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recommitting step one oa

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Recommitting. Yes I go to meetings, but I realized today I haven't been working my program hard enough. My abstinence is...okay. Could be better. I need to live the steps! I've been too passive, not even thinking about it, the steps, the whole things.
So without further ado: hi I'm Katleen, compulsive eater. I'm at step one fully: I admit I'm powerless over food and my eating behaviors, that my life is unmanageable.
God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot change, change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Only by following the steps and using the tools of recovery will I be able to shed this toxic weight and the negativity that whispers in my head, the voice of this disease. Thanks.

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/18/2014 9:34AM

    I sent a prayer for you. I hope you can beat this problem!

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RD03875 9/18/2014 9:13AM

    Sorry, double posted

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RD03875 9/18/2014 9:12AM

    You can do this!

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KNYAGENYA 9/18/2014 8:12AM

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68ANNE 9/18/2014 8:10AM

    Hi,
It's very nice to meet you! You've got this

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LJCANNON 9/18/2014 7:50AM

    emoticon Way to ho, making that First, Hardest Step. It won't be 'Easy' but I think you've got this!!

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AUNTALICE2 9/17/2014 9:00PM

    Good for you!! The first step is the biggest! I will be cheering for you!! emoticon

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NEVERORNOW 9/17/2014 8:57PM

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IWANT2DOTHIS1X 9/17/2014 8:46PM

    Happy you have found support!


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BJUMPINGFORJOY 9/17/2014 8:18PM

    Very true and God will be there for you.

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GRANDMABABA 9/17/2014 8:13PM

    So true. Great success to you.

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HOSPICE AND MY MOM

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Friends I am home...and I am pathetically sad. I mean I have always felt heartache when I came home from a wonderful vacation, but with me being overwhelming un satisfied in my life/weight /health... and surrounding here anyway, it is much worth coming back. I feel sad, I feel lonely...the only thing I missed where you (thanks to a bad connection), my family and friends...I really do need to change a lot. I hope after the first days of sulking I will find the energy I felt during this trip to start new. I went for a short walk anyway. But I don't know...it was just a few minutes of thinking about my boring life,and my Mom and how much I wish i could fix her but no one can and how hard it is for my daughter to care for her.I don't enjoy feeling helpless.. I am happy though to have my amazing family and facebook friends who I know love and support me in my hardships.

  
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JUDITH316 8/30/2014 6:36PM

    I am so sorry Whitney to hear about your Mom, that isn't easy especially when you are living so far away...my thoughts & prayers are with you always...Sending you big HUGS and Heaps of Prayers... emoticon emoticon

Now I understand why I felt lead to come to your page and post a "Special Delivery" of a Truck Load of Hugs...Hope they help...So from my house to yours sending you... A Truck Load of BIG Virtual HUGS

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PATTYKLAVER 8/29/2014 9:36AM

    I suspect that you are a bit like me: a bit of a worrier, don't take enough time for self, etc. I am looking for a way, too, to get out of this cycle, but it's hard. Prayers for you.

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KNYAGENYA 8/29/2014 7:52AM

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PAPAMIKIE 8/28/2014 9:29PM

    I see your posts in the Tai Chi team. I lead the tai chi team, the Qigong team and the Chi Running team. Because you are part of the taiji team I am going to ask you if you use this interest. I do not suggest you do an hour of tai chi every day, but what about 5 minutes of easy Qigong movement with breathing. This will not fix things over night, nor will it fix things in a week but in 2 or 3 months you might be surprised. However, I must stress that Qigong and Taijiquan require commitment and regular practice. they are metaphors for healing as well as instruments of healing, however, they do require a very regular commitment of you will not see much in the way of change.

You do not nee equipment, you do not need a gym you can adapt them to seated practices, and for most people just learning to breath properly to sit and stand in balance will make a difference.

You questions to you is can you commit to 5 minutes six times a week for a week?

At the end of the first week can you commit to 5 minutes six times a week for a second week

would you be so kind as to let me know?

Popie

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DIANESKATZ 8/28/2014 7:59PM

    Hospice cared for my mom too and I was there for her when she passed at almost 97 years old. It was the most difficult time of my life. But though I am sad I am not overwhelmed because I believe in a loving God who promises to bring our loved ones back through the resurrection. Jesus did this while on earth giving us a preview of what he would do under God's government in the near future. ~Revelation 21:3,4.

I hope you find some solace as I have and know that others care. Focus on the future..it is indeed a bright one.
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DTHOR6 8/28/2014 6:22PM

    Thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Kim

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AUNTALICE2 8/28/2014 2:46PM

    You are standing on the edge of a great dark pit.....do not jump in! Reach out! Find someone to talk to . Whether it be a church friend or the YMCA, or a therapist. But do not let yourself go! We are all cheering for you!! Be careful and take care of yourself first! emoticon

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68ANNE 8/28/2014 12:55PM

    I am thinking of you😉

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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/28/2014 10:10AM

    I have always been depressed after visiting my loves ones as I know I won't see them again for a long time, if ever, and it hurts. I went through the same thing with my mom, grandparents, and in-laws and it is depressing. Know that other people understand your pain and hoping that your load is not too much to bear. emoticon

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JANET552 8/28/2014 9:03AM

    I hope you find what you are looking for. It's in you to do so!

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SAPHRAEL 8/28/2014 8:58AM

    Sorry you're struggling. Hang in there
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EVIE4NOW 8/28/2014 8:28AM

  If it helps any, lots of people go thru post vacation depression. When you really need a lift, look at the pictures that you took and start planning the next vacation. Sometimes the anticipation is just the right pick me up.

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A FRESH NEW DAY

Thursday, August 28, 2014

I've been struggling the last few days. But something happened yesterday that brought me back to reality, Life in general. As someone was talking about their life & how bad things were, then about that time my program kicked in.
***I am the only one responsible for me. With the help of my HP - GOD, I can do this. It's up to me to pick up the material, work the Steps, go to meetings, use the tools, communication with a Sponsor & pray/meditate daily. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time, praying & meditating along this journey. I see a light at the beginning of my tunnel. I'm so hiped, if my body would let me, I could run for miles, maybe one day.***
Blessings to all.
I'm going for a walk.

  
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68ANNE 8/28/2014 12:57PM

    Good to hear! 😀

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BLONDEDOG 8/28/2014 9:47AM

    Great blog! You can do this! I know you can and you have the right attitude!

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NEVER TOO LATE

Monday, August 04, 2014

Itís never too late to live a life that makes you proud. If you donít learn anything else from this post, learn that. We get one shot at this. Thereís no age limit on changing your course, and to settle in and be stuck in a life that isnít authentic is a tragic waste. Honestly, itís never too late or too early to be who you are capable of being. Thereís no time limit Ė you can simply start and stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. You can make the best or the worst of it. Itís up to you, so make the best of it. Do things that startle you. Feel things youíve never felt before. Spend time with people who help you grow. Live a life youíre proud of. And if you find that youíre not, have the courage to make a change.

  
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AUNTALICE2 8/19/2014 9:03PM

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BLONDEDOG 8/8/2014 9:03AM

    This moved me to tears. What a meaningful, heartfelt blog. Thank you so much for sharing. You are in my thoughts.

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68ANNE 8/7/2014 6:34PM

    this IS your lfe

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 8/7/2014 5:37PM

    AWESOME emoticon emoticon Victoria, Dr. Oz Show Fans Team Co-leader

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IAM_HIS 8/7/2014 8:51AM

   
This is a very special blog and you my dear friend have a beautiful heart & soul.

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SAPHRAEL 8/5/2014 1:18PM

    Looking for courage.
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PATTYKLAVER 8/5/2014 7:08AM

    emoticon Thanks for the reminder.

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COOP9002 8/4/2014 11:15AM

    Thanks

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GERIKRAGH 8/4/2014 10:43AM

    I never thought about doing something that startles me. It's something to think about.

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GERIKRAGH 8/4/2014 10:36AM

    If it is to be, it is up to me.

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    Accept the things you can't change and work on the ones you can! Awesome advice! emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/4/2014 8:45AM

    This is great advice. I hope everyone who reads it will heed the warning. I sent a prayer for your mother. emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 8/4/2014 8:31AM

    Wonderful blog and reminder for each of us! Have a great day!!!

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NELLJONES 8/4/2014 8:04AM

    Within reason: At 65 it's too late to aim for a career as a professional athlete.

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RAINBOWFALLS 8/4/2014 7:55AM

    Very nice - take care

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/4/2014 7:32AM

    Awesome!!! Live each day to the fullest!!!

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DANCINCAJUN1 8/4/2014 7:27AM

    so true ... live, love and enjoy every day of your life ... keep a smile on your face. roc
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WDIPIM 8/4/2014 7:25AM

  Great words - thanks.

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MY MOM

Saturday, August 02, 2014

I moved away but i keep looking back,I need to re-learn and make new habits here and now,yes,self preservation.I need to put it first and formost,I love my mom so much but she is dying and I can't prevent that from happening,so I must let it and her go to save myself.It breaks my heart.

  
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BLONDEDOG 8/8/2014 9:01AM

    I am so sorry to hear this.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 8/7/2014 5:43PM

    emoticon I AM SO SORRY
Victoria, Dr. Oz Show Fans Team Co-leader

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SPINNINGJW 8/3/2014 10:21AM

    emoticon I lost my mom in 1996.

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NELLJONES 8/3/2014 7:40AM

    I've been there. Prayers to you.

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon Praying for you and for your mom.

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MINILOVER1 8/2/2014 2:39PM

    My prayers and thoughts are with you. My mom passed away over 20 years ago and I still feel her presence around me every day.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/2/2014 2:29PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom. May God grant you the peace and understanding to help you deal with your mom's death.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/2/2014 12:16PM

    I've been through it. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find peace.

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