Three years ago, when I often made $70, even $50 a paycheck, I would walk the pain away. (See this blog: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3852669 ) The weather is wonderful. My life is now wonderful. And I will walk.
I ate 1,698 calories today. My calorie range for Mondays is 1,400. I overate at work. Too much peanut butter, and an unplanned lemonade drink. Tomorrow will be better. I went home. I was not hungry. So I did not eat. I brushed my teeth, and applied a facial mask. I don't remember the last time I did that. I have tried many times not to eat when I am not hungry, but the good side never wins. But, today, it wasn't hard. On the way home, I listened to my body. I was not hungry. I decided that it's about time that I took control of my emotions and my body.
The cycle has ended.
Friday, April 05, 2013
I went out to drinks with coworkers on Thursday evening. I actually drank less than I planned to. I did have some french fries at the bar, but the portion size was around 300 calories. No biggie -- if I didn't eat anything for dinner, I would still stay in range for the day.
But I binged when I got home. First, I ate the 300-calorie portion of the pistachios that I planned on skipping since I had those fries for dinner. Then I had some dried apricots. Then I munched on some Tofurky sausage. Then I had a string cheese. Then I ate three Skinny Cow chocolate bars. For a grand total about 1,000 calories in excess.
My mistake started early on that day. I've realized the importance of eating most of my daily carbs by lunch. I usually bring my lunch from home, but on Thursday, I ran low on muffins, and only had one left. (I planned for two.) I also forgot to bring a couple of string cheeses that I planned to snack on. So for the rest of the workday, I felt lethargic and a bit hungry. Perhaps if I ate my planned meal, I would've avoided those french fries and saved those calories for my pistachio dinner as I planned.
Lesson learned. When it comes to weight loss, carbs is a do-or-don't factor. I need them, period. The next time I make daily calorie range before I get home, I will brush my teeth within the first 15 minutes of getting in the door. If I have a serious craving, I'll eat 150 calories worth of protein and produce. I'm serious about reaching my goal by Wednesday August 14. Nutrition is 80 percent of the struggle.
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