Monday, April 02, 2012
I was doing some thinking today and realized something...when I was a child I never fantasized about food. I never even thought much about food. I was just too busy playing and exploring the world. Fast forward to today...what happened...Back then I was super skinny and mom had to make me take the time to eat. She worried about me being too skinny. Today I'm too fat!! I think of food all the time. I keep wondering if this will ever end..I am being so meticulous about measuring and thinking about what I'm going to eat every single day. I have to be very careful now what I put in my mouth and can't dare stuff myself anymore. I'm already "over stuffed" and need to pull out some of this stuffing I have put in me over the years. I am trying to keep my hands busy doing rug hooking or stitching so I won't be tempted to go dig out a snack..I have cleared my house out of my temptations. I really don't feel that hungry but know it is mindless snacking and maybe nervousness.
So starting today, I'm going to fill those times I'm tempted with a short walk or arm exercises or stitch a little more or even go paint a picture..and drink lots and lots of water.
But I still can't help but wonder what happened to me that now I fantasize and obsess over food. I'm hoping one of these days it will get better and I won't have to think of food constantly.