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Pre-Christmas Fuel: Greek Artichoke Soup

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Hmmmm, gonna like this one!

Broth, chicken, celery, carrots, Greek seasoning (thyme, oregano etc.), crushed Marzano tomatoes (bottled, very thick), a little brown rice and mixed canned beans, drained, all simmered. Two cans of drained water pack artichokes, halved. Chopped green, red, yellow, orange bell peppers. Some lemon juice to finish. And maybe a sprinkle of low fat feta cheese on the top when reheated by bowlful?

Gotta keep up my energy at this busy time of the year -- Christmas tree is finally up (but not yet decorated): it's a beauty, a very wide and bushy Fraser fir. There was a debate about artificial and we actually went to look at them -- the less expensive ones looked suitable for post Christmas recycling on toilet bowl brush duty, the nicer ones totally ridiculously expensive (I was SHOCKED!!) but still don't smell like Christmas. Then even considered pine in a pot to be planted outside later; not cheap and might die before spring. And indoor tropical house plant Norfolk Island pine; found a lovely little grove of them in a big pot about 3 feet high, reasonable price. But DS really (as it turned out, and when faced with the "choice") wanted a "real tree" which we have always had -- and so it was baled and stuffed into my elderly Volvo, with trunk jammed into the pass-through where my cross country skis go . . . and we got it home. DD has set out the Victorian Christmas village on the mantle in billows of cotton wool snow . . . it looks lovely.

Time to harness the reindeer, get some wrapping done -- and there's a jazz group playing the afternoon I'd like to hear too!! Then will need to motor through some essential stuff at work progressively unwinding . . . . as the lovely descent happens into Christmas! Lazing in front of the fire . . . playing Scrabble . . . reading . . . and if it snows enough, getting those skis out!

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/21/2014 9:56AM

    Soup sounds lovely! I think of you every time I make my big pot full.

As for smelling like Christmas, I have a flameless candle in pine scent next to my tree... which is one of those pricier artificial ones. What can I say, I'm lazy!?

Merry Christmas, Ellen... I'll dream of your REAL Christmas scent while making do with my fake one... even the fake one is enough to kick up my sneezies! emoticon

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SLENDERELLA61 12/21/2014 9:30AM

    Hope it snows for you!! Skiing sounds heavenly. The last time I did it I was 20 years old and 185 pounds. Most of the time I felt fat, but going downhill I felt free and strong! The soup sounds absolutely wonderful, too. Enjoy.

Glad you got your real tree. That's great! Another thing to truly enjoy. Dear Gwen. She dictated a letter to Santa Claus that Natalie wrote down. She asked for a snow board and real snow. Now, that's likely to happen here, isn't it? The only other thing she asked for was her own smart phone. I mean she's 4! It should be easy to please a 4 year old at Christmas. Oh, well. Actually, I think she'll be delighted with what she does get. We'll see.

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ELRIDDICK 12/21/2014 9:16AM

  Thanks for sharing

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Secondary Gains: FEEDTHEHUNGER Provokes Thought!

Saturday, December 20, 2014

I've been thinking a lot about this concept recently.

"Secondary gain" is, of course, a medical term: "Interpersonal or social advantages gained indirectly from organic illness, such as an increase in attention from others."

It seems to have particular ironic resonance in the context of obesity!! Yeah, not just the pounds that get gained . . . but something else. Otherwise, why?

And so, if obesity is an "organic illness", what secondary gains did I derive from being overweight for so many years? Comfort, protection, distancing . . . It was FEEDTHEHUNGER's terrific blog yesterday that brought this to the front of my mind: my goodness but she is witty and wise and erudite and profound always . . . but yesterday, particularly!!


And if there were secondary gains in being obese that I've given up for the past decade or so (more or less), then what secondary gains am I still deriving from continuing to struggle with weight loss maintenance, the eternal quest to stop yo-yoing and to find lowest sustainable weight, not some fantasy weight, and . . . . . . . ????

Inquiring minds wanna know. If this is a battle waged and won between the ears (as cognitive behaviour therapists such as Dr. Judith S. Beck believe to be so . . . ) then I'm suspecting this particular inquiring mind NEEDS to know.

Your thoughts?? (And yeah, I know we're all too busy with holiday preparations and celebrations to be thinking about anything at all at all . . . but possibly this is the single period of the year when we'd most benefit from thinking about it . . . to stave off the almost inevitable primary pounds gains????)

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KANOE10 12/21/2014 8:29AM

    I look at food addiction as being managed not cured. The same elements that led to obesity are still present and can cause yo-yoing and struggles. It is on a much lesser plane as we are not obese, but the same feelings can service and cause us to distance ourselves from reality and turn to food!

You have done so well in mainitaining all of these years. You continue to be successful. You are managing your health very well!

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FUNLOVEN 12/21/2014 8:06AM

    I'm late to the party here!

If I get the question right, it is "what are the secondary gains of being at goal weight for a decade, but still finding yourself struggling in your head with weight issues because you are not feeling satisfied with something". Is that correct?

So, IMHO, what is in your head that you are possibly unhappy with? One of the Advantage Response Cards that I made for Beck's first assignment was that I would "like myself more" if I lost the excess weight. Every time I read that card I think to myself "Really? There is so much more to a person than their weight. When I reach my goal weight will that get rid of all of the negative thoughts I have about myself? I don't think so". That is the conversation I have with myself. So maybe you are struggling with some other things in your head besides your weigh, but they just show up as weight issues on the surface.

Of course, do we ever know what all is roaming around between our ears!

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SANDICANE 12/20/2014 9:04PM

    I'm thinking I don't want to ever have to lose weight again....and then, I'm thinking how grateful I am to be healthy and can travel to watch all my grandchildren open their gifts Christmas morning.

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JANTHEBLONDE 12/20/2014 4:32PM

    Great blog.... But it's too deep for me right now! I hope you're having a wonderful day!
Hugs and love,

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MOVING_ARLENE 12/20/2014 4:11PM

    I'm to bummed and emotional today to think about this. Too much negative in my life. Maybe tomorrow...

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SLENDERELLA61 12/20/2014 3:28PM

    Calibrating distance. Interesting.

What were my secondary gains from being overweight? Well, at one year old I don't think there were many. I cried and my mom only knew to feed me. As a teen, perhaps it insulated me from having to compete for the popular boys. I didn't expect to get dates and often didn't. As a college student, I thought of athlete jocks as empty-headed and me as an academic (snobbery). I didn't think the body mattered much, except when it came to dating and that was an arena in which I suspect I was reluctant to compete. The issue of health wasn't real to me at that time of my life.

What secondary gains are there from my current struggle? I have SparkFriends and support for the struggles. But I truly think I'd enjoy an emeritus status of previously battling -- and winning -- the maintenance struggles. Would like to find out!!

Thanks for a thought-provoking blog!

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/20/2014 2:48PM

    I read this about three hours ago, but was on my way out the door to get the car's oil changed... and I wanted to give it some thought.

Just as there were secondary gains associated with staying heavy, there are secondary gains associated with the eternal struggle. One of them for me is a psychic connection with other strugglers... just as there was something about trying to please Mom by not outshining her in the arena of weight maintenance, there's a part of me that never wants to be "one of those" for whom maintenance is "easy". That's too close to being one of those naturally thin people (that mom loved to denigrate!)

See... beyond the grave... she's still there, between my ears.

But seriously, it's my own internal "judgment" of others that tells me if I'm not struggling, there's something shallow or mean or whatever about me. I think I blogged about equating "thin" with "mean girls". I later learned better by allowing myself to actually get to know a few folks that are naturally thin. The more I came to accept that many thin people work just as hard at it as I have to, and accepted that it's just something that fit folks do (watch their intake for proper fueling, make sure they *do* the workouts... etc.) and be tough about the treats... that it's become somewhat easier to maintain.

Even more so, recognizing that not ALL thin people are clueless and shallow or mean... but some of them may be puzzled that some of us struggle (I have one of these that sits across the aisle from me at work)... the same way I'm puzzled by folks who "don't get" or have trouble learning/parsing Euclidean logic! Something that comes easily to me, I accept doesn't come easily to everyone. Those who are "naturally thin" may simply have a connection with their bodies that I didn't "get". It doesn't make them "mean" that they don't "get me"... but it also leads me to not want to lose my connection with those who DO "get me". Part of the connection with kindred spirits who also struggle with weight / eating issues... has to be a secondary gain for me to never losing my roots as a struggler.

Make sense? Onward, sister strugglers! emoticon emoticon

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ROSEWAND 12/20/2014 1:32PM

    What changed everything for me was a little book
called "The Gabriel Method." I learned that
as much as "I" wanted to be thin, it was only
when my body wanted to be thin, that I could
actually be successful and without nearly
as much effort.

So much of what motivates us is in our
unconscious and and inaccessible to our
executive functions in our brains. That
is why I think the cognitive approach can
only take us so far.

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BBEAGAN 12/20/2014 1:16PM

    Hm, possible secondary gains from engaging in an ongoing maintenance campaign.... Maybe detracting from putting that same energy, focus and time into other things? There have certainly been theories advanced over the decades that women's (predominately women's) focus on body size and shape hinders attention to other things. So say we have other emotional issues, other issues of the psyche that could use our attention, but by now the weight-loss-maintenance one is familiar, even relatively comfortable and safe, so by focusing on it we can avoid looking at those other things?

Or beyond the intrapersonal, internal stuff, constant unceasing attention to the self hinders attention to larger social and political issues that we feel powerless to do anything about anyway? At least in this personal domain we feel (relatively) in control?

(These suggestions aren't aimed at you specifically at all, just ponderings generated by your question...)

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SHAWFAN 12/20/2014 12:40PM

    emoticon for sharing. A very thought provoking blog.

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_LINDA 12/20/2014 11:49AM

    I do feel very sorry for those who have poor relationship to their mothers :-(( I am very fortunate I have a Gem of one. My weight gain was strictly emotional eating. I grew up a loner and living by myself so there was no one to push away.
The secondary gains to struggling to keep the weight off? Feeling great. Especially in your case, looking fabulous in amazing outfits. Being more respected. When you are fit and healthy, you have that 'healthy glow' that attracts people to you. Being popular is always preferred to being shunned. Like it or not, all that extra energy tells people in your job that you are a go getter, confident, successful, all very useful attributes a new client would look for and feel you could help them. The biggest gain for you is knowing you are giving yourself the best chance at warding off cancer and living longer. You want to be around to live with your hubby, Charlie and enjoy your children and their children. Its looking really great from where I sit. You are doing it!!

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GABY1948 12/20/2014 10:36AM

    What an awesome blog about an awesome blog. I am so glad there are inquiring minds about things like this because I DON'T have that type inquiring mind so I learn so much from all of you that DO. I do have to agree with you, since you brought it to MY mind that it is a battle to be waged between the ears. You know too, since I'm not a leader but a follower, that we followers do an EXCELLENT job after we are shown HOW do do something.

But I am sorry I can't help you with it.

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KRISKECK 12/20/2014 10:20AM

    Such a complicated subject...! And agree that this is the time to be mindful of it. I am trying to be aware of these complicated interactions and resulting mistakes in thinking as I head into a week with family. Using food and weight gain to create distance has been a strategy in my family...as has using food as a stand-in for closeness. AN ongoing challenge, but my first priority this week will be to take care of myself in a healthy way. Beck strategies will help.

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PHEBESS 12/20/2014 10:12AM

    Hmmmm. Interesting concept, secondary gains. Interesting question.

Sometimes I think that I haven't lost all of my weight because I like food, and I'm not willing to give up eating some foods that are more calorie dense. Sometimes I think I'm tired of fighting my biological destiny. Sometimes I think that since DH prefers curvy women who aren't too small, I might as well stay this way. (I gained 30 lbs in our first 6 months together.) Are those secondary gains? Maybe not so much.

Sometimes I'm not sure if I want to get to my lowest sustainable weight - in my 20s, that was about 145 lbs. I'm now an inch or two shorter. So that would be roughly 135 lbs? Not sure I even want to get there, since I still have large bones, just compressing vertabrae.

I just know I'm smaller than I had gotten to, I'm back to about where I was before I met DH, and this feels like my normal adult size and weight.

I'll think about this some more, check back in and read some other responses, and maybe share some more thoughts.

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 12/20/2014 10:01AM

    Food is not the only thing to be mindful of (of which to be mindful?). Emotions and thoughts (where all action begins) are important, too. I think you've done a great job combining the two and reaping the great rewards of looking so fine and put together that you bring out the compliments from straight and gay alike. That's really something!

But, seriously, for me the struggle isn't really over food; it's just expressed there. Mastering the unconscious fantasies that have prevented me (so far) from losing weight and keeping it off is an extremely worthwhile activity to me. Not to the exclusion of action, but in support of it.

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MARGOH12 12/20/2014 9:50AM

    I think these struggles are more complex than we can imagine. I just keep at it and try as hard as I can to do what is right for my health. sorry I have no brilliant answers for you.

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1CRAZYDOG 12/20/2014 9:49AM

    Agree . . . this is the time to be mindful of it!

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Tweaking Nutrition

Friday, December 19, 2014

Thanks as always for the excellent and helpful "feedback" (you should pardon the expression: but at least it's calorie-free) on yesterday's blog.

I know it's bleak to contemplate perpetual hunger: but for me that's gotta be put in context. I was perpetually hungry at 230 pounds when I was basically eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted: a sad truth. No amount of food would "EVER" be enough food, at some level. And so: might as well be perpetually hungry and slim(mish), right? As I search for my lowest achievable and then sustainable weight.

Nevertheless, after reading Spark community response I tried upping protein a bit last evening by preparing myself a Melba Dessert Omelette with my supper soup: used a full cup of egg white, a little Splenda and frozen peach slices: and then garnished with low sugar twice the fruit raspberry jam. Mmmmmmmm: delicious!! A BIG whack of protein. And low calories too . . And yup, I think I felt less hungry.

This morning I went for oatmeal with raisins and pumpkin pie spice and vanilla Greek yogourt for breakfast: again upping the protein. Spinach salad with many bright veggies and 8 (!) large shrimp plus some chopped fruit all ready for lunch . . .

Yesterday when I went to my hairdresser after work, he took one look at my outfit and announced (outrageously), "You look hot! Enough to turn a gay boy straight!!" (OK then, I recognize that not all Sparkies operate in my cultural milieu . . . but he's known me for at least 25 years and he's been married to his adoring husband for the past 8 or more and he's one of my very favourite people: and this is proudly diverse Canada!) He absolutely made my day! And yup, it was that perennial size 6 black leather pencil skirt, this time with opaque black tights, moderate black stiletto pumps, little black boiled wool jacket with leather trim, severe French cuffed white shirt and black/white polka dot silk scarf . . . , Fun.

Weight is steady. No chocolates or cookies consumed at the office yesterday.

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BESSHAILE 12/20/2014 6:45AM

    I know that when I'm starving all the time it's protein I need - not surprised it worked for you too.

and who doesn't want to be Hot Hot Hot.

Cheers on the compliment.

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PATRICIA-CR 12/19/2014 10:19PM

    emoticon That compliment from your hairdresser, the best Christmas present (IMHO)!!

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SHAWFAN 12/19/2014 9:30PM

    emoticon I didn't fair as well. Oh well, tomorrow's a new day.

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PHOENIX1949 12/19/2014 8:49PM

    Getting adequate protein is a challenge for me given food allergies. My past nutritionist introduced me to organic, brown-rice protein powder which helps (I add it to a daily freggies' smoothie). But, it seems the carbs from the rice trigger my sweets cravings. Back to the drawing board.

Have spun out of control the past 6 months. It helps for me to read Blogs by some of you long-term steady maintainers. Noticing a dim spark still hanging out in my head which needs to be refueled very, very soon.

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    You are hot!
Funny, even at 140 I was still a size 12. I truly have a large frame.

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/19/2014 7:18PM

    I say it was a PERFECT compliment: nothing beats it when a gay guy tells a woman how good she looks. That has to have kept your motivation going for a while! emoticon

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JANTHEBLONDE 12/19/2014 6:58PM

    That had to make you feel so wonderful when a gay guy tells you, "you look fabulous!" All of your meals that you are preparing sounds absolutely delicious! I'm so happy to hear your weight is steady and you had no chocolate or cookies at the office this holiday season! I am so proud of you! You are what sparks is all about! You put the sparks in Sparks! I hope you have a wonderful day!
Hugs and love,
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MOVING_ARLENE 12/19/2014 6:10PM

    Funny - my hairdresser is gay also. Last week I went in and he ran up to me and said - "you've lost a lbs - haven't you?" I said 4 and he picked me up and hugged me. Loved it!!!

Glad the protein is helping. Good for you!

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SANDICANE 12/19/2014 3:36PM

    OMG, your outfit yesterday sounds truly truly FAB! I'm hungry a lot too. Lately I've been eating a cup of cooked lentils, mixed with 1/4 cup greek yogurt (and whatever spices I want) topped with frozen (but thawed) fruit. When I eat that, I'm not hungry until noon...it's kinda nice notta feel hungry. On a day when I know I'll be eating heavier than normal later in the day, I cut the lentils back to 1/2 cup. Cooked Green Lentils....oh my oh my oh my I love them!!!

Glad to hear you found some new solutions to your hunger too!!!

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KSNANA2 12/19/2014 3:27PM

    I think I'd love your hairdresser too!

I have tried to go vegetarian but the lack of protein gave me problems. I am allergic to eggs and a lot of the nuts. Sometimes the soy doesn't settle well, so I just lean that direction and the protein I do have is high quality. It makes a difference in how I feel!

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TUTUNAN 12/19/2014 12:32PM

    Your outfit sounds like a real winner! Protein is good....I nearly always take a bit of cheese for my golf snack as it boosts my energy, much better than an energy bar.

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SLENDERELLA61 12/19/2014 12:30PM

    Love the outfit! Even without seeing a picture. (Hey, you know you could post a pix...) Bet the hair looks really cool, too.

I'm thinking that more protein really will help. Hope so! But then I wonder is this mouth hunger?? rather than stomach growling empty hunger?? I was just thinking, if at 230 pounds eating whatever and whenever you wanted if it was hunger, wasn't that a desire to eat (as Beck calls it) rather than hunger? Please discard this comment mentally if it is not helpful!

Keep up the great work!!

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1CRAZYDOG 12/19/2014 12:10PM

    High protein is the way to go for me too.

LOVE your hairdresser's comment. Sounds like a neat person1

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KRISKECK 12/19/2014 11:14AM

    Great idea to up the protein! That's my strategy for reducing hunger, as well. Overall, I shoot for 40/30/30 (carbs/fat/protein) and that seems to be best for me.

And oh my, I want pics of your outfits! I love your hairdresser's comment, too! Inspiration to me!

And I stayed away from the cookies and chocolate too...except the London "biscuit" I included in my plan - the rest I shared with the office!

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PHEBESS 12/19/2014 11:14AM

    I think I love your hair guy!

And yes, certain foods keep that full feeling longer than others. So play with it, and you possibly (probably?) will find a good balance where you can sustain your weight but not feel as hungry, as often.

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PHEBESS 12/19/2014 11:14AM

    I think I love your hair guy!

And yes, certain foods keep that full feeling longer than others. So play with it, and you possibly (probably?) will find a good balance where you can sustain your weight but not feel as hungry, as often.

Though some days are just hungry days.......

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DSHONEYC 12/19/2014 11:03AM

    You are hot! emoticon

Glad you put the hungry in context I could understand...but think added protein does many good things for the hot body!

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GABY1948 12/19/2014 10:45AM

    Well, I understand exactly what you mean about diversity....I have worked with and had MUCH access to gays also and some ARE my best friends....and they ALL love me because of my NAME emoticon

I bet you DID look HOT! This is funny, I don't really feel hungry anymore but I don't want it to come back in any way, shape or form so I also have been looking to up my protein. I checked out all the HEALTHIEST nuts to have but I have to be VERY cautious...I used nuts as a binge food (well, WHAT food DIDN'T I?) so I am paying close attention to what you are doing here.

Happy WEEKEND coming!

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KALIGIRL 12/19/2014 10:02AM

    Here's to a 'hot' 63 year old!

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ALIIDA 12/19/2014 9:26AM

    Your hairdresser's comment was hilarious and your outfit does sound hot. You're beginning to attract me to hungry. Looking hot must be fun. emoticon
The new tweaks to your diet sound like a very good idea and yummy!

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_LINDA 12/19/2014 8:28AM

    emoticon compliment! You need to put on a fashion photo blog, it would be amazing! It would be hands down a top blog winner! Absolute inspiration to lose and then maintain weight!
Being vegetarian I discovered it was critical to make sure I got enough protein to stop feeling hungry all the time, hope the tweak works for you!

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KANOE10 12/19/2014 8:26AM

    I tend to to eat high protein also. It does help with hunger. I have also found that a tiny amount of fat helps ..like a tsp of oil or pb. I am glad your experimenting is working out. That was a cute comment by your hairdresser. I like that polka dot scarf added to
touch off the stylish outfit. Celebrate wearing size 6!

I am staying away from office treats also!

You are doing well!

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SWEDE_SU 12/19/2014 8:25AM

    wowee! that outfit sounds cool! i mean..er.. hot!

good job adjusting the protein - that should help!

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NELLJONES 12/19/2014 8:25AM

    Comments like that really do make a day!

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EVIE4NOW 12/19/2014 8:15AM

  Protein always helps me with the hunger pangs. Isn't it nice to have your efforts appreciated? Happy for you!

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JAROL7 12/19/2014 8:14AM

    Work your plan.

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FUNLOVEN 12/19/2014 8:09AM

    Very wise decision to try more protein and I bet it is going to prove to be just the thing to curb those hungries! And your outfit does sound hot, hot, hot. emoticon

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No Glamour, No Drama

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Weight steady.

Resisted the peanut butter cookies. And the chocolates at work (new gifts arriving daily!!)

Sticking with the program. No choice. Oh well.

All of that.

Lots of work pressure and tension and scrambling to get stuff done. But I'm pretty well aware: excess food won't help.

Sticking with the program. No choice. Oh well.

What's my lowest achievable weight? Still not sure. The scales move very slowly. Since October 13, 2014: 5 days at same weight; 20 days at same (lower) weight; 11 days; 4 days; 5 days; 3 days @ 2 pounds up; 4 days (down); 6 days @ half pound up; 4 days now (1 pound down).

And is my present calorie intake sustainable? It's pretty low. I'm experiencing hunger fairly frequently every day. I notice it.

Hunger is NOT an emergency. But still.

This is not exciting. This is not newsworthy. This is the unglamorous, undramatic work of maintaining.

Sticking with the program. No choice. Oh well.

I'll go choose a (moderately) glamorous outfit, suitable for a 63 year old: mmmmkay?? Lots and lots of choices: everything fits!!!

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KANOE10 12/19/2014 8:31AM

    I am getting that daily flood of food also at work. I am staying away from it!
Maintenance is a daily effort with much of the work being by you alone. No one else know s the undramtic, un glamorous little battles of the scale. However, like you say..No Choice. The key is that you fit all of your clothes in your closet! well done.

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PHEBESS 12/19/2014 6:43AM

    There's the off and on hunger that one can ignore. And then there's real hunger, because you aren't taking in as many calories as you need.

Hard to figure out which is going on. Harder still to find that lowest sustainable weight (and caloric intake).

't cut those calories too low. Size 6 or 8 is good. Being smaller than size 6 at your height might not be reasonable. Might not be healthy.

And while we always think there's no such thing as too thin, we also know that there is.

So............you'll find that balance. And as you've said before, the lowest weight achievable might not be sustainable. Especially if you don't have optimal energy and stamina at that weight.

Good luck.

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KSNANA2 12/18/2014 11:39PM

    I hope you figure this out so you are not hungry so much of your time. That doesn't sound like a pleasant life. Good luck! You have many friends that care about you here.

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/18/2014 8:18PM

    If it's real body hunger... it's OK to satisfy it. Mmmmmkay?

I have noticed that when I go too low on the calories for too long, I have trouble sleeping. So that's part of my personal "lowest sustainable/achievable" puzzle. I liked Marsha's suggestion about the protein. I personally find that my problem is more that I have too much volume and not enough calories and have to add calorie dense foods when in heavy training... so for me that means adding nuts and dried fruits.

Experiment(s) of ONE continued! emoticon and rock that glamour!

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HOLLYM48 12/18/2014 5:47PM

    Maintenance is an ongoing battle but one worth fighting and resisting all of those sweets and treats and tasty little morsels of things! Keep up the great work!

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SLENDERELLA61 12/18/2014 4:33PM

    Great job on resisting all those temptations! I'm betting that outfit is actually quite glamorous!!

I wonder if you had more protein (I'm thinking you already eat plenty of fiber) if you would experience less hunger?? If you divided your meals/snacks into 6 small ones a day would less food sustain you further??? Worth thinking about. We can deal with some hunger but do we really need to ? It isn't an emergency, but it really isn't pleasant though, is it? For me going to 100 grams of protein instead of my usual 60-80 grams works to kill hunger when I've been experiencing it. Also, eating 5-6 times a day, usually with some protein in most meals/snacks works.Also, if you aren't drinking enough you are likely to feel hungry. I don't know how you do it in the cold. I drink plenty when it is warm, but find it difficult in cold

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SHAWFAN 12/18/2014 1:49PM

    We definitely have to keep saying oh well at this time of year. Too many goodies coming into the office. Good for you to get some nice clothes that fit.

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2BDYNAMIC 12/18/2014 1:46PM

    I love beautiful clothes, as I know you do too ............ so at your petite size, I bet you are going to find something stunning to match! .... emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 12/18/2014 1:10PM

    choosing clothes . . . that's the kind of choice I like! Not a clothing fanatic, but like to look nice. So, maintaining . . . I'll concentrate on that! That and feeling healthy.

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ISHIIGIRL 12/18/2014 12:09PM

    Since starting this program, my resistance muscle has greatly improved. Its the standing while eating and nighttime munchies that are getting to me! Oh Well, and Don't stand while eating are my ARCs. Also, No Fair, and No Choice!! I hope you find a nice sustainable weight.

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SWEDE_SU 12/18/2014 11:44AM

    try adding some huge salads to your soup meals, with a vinegar-based (no oil) dressing - you'll get lots more healthy nutrients, bulk to feel full, and low calories - a lot of bang for the calorie buck while perhaps beating the hunger beast?

well done on resisting all those office goodies, and i hear ya on the 63 year old appropriate outfit:-)

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ROXYZMOM 12/18/2014 11:15AM

    I would think if you are feeling hungry, you will notice all the treats at the office more. Great job on your will-power - just sayin' you may not need it if you add some healthy calories to your day.

Maybe you need to add another healthy snack?

And, if you are feeling comfortable in your clothes, that should tell you that you are fine. Try not to zero in on that scale too much.

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JANTHEBLONDE 12/18/2014 11:12AM

    I am so proud of you and I want to applaud you for doing such an awesome job during this holiday season! Congratulations on resisting the peanut butter cookies and all the chocolates at work! You are doing fabulous! I hope you have a wonderful day!
Hugs and love,

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_LINDA 12/18/2014 10:42AM

    Not so sure I like the idea that you are experiencing hunger that frequently :-( Could it be you have set your caloric intake too low and are actually in starvation mode? You know that means your body will stubbornly hang onto every little calorie and pound it can get. Are your protein, carb and fat ratios coming out in optimum ratios? Too low on one could make a huge difference.
Usually if I am very busy, food is the last thing on my mind, so maybe its a good thing you have so much to do when the parade of nummies are pouring in. Good luck with keeping out of the trough.
emoticon emoticon because you are an emoticon maintainer!!

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MOVING_ARLENE 12/18/2014 10:41AM

    I not only would have the hunger, but a headache also. I'm sure you'll decide what is right for you - weight wise.

Boy, I am so looking forward to having something fit again -- even the clothes in my closet would be a start!


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DSHONEYC 12/18/2014 10:38AM

    Oh dear...oh emoticon

Remember you are choosing well. I am concerned that you are hungry a lot. More hearty, healthy soup for you!

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FUNLOVEN 12/18/2014 10:16AM

    I know you are giving yourself CREDIT for resisting all of the office goodies and, oh my, I bet it was hard at times. Looks like you have been doing this up and down weight thing for over a month now. Is it time to draw a line and decide on a middle ground? I know hunger is not an emergency, but how unpleasant it must be to be feeling hungry most of the time.

It may be "Oh well", but we always have a choice emoticon

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GABY1948 12/18/2014 10:00AM

    EXCELLENT blog and this just SAYS it ALL! My weights look the same as yours...have to definitely keep my eye on the PRIZE! Oh, Well!

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SANDICANE 12/18/2014 9:47AM

    Yep, not glamorous at all...this maintaining stuff! The outfit choices, however, now THAT'S glamorous!!! And best of all...all your clothes FIT!!! YAY!

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PATRICIA-CR 12/18/2014 9:46AM

    I'm there with you, looking for my sustainable maintenance weight. We'll see. Let's remember it has to be a pleasant lifestyle journey too...

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BARBARAJ73 12/18/2014 9:26AM

    emoticon "... everything fits!!!"

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ALIIDA 12/18/2014 9:23AM

    Those last two words make it worth it. emoticon

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FORZACHANDMATT 12/18/2014 8:53AM

    Good job

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NELLJONES 12/18/2014 8:26AM

    You'll find your sustainable weight once you get there. That's something you cannot predict.

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KALIGIRL 12/18/2014 8:20AM

    Sounds like more than maintaining to me - hungry often?
I love the body awareness (living in the present), but is that really what you want?

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HMBROWN1 12/18/2014 8:19AM

    I hear yah! Office I was in yesterday had one big box of cookies and several big boxes of chocolates. I did not go to that side of the room. Didn't even go to the middle. Don't trust myself. Have a great day!

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A Moose in a Maple Tree

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

How Canadian! And a nice antidote to Crassmass, don't you think??

Not sure which are my favourites but -- those huskies are particularly appealing!!


And oh yeah, there is a website selling stuff too -- but no need to go there!!

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LOVENHWOODS 12/17/2014 8:35AM

    Too cute!! Thanks!

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KANOE10 12/17/2014 7:49AM

    That was cute and very much Canadian! I enjoyed it. Happy Canuck Holidays.

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CRYSTALJEM 12/17/2014 7:46AM

    Too cute.... needed this this morning. Thanks!

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SHAWFAN 12/16/2014 10:00PM

    Very cute!

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PHOENIX1949 12/16/2014 8:47PM

    How FUN!

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SANDICANE 12/16/2014 6:53PM

    That was very cute...me and DH had breakfast while watching it!

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GRACEZN 12/16/2014 5:54PM

  Loved the video emoticon

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KSNANA2 12/16/2014 12:37PM

    Very cute!

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_LINDA 12/16/2014 11:20AM

    emoticon Good one!! Gotta love the doggies, yes indeed.

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JANTHEBLONDE 12/16/2014 11:16AM

    Too cute! I love the the link you posted! Thanks for making me smile today! I hope you have a terrific Tuesday!
Hugs and love,

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PATRICIA-CR 12/16/2014 11:03AM

    How beautiful!! You sure gave me a really nice break emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DSHONEYC 12/16/2014 11:00AM

    Merry Christmas, Canuck style! Love it, thank you. emoticon

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MOVING_ARLENE 12/16/2014 10:04AM

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SLENDERELLA61 12/16/2014 9:16AM

    Gwen and I loved it! We envisioned you with the 12 skiers!!

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ROXYZMOM 12/16/2014 8:08AM

    Cute!! Thanks!

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TRAVELGRRL 12/16/2014 8:07AM

    Very cute! I thought the word was pronounced Ca-NUCK, but maybe they had to change the emPHAsis to fit the melody?!

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BBEAGAN 12/16/2014 8:01AM

    Somehow I always pictured just the Partridge in the Pear Tree, not whole whole gang!

Thanks - a quintessentially Canadian version!

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ONEKIDSMOM 12/16/2014 7:51AM

    LOVE it... had to watch the whole thing! emoticon

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GABY1948 12/16/2014 6:57AM

    LOVED it! Thanks for starting my morning off in a catchy way! Have a GREAT Tuesday!

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ALIIDA 12/16/2014 5:51AM

    That's adooooooooorable! Love it! Thank you for the big smiles. emoticon emoticon

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