Sunday, March 11, 2012
This has not been a good day so far for me. So discouraged!!!! First woke to cold rainy day. Having RA, these kinds of days make me want to roll back up in the covers and sleep all day. Time change didn't help either. But knowing how my body feels if I lay in bed too long and that I will ache more if I do, I struggled to get up. Then the bowel problems have attacked me. I can only keep them in check with taking imodeum at least every other day and/or pain meds which slow it down some. Well I refused both today so have to stay mighty close to the bathroom. At least I'm getting exercise running back and forth..
Then decided to weigh as it is my original weigh day for when I started on SP years ago. (yes you heard me right..I started this years ago and lost 50lbs and then left SP and gained it all right back in a year) so I've started back at the beginning weight I was when I first joined here. But have been faithfully counting my calories the last 3 weeks and have tried to get out and walk 10 minutes at least every other day...and NOTHING!!!!! Not one pound lost!!!!! Don't know what I'm doing wrong. If I reduce my calories to under 1200 then only will be hurting myself. I thought last week when I weighed and there wasn't a move in the scale, I thought well will give it one more week...this is just pure discouragement. I joined the 5% challenge and it will start next weekend so maybe this will help....
Sorry I usually don't feel sorry for myself. On another note..tomorrow I have appointment at 8:45 with the gastrologist and maybe can get to the "bottom" of these bowel issues. It is also my BD so did want to go out to eat. I love seafood and only eat it about once a year for my BD..so hope I'm going to be up to it tomorrow.