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Days 487-488 on the Journey!!- 54 days to a healthy B.M.I.

Friday, November 07, 2014

Hey Sparkies,

Things have been good again so YIPPEEEE for that. I've done my Turbo Jam both yesterday and today and though the plan to repeat week 4 of the 5k Rookie your Way Traing Program hasn't come to fruition I have no problem getting that back in gear next week Monday.

On the food front yesterday wasn't great; wasn't terrible but not great either and today I'm WELL in range and planning to keep it that way.

On another front I've been somewhat demotivated lately because I haven't been seeing the level of results that I've seen in the past. Not only that but remembering where I had been just a few weeks ago actually and to think that I'd undone all that effort was really getting to me. I've been reading articles, the blogs of all you Sparkers and trying to get my head back in the game though. I'm trying to remember day by day that if I put in the work I'll see the results. It may not be on as fast a timetable as I want but it will happen. Just trying to keep all these little gems front and center in my mind










I'm also working on a vision/motivation collage. Just something that I canut somewhere to remind me on a daily basis of what I'm working for because I seem to have lost sight of this a bit.

So yep folks that's where I am with 54 more days to go to reach my goal of a healthy B.M.I. for the new year. I hope the goal isn't too ambitious because at this rate I'll actually need to lose 2 lbs per week until the end of the year to achieve it. Here's to giving it my all though and seeing what happens. emoticon for taking the time to read. emoticon emoticon

  
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JUDITH316 11/24/2014 3:48AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon on staying with it and for getting back on track, you are doing emoticon emoticon cheering you on my friend... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PATRICIA-CR 11/7/2014 8:07PM

    I love your point of view of your overall journey towards a normal BMI. Maybe the 54 days don't have to be so rigid? One day at a time, a well done day, will do the magic, with no time limit? (just a suggestion)

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Days 481-486 on the Journey!!- 56 days to a healthy B.M.I.

Wednesday, November 05, 2014

Hello my Fellow Sparkies,

Well where do I start. Let's just say things haven't been going so great. emoticon Firstly on the exercise front things have been going downhill since last week Friday. On Friday I did my TurboJam but then when I went to wake my DH for our 3rd day of week 4 of the 5k Rookie Your Way training program he was't having it. I said o.k. I'll let him slide we'll just do it tomorrow. THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN!! And it hasn't happened since. On Saturday I woke up late and decided to reschedule to Monday morning because Sunday mornings are just not feasible for us. Then Tuesday morning it was the same thing and this morning it was the same thing AGAIN. To be honest since Sunday I have been going to bed at the earliest 12 midnight because of some work that I had to do for school that was due today so it was no surprise that when the alarm went off at 4 a.m. in the mornings I turned it off. Still it meant that I did my Turbo Jams in the evenings on Monday and yesterday and missed today which I will explain below and we are WAY behind on our running program. With the running I think we may just have to redo week 4 for the rest of this week and then start week 5 on Monday.

Now on the food front, today especially was HORRID. I amazed myself yet again with how much I do not learn from my mistakes. So anyway I was coming back from school today at about 1 p.m. planning to come home, eat my pre-exercise meal and do my Turbo Jam. While thinking about this I decided you know maybe a little down time before I jump into it will be good so maybe I'll buy a little cheese snack to eat with my pre-exercise meal because I can spare the calories. So upon passing the man who sells these little snacks in a little stall right at the beginning of one of the roads that I have to walk to go home (IKR) I decided to stop and buy one.

I bought said snack, looking at the 200 calorie "price" tag on the back and when my conscience tried to talk me out of where it knew I was headed, said my calorie budget can afford this today, plus I haven't had one of these snacks in sooooo long. Next I came home and decided DESPITE what I said in my last blog to eat this snack WHILE WATCHING the last part of a Top Chef episode that I had started Sunday evening. My conscience started again and I said "Oh I'll just eat this snack, my pre-exercise meal and get into my workout and to prove it I'll even put on my workout gear." So yep went ahead did all that sat in front of my laptop and started with my Top Chef and snack. Before I knew it the snack was done and I wanted more. I didn't have any more though because I only bought one so I decided I could afford another biscuit that I have as a snack. After having that the binge monster was just let loose and despite my conscience trying everything (including trying to remember quotes) to reign him back in I ate what I presume to be (I haven't tracked it yet) about 3000-4000 calories worth of food. Suffice it to say my workout gear also came right back off because there was no way I could jump around with so much food in my stomach and the sick feeling that accompanied it.

So yep that's where I am now folks, struggling to understand why I make the same mistakes over and over and over and over again. Struggling to not feel like a total failure. Struggling to not feel like I'll be 'fat' forever.Struggling to not think why bother. Struggling to not think "Just give up!!" Struggling to not feel like I'll NEVER reach my goals.

I know if I was reading this blog on one of your pages I'd not be thinking any of the above about any of you but I can't help but think it about myself. I feel TRAPPED in what seems like a never ending cycle of lose 10-15 lbs, gain it back, lose 10-15 lbs, gain it back. I think if I check I've been doing this for about 2 years now and I just can't seem to get where I want to go.

Anyway I'll try to put this behind me. I'll try to push again. I'll try to think I'll do it this time around. You KNOW what though, enough, none of this try business!! I can hear and feel the defeatist attitude in all of this. I'm gonna brush myself off and go full force again from NOW leading into tomorrow. As I said my DH and I will just do week 4 again this week and start week 5 next week and I can make up missing today's Turbo Jam on Saturday. On the food front I WILL not fall into this trap again. I'm gonna truly get that streak going. I'm going to stop with the excuses to eat CRAP and make the choices that are best for my body and best for my goals and peace of mind. I"m GOING to do this (in Home Depot's commercial voice)!! emoticon







I would say for the LAST time I'm going to do this but honestly I need to remember that I'm not perfect and more often than not that has been my downfall. I think saying, "Oh I'm hitting reset or I'm starting over" is just setting myself up for an all or nothing mentality which is the LAST thing I need. I wiil not be perfect but I will get to goal by the hook or the crook.





Sorry for the length of the blog I just really needed to let it all out. Thank you for taking the time to read and if you can leave a comment I'd really appreciate it. emoticon emoticon

  
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JUDITH316 11/7/2014 1:25PM

    Came back to Cheer you on your journey, you are doing emoticon keep up the Good Work Chalecia, as always I stand with you, let's emoticon on Together 1 step and 1 day at a time... emoticon emoticon

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VTORIA3 11/7/2014 7:02AM

    I'm right there with you, friend, on re-learning how my food choices sabotage my weight loss progress. Carumba. I love to watch the food porn, I mean food shows, too! Many a time, this will influence my snacking, too. And why is it we let 1 small food mishap of the day justify trashing an otherwise manageable day? One of the great mysteries in life!

But, we never give up, thank goodness. So let's keep on, keepin' on, friend.

And, thanks for visiting my blog. I can't believe how much more energy I have now that I am feeling better. Now all I gotta do is not use it for eating exercises, well unless it's for salads, lol.

Have a terrific Friday and weekend.....let's both honor our Food Plans...... emoticon

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PATRICIA-CR 11/6/2014 11:02AM

    You have the right attitude plus you're being accountable. Two battles won!! As for what you need to change, that's another battle to pursue. A life long one, where two steps forward and one backwards count as positive!!

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VALLITTLEMAMA5 11/6/2014 7:21AM

    Maybe try for a good-sleep streak first? My self-control increases when I'm not zonked! And linking exercise to my husband's exercise has always failed. Sounds nice. Doesn't work consistently. Don't give up!! It's not "failure" to have a bad day. It's failure to give up because of that bad day!

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JUDITH316 11/6/2014 4:07AM

    emoticon with Kim, I too am so proud of you, in spite of some set backs you keep going, don't quit but keep pressing on to the Finishing Line, emoticon You are doing emoticon emoticon emoticon

As always I cheer you on. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KIM22211 11/6/2014 1:53AM

    fantastic! I am so proud of you that you have kept going even in set backs, we are going to get there!

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AMOS76 11/5/2014 10:06PM

  I can relate to this completely. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try again. What the mind believes, the body will achieve. Stay strong, my friend!

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KEEPITUP62 11/5/2014 10:03PM

    You have a mind set to keep pushing and that is so good. Others may have quit (like I did in past years but no longer)

You just keep being positive and you will get back on track. Even if hubby doesn't want to go with you then you go alone. Don't let some one else prevent you from going forward. Once you go forward maybe hubby will see just how serious you are and rethink his excuses for not going on and he too will get back on track.

I wish you all the best kiddo.
YOU CAN DO THIS!! You are so worth it.

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Days 476-480 on the Journey!!- 62 days to a healthy B.M.I.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Hey Sparkies,

Firstly let me apologize for not keeping up my accountability. Unfortunately I kept putting off my blog writing and then stuff just kept getting in the way. Anyway let's start with the good news first.

My exercise streak is now 12 days strong. Can I get a emoticon Yep I have faithfully done all of my Turbo Jam workouts so far and not only that my DH and I started the SparkPeople 5k Rookie Your Way Running Program on Monday. It's an 8 week program but we actually started in week 4 because I thought we din't need weeks 1-3. So the program for this week requires 3 days of 5 sets of 2 minutes walking and 3 minutes running. We did the 1st day on Monday, the 2nd day yesterday and we have the 3rd day to do tomorrow. Not only that but we also went walking this morning for 35 minutes. Honestly I'm super proud of us folks. emoticon

As it relates to the bad news now. My healthy eating/ staying within my calorie range streak came to a screeching halt on Sunday and it hasn't rebooted despite waking up every morning with the best intentions. I am actually sporting a 4 day going over my calorie range streak unfortunately. emoticon

It's so sad that I can show so much discipline to work my butt off day in and day out sore muscles, tired and all but I can't say Chalecia "STOP EATING!!!" I make the SAME mistakes over and over again. I tell myself I won't eat in front of the t.v. or computer then after a couple days I think "Oh I can totally control myself in front of the t.v. or computer" then wham I'm sitting and eating 1000+ calories in 1 sitting. I NEED to get my eating under control or all my efforts at my fitness will be basically wasted.

I know all the quotes:







but then I am soooooo weak in the moment. I forget everything that I've done!! I forget everything that I've worked for. I need STRENGTH!!



So that's what I'm going to be working on now folks, STRENGTH!! I'm going to start a new SparkStreak to not eat while watching something on the t.v. or my computer and I'll display it right here on my SparkPage so that all of you, my fellow Sparkfriends can help me to stay on track. I only have 62 days left to get to my goal for the rest for this year and I AM reaching it so I need to do what it takes. Let's do this guys!! emoticon emoticon

  
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VTORIA3 11/3/2014 9:40PM

    Hi, Chal....so nice of you to stop by my blog and offer some encouragement... emoticon I'll share my secret weapon with you that I use to break an eating streak in front of the tv when I am not safe from myself: go to bed, period. Works every time, lol. Something about the switchup.

I've been really pokey throughout the Fall Challenge....struggling with food big time and not exercising much. But, I'm trying to finish strong over the next couple of weeks.

We can do this....specially you girlfriend....it takes great discipline to complete an exercise program as you do....you got this! emoticon

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KIM22211 10/31/2014 4:32AM

    12 days srong!!!! that is amazing!!!! Proud of you my friend!

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JUDITH316 10/31/2014 3:15AM

    emoticon great Blog post, and I cheer you on your journey, you are doing a emoticon job, emoticon on your 12 day streak of keeping up with your daily fitness, good job...keep up the great work Chalecia... emoticon

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PATRICIA-CR 10/30/2014 8:51PM

    First, your blog is emoticon

Second, that's the most difficult part of this lifestyle change: our eating habits. It's a struggle. We're always telling ourselves what we want to hear to excuse us and EAT and do what we know is going against our healthy way.

But, yes, it's all in our hands. It's up to us to do it or keep procrastinating it.

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Days 474-475 on the Journey!!- 67 days to a healthy B.M.I.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Hey Sparkies,

I promised to keep myself accountable to you folks and I'm keeping my promises.

Things have been going emoticon to say the least. I am now 6 days strong with my exercise streak and I'm doing it in high style while I'm at it. Today for example I actually didn't have a scheduled Turbo Jam workout because I did all 5 of my videos for the week but guess what I got up this morning emoticon and did 1 of the videos from the previous stage of the program and kicked butt at it!! emoticon

Not only that but hubby and I are trying to exercise together again so I got himup this morning after my Turbo Jam in hopes of starting the Sparkpeople 5k Your Way Running Program. We got a running but then my husband got an awful case of runner's itch and he had to start walking, I continued running though and did 6 of the 8 sets of running 3 minutes and walking 1 minute that were scheduled for Day 1 of the program. My DH was tired of walking around at this point and he wouldn't let me go running alone so I just had to quit.

I loved it though!! During the first set I was like "Whoa, I have bitten off way more than I can chew" but I pushed through the wall and behold 6 sets!! emoticon I was super proud of myself!! Unfortunately I don't think I'll get a chance to test if I can really pull off all 8 sets come Monday because obviously my DH coming from his lack of exercise isn't ready for this program so I think we're going to start the 5k Your Way Rookie Running Plan instead. It's a longer program but Hey come hell or high water I am going to accomplish my goal of being able to run a 5k!!

On the food front yesterday's eating did go over my calories but I am still counting the day as a win because it wasn't binging or mindless eating that caused it; I made the best choice that I could when we went outto eat but it still sent me over my range. So I am declaring a 3 day healthy eating streak because I am definitely finishing today within range!!

So yep folks I am slowly but surely undoing the damage that I've done.



See you soon- tomorrow or the next day!! emoticon emoticon

  
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NEWMUM8 10/30/2014 10:47AM

    Keep at it.

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KIM22211 10/29/2014 5:00AM

    6 days is amazing! you and I know that! I need to get with it too!!!!!!

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PATRICIA-CR 10/26/2014 11:56AM

    emoticon emoticon What a jump start you're having! I'm so happy your DH is in with you too. Keep up the good work. Once you start with determination, it could only get better and better.

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MIRAGE727 10/26/2014 9:46AM

    You will do this! Mark your progress in the Team Forums for accountability and motivation. Stay strong & keep rocking!
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Days 443-473 on the Journey!!- 69 days to a healthy B.M.I.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Hey Sparkies,

I don't know how many of you are tired of hearing this (because I'm tired of saying it) but I have hit the reset button yet again.



Yep I've fallen off the wagon BIG time and have the weight gain to show for it. Anyway this morning I jumped out of bed and said NO MORE!! NO MORE eating like I don't know better!! NO MORE making excuses not to exercise!! NO MORE going into all or nothing mode when I have a slip-up!! NO MORE!!



I decided that I will not end this year worse than I started it. I am going to use these last 69 days to make a difference towards my goals. My new goal is to end the year within the healthy B.M.I. range i.e. less than 159 lbs. It can be done and I AM GOING TO DO IT!! I am declaring it here on SP and I'm counting on you Sparkies to keep me accountable. I'll try to make daily updates or at least every two days because I NEED YOU ALL!!

So far I have been 4 days strong with my workout and planning to make it 5 tomorrow. I restarted the Fat Burning Elite program for Turbo Jam and I'm loving it. I am as of today 1 day strong with my eating and tomorrow will be 2.

I'm pushing folks and I hope some of you will push with me. If anyone wants to set a goal with me so we can keep each other on our toes. Let me know!! emoticon emoticon

  
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VTORIA3 10/25/2014 10:33AM

    Hi, Chal. It sounds like you've kicked things up a notch for a strong finish this week. You are steadfast in your determination and focus! Keep up the nice work.

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PATRICIA-CR 10/24/2014 8:47PM

    I'm pushing with you!! So glad you are being accountable and with a tremendous positive attitude and determination to start over emoticon

Please, be accountable. I'll be waiting for your progress report to come in!!


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OVERACTIVEELBOW 10/24/2014 7:16AM

    Remember your healthier Life-Style is not a Sprint ! nor a marathon... but a Lifetime Journey !! To be lived "All Day" "Every Day"...



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