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Discouragement, Discouragement, Discouragement

Sunday, March 11, 2012

This has not been a good day so far for me. So discouraged!!!! First woke to cold rainy day. Having RA, these kinds of days make me want to roll back up in the covers and sleep all day. Time change didn't help either. But knowing how my body feels if I lay in bed too long and that I will ache more if I do, I struggled to get up. Then the bowel problems have attacked me. I can only keep them in check with taking imodeum at least every other day and/or pain meds which slow it down some. Well I refused both today so have to stay mighty close to the bathroom. At least I'm getting exercise running back and forth..

Then decided to weigh as it is my original weigh day for when I started on SP years ago. (yes you heard me right..I started this years ago and lost 50lbs and then left SP and gained it all right back in a year) so I've started back at the beginning weight I was when I first joined here. But have been faithfully counting my calories the last 3 weeks and have tried to get out and walk 10 minutes at least every other day...and NOTHING!!!!! Not one pound lost!!!!! Don't know what I'm doing wrong. If I reduce my calories to under 1200 then only will be hurting myself. I thought last week when I weighed and there wasn't a move in the scale, I thought well will give it one more week...this is just pure discouragement. I joined the 5% challenge and it will start next weekend so maybe this will help....

Sorry I usually don't feel sorry for myself. On another note..tomorrow I have appointment at 8:45 with the gastrologist and maybe can get to the "bottom" of these bowel issues. It is also my BD so did want to go out to eat. I love seafood and only eat it about once a year for my BD..so hope I'm going to be up to it tomorrow.

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MCJULIEO 3/12/2012 9:28AM

    Happy Birthday!

I hope that it turns out to be the biggest reversal ever, from being DIScouraged to being ENcouraged....

Enjoy that seafood!

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MAZACK 3/11/2012 1:54PM

    Sorry about you not losing. I weight more now than I did when I first joined Spark's but I was on steriods at the time and then reduced exercises and got into some bad snacking habits. At the time I also had to retire before I intended to. I am going to be positive that you and I can both lose weight but I know now I my be more active on Spark's.

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LINTPICKER 3/11/2012 1:40PM

    hang in there, it will move eventually. Our bodies put up quite a fight to keep the weight, don't let it win!!

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TRAVELGRRL 3/11/2012 1:29PM

    Happy early birthday, VB! I am sorry you have had such a disappointing day so far.

I totally get the disappointment of not seeing the scale move, but you know it's only one measure of success.

*You haven't gained, so that's a victory.
*You are walking every other day, that's a victory. I'm sure you could name more!

If you are anything like me you are ready to give up just ONE OR TWO DAYS before things happen! So hang in there and take comfort that if you continue to do the right things your body will have no choice but to respond.

You can surely have seafood on your birthday, just watch the butter, breading and other "no nos".

Are you on a team yet for the 5% challenge? I don't have one yet.

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Spring 5% challenge assignment 3

Saturday, March 10, 2012

This was my daily assignment for today:
Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight.

What do you want to change?
I want to get my body healthier and by losing weight it will help with the RA, liver and bowel problems as well as my sleep. I want to be able to get out and hike with my sister. This is my main goal. At 61 the looking good part doesn't matter as much as just getting where I can do more and have more energy.

How do you want to look? I'd love to be able to wear smaller size clothes. I want my family to take notice. But really the goal is to get healthier.

How do you want to feel?
I want to be able to hike with my sister and be able to do the thngs I used to do. I want to be able to look in the mirror and be ok with what I see.

What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? Hike and have the energy to shop again

And list all the OTHER things that you want to change! Maybe this will spill over in organizing my studio as well...As I get in shape, my studio gets in shape.

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TRAVELGRRL 3/10/2012 3:37PM

    Hey Von -- after yesterday's blog and another Spark Friend's blog I had to join the challenge! Thanks for putting me on to it. I think it's going to be a good one!

Arkansas is such a beautiful state, I totally get the desire to "get out there" and do that again. My husband and I belong to Takahik, which is a hiking club out of Russellville. It is very loosely organized, people come and go all the time. Check it out online: www.takahik.com.

Have a great day!

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Spring 5% Challenge Team

Friday, March 09, 2012

I've read of others joining challenge teams and had once tried the Biggest Loser Challenge Team. I was put on a team that was just "blah" and didn't at all try to challenge each other or help each other in anyway...it was not a good experience for me. I felt like I was doing it all by myself so I'm hoping that by joining this one, that the experience will be better. I think that BLC I was on before was part of the reason I got so disgusted with dieting. I dropped out from Sparkpeople and of course in the matter of a year I had gained back all I had lost..So hoping this time around that this experience will be much better.
Here are the guidelines I plan to do:

Spring 5% Challenge Commitment: I plan to be truly commited to doing this.

How much and how often will you exercise? I have already been walking about 10 minutes a day. I plan to continue this and try to add a minute each day as my back allows.

What diet will you follow? I plan to follow the Spark diet in eating healthy foods and smaller portions and keeping my calorie count around 1200 calories.

How will you support your team? I will record my daily exercise and Living the Good Life Points, and on Saturdays I will weigh in and record it. I will check in with my team daily and leave a comment on the Discussion Board. I will read and comment on blogs as I have time.

I'm hoping this can make a difference in my health and lowering my weight.

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MAZACK 3/11/2012 1:56PM

    Sounds like a very good plan.

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TRAVELGRRL 3/9/2012 3:00PM

    It sounds like you have a good plan!

I know sometimes the teams aren't very active and that's kind of a downer. I hope this one works better for you; 5% sounds TOTALLY do-able! Good luck!!

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wonderful rain

Thursday, March 08, 2012

Woke up this morning early to a light rain. We have so needed it. Ate an early breakfast and headed to town to the local grocers to stock up on some of the weekly specials. When we got home, I had time to get out and do a short walk before the rain started again. Now it is one of those lazy rainy days. It will make the gardens grow. Just as I'm growing healthier every day. I sometimes need a slow rainy day.

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 3/8/2012 6:40PM

    I just love those kinds of days! Especially if hubby has the day off. Just lazing around and being content with the world.

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Beck and Call

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Well thought with the colon cleanse I did last week for the colonoscopy prep had fixed me somewhat. But today have really had the problems. I had been thinking of canceling my appointment with the gastrologist this coming Monday. Well guess not!! I really need to get to the bottom of this as it really hampers my life and in even just getting out to walk some. I'm finiding myself having to take Imodium at least everyother day just to keep it in check. Not fun. I still think it has something to do with my gall bladder not working or something. O and the colonoscopy test turned out fine. No polyps or cancer so that is good but still..I want to be able to get out once in awhile and not being at the beck and call of my bathroom all day. I am managing to get 10 minute walks in at a time before the bathroom calls again. It really saps your energy...and strangely not losing a single pound. In fact I was up another pound today. 2 days in a row...2 lbs. I'm thinking of maybe throwing my scales out the window. But can't help myself. I'm at the beck and call of the scales every morning as well. I'm tired of being at the beck and call of these things.

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MAZACK 3/7/2012 9:29PM

    Zack knows all about that beck and call business with his ulcerative colitis. That is one of the reasons we don't get started early most of the time. I have been there too and it is no fun.

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