What can I say? Despite claiming that I would, I HAVEN'T been making the most of September!! Unfortunately the balance is currently tipping in the favor of bad days over good ones. I've only had 4 good days compared to 6 awful ones. The month is far from over however and so I'm trying to kick my butt back in gear and be the me that makes me happy.
I'm so CONFUSED and FRUSTRATED however that I allow myself to slip into bad habits when I KNOW they don't benefit me in way, shape or form. They make me tired, cranky and depressed actually. Then on the other hand when I'm exercising and eating healthily I feel so in every aspect of my life so the question then is WHY???? Why do I make excuses when I should exercise and why do I stuff myself with junk? It's such irrational behavior but yet it keeps on happening.
Still while I try to figure this out I'm just going to try and refocus. Get back on track with my exercising and my eating one day at a time.
Boy has it been a while since I blogged. I guess I was living by the saying that no news is better than bad news because BELIEVE me these past 2 weeks ALL I had was bad news. I've just been eating out of control for the most part and last week I only got in 2 days worth of workouts.
September has begun however and I WILL make it an month!! I am officially one day back on track already!! (It should have been 2 but unfortunately yesterday followed the same vein as the previous 2 weeks) Anyway I stayed within my calorie range TODAY and I did my Turbo Jam workout despite feeling a little sick. I'm determined AGAIN folks and loving it. I just have to keep my eyes on the prize and always have my goals front and center in mind.
I also need to get rid of my all or nothing mentality because every single derailment from my goals and progress has been a result of it. I'm am going to
I have been maintaining my staying with my calorie range streak and I am 4 days strong with today going to be 5. I am suuuuuuuuuuper happy about this because it so true that we should
Unfortuanetly my 1 day wake up and exercise streak didn't really become a streak because it didn't make it to 2 days. I had a HARD time getting up this morning so much so that I was even late for work. Anyway I won't let that get me down. I plan to get my workout in this evening when I get home. I'm looking forward to it because it will me my first time doing this video. Also
Anyway that's all for now folks. Thanks for your time!!
Guess what? I exercised last night. I know you were probably expecting something more exciting but those four words are a sign to me that "I'm back." Those four words mean that I've regained the Chalecia of old who got her workouts done no matter what and I am SUPER happy about that.
So yep despite sounding like I wasn't going to do my workout yesterday in my blog (and believing when I wrote it) I went home and did my Turbo Jam 20 minute workout (at 9:30 p.m. no less). After writing my blog yesterday I decided to re-read (since I get points for that now ) Coach Nicole's series on the Habits of Fit People and one of the habits was "Work out like it's your job." That article is what allowed me to work out last night despite several thoughts popping up in my head from in the evening to my actual workout about how tired I was and about how I would end up tired tomorrow and a whole host of other excuses. I was able to dispel those thoughts by saying "If you had something to do for work you'd have to do it tired or not so you're working out." It was such an NSV for me.
Not only that but I loved the workout. It was soooooo much fun. I've done only 2 of the Turbo Jam videos so far and I loved them both. They don't feel like a workout even though I know that I'm working but it's like you're at an intense dance party. The music is and Chalene's vibe and attitude is too. The only drawback I have with the videos is that I do have co-ordination issues so I'm having trouble learning some of the moves and the overachiever in me is finding that a bit frustrating. I have every intention of pushing until I get them down though so that's just a minor inconvenience.
I did the same video from last night this morning (another victory- waking up and exercising) and I was already a little better. This wasn't the scheduled video but it was the one I had time for this morning so I'll have to do that next one tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to it.
In other news, yesterday also marked the beginning of the 100 push-up challenge which I convinced my DH to do with me. Really we were supposed to start on Tuesday so we can do it on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays but he had a headache on Tuesday and wasn't up for it. Anyway that means we're going to do day 2 today even though the program is designed to give you a rest day between days but I don't want to end up on a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule because those days are not convenient for us so I'm going to push for us to do it today. I hope he can manage it though because I'm sure he's pretty sore today from yesterday so here's fingers crossed. Day 1 of the Challenge was pretty challenging but I guess that's why it's a "challenge." I'm pushing through though because
Also on the eating front I'm now on a 3 day streak and today will be 4. All in all as I said above "I'm back!!" and happy about it. Thanks for your time.
The past two days have been good. Well at least on the eating front. I currently have a two day streak of staying within my calorie range and I hope to make it 3 today. It's not much but it's a major victory to me with my eating having been out of control for probably a whole month.
On the exercise front things haven't been so wonderful however. I did do my first Turbo Jam video yesterday morning because it didn't work out for Monday evening and I was supposed to do the second one this morning but I just couldn't negotiate myself out of bed. (Yes I said negotiate)
Unfortunately I've let my body fall out of it's routine of getting up to exercise and so it needs to be re-trained but it's soooooo hard. Yesterday in and of itself was a feat. I think yesterday's negotiations went on for about two hours of waking and sleeping before I finally got up. I didn't have the time for that this morning though because I had to leave earlier than normal hence missed workout. Sadly too I don't see it getting done this evening either because after work it's straight to church and when I finally get home probably after 9 p.m. I don't see me having the energy to get the video done. I'll try though and hope for the best.
In other news I was reminded how easy it is to disregard our accomplishments. This morning I decided to wear a pair of pants that I had bought for work way back from the last day of May and at that time they were a good fit. Not snug but a good fit. This morning however I could hold the waistband of those same pants several inches from my waist! And to think in the back of my mind I've been thinking that I've achieved nothing this summer. I may not have achieved all that I wanted to but I did way better than nothing.
(In case you can't see the words clearly it says, "Celebrate your achievements. Your journey must include time of reflection. Compare where you were five years ago with where you are now and congratulate yourself for your achievements both big and small. Don't forget to reward yourself for your hard work, careful planning and strong character.")
Let's celebrate all that we've done, big and small!! Thanks for your time!!