Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Mentally I have been struggling as of late. I am trying to stay goal oriented while being pregnant. I really wanted to do a marathon in the spring and a triathlon in the summer, while I knew the timing was probably not going to happen I felt some let down that I wouldn't be able to do one of them. I am happy that we are expecting our first but I am also feeling a bit lost because my goals are getting pushed back and I worry how far will they get pushed back. I am focusing on my healthy eating right, exercising, and just staying healthy. I'm hoping I will at least be able to do the half marathon that is the same day of the marathon I wanted to do even if I have to walk every step of it I hope that will at least appease the beast and prove to myself that I am not letting go of my dreams and perhaps I can run a fall marathon. I'm sure it sounds strange but when every day has been so goal oriented and wanting to reach these certain achievements it's hard not to feel confused.