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HOSPICE AND MY MOM

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Friends I am home...and I am pathetically sad. I mean I have always felt heartache when I came home from a wonderful vacation, but with me being overwhelming un satisfied in my life/weight /health... and surrounding here anyway, it is much worth coming back. I feel sad, I feel lonely...the only thing I missed where you (thanks to a bad connection), my family and friends...I really do need to change a lot. I hope after the first days of sulking I will find the energy I felt during this trip to start new. I went for a short walk anyway. But I don't know...it was just a few minutes of thinking about my boring life,and my Mom and how much I wish i could fix her but no one can and how hard it is for my daughter to care for her.I don't enjoy feeling helpless.. I am happy though to have my amazing family and facebook friends who I know love and support me in my hardships.

  
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JANET552 8/28/2014 9:03AM

    I hope you find what you are looking for. It's in you to do so!

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SAPHRAEL 8/28/2014 8:58AM

    Sorry you're struggling. Hang in there
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EVIE4NOW 8/28/2014 8:28AM

  If it helps any, lots of people go thru post vacation depression. When you really need a lift, look at the pictures that you took and start planning the next vacation. Sometimes the anticipation is just the right pick me up.

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A FRESH NEW DAY

Thursday, August 28, 2014

I've been struggling the last few days. But something happened yesterday that brought me back to reality, Life in general. As someone was talking about their life & how bad things were, then about that time my program kicked in.
***I am the only one responsible for me. With the help of my HP - GOD, I can do this. It's up to me to pick up the material, work the Steps, go to meetings, use the tools, communication with a Sponsor & pray/meditate daily. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time, praying & meditating along this journey. I see a light at the beginning of my tunnel. I'm so hiped, if my body would let me, I could run for miles, maybe one day.***
Blessings to all.
I'm going for a walk.

  


NEVER TOO LATE

Monday, August 04, 2014

Itís never too late to live a life that makes you proud. If you donít learn anything else from this post, learn that. We get one shot at this. Thereís no age limit on changing your course, and to settle in and be stuck in a life that isnít authentic is a tragic waste. Honestly, itís never too late or too early to be who you are capable of being. Thereís no time limit Ė you can simply start and stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. You can make the best or the worst of it. Itís up to you, so make the best of it. Do things that startle you. Feel things youíve never felt before. Spend time with people who help you grow. Live a life youíre proud of. And if you find that youíre not, have the courage to make a change.

  
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AUNTALICE2 8/19/2014 9:03PM

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BLONDEDOG 8/8/2014 9:03AM

    This moved me to tears. What a meaningful, heartfelt blog. Thank you so much for sharing. You are in my thoughts.

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68ANNE 8/7/2014 6:34PM

    this IS your lfe

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 8/7/2014 5:37PM

    AWESOME emoticon emoticon Victoria, Dr. Oz Show Fans Team Co-leader

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IAM_HIS 8/7/2014 8:51AM

   
This is a very special blog and you my dear friend have a beautiful heart & soul.

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CETANISTAWI 8/5/2014 6:50PM

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SAPHRAEL 8/5/2014 1:18PM

    Looking for courage.
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PATTYKLAVER 8/5/2014 7:08AM

    emoticon Thanks for the reminder.

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COOP9002 8/4/2014 11:15AM

    Thanks

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GERIKRAGH 8/4/2014 10:43AM

    I never thought about doing something that startles me. It's something to think about.

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GERIKRAGH 8/4/2014 10:36AM

    If it is to be, it is up to me.

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GOLFGMA 8/4/2014 9:07AM

    Accept the things you can't change and work on the ones you can! Awesome advice! emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/4/2014 8:45AM

    This is great advice. I hope everyone who reads it will heed the warning. I sent a prayer for your mother. emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 8/4/2014 8:31AM

    Wonderful blog and reminder for each of us! Have a great day!!!

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NELLJONES 8/4/2014 8:04AM

    Within reason: At 65 it's too late to aim for a career as a professional athlete.

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RAINBOWFALLS 8/4/2014 7:55AM

    Very nice - take care

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/4/2014 7:32AM

    Awesome!!! Live each day to the fullest!!!

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DANCINCAJUN1 8/4/2014 7:27AM

    so true ... live, love and enjoy every day of your life ... keep a smile on your face. roc
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WDIPIM 8/4/2014 7:25AM

  Great words - thanks.

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MY MOM

Saturday, August 02, 2014

I moved away but i keep looking back,I need to re-learn and make new habits here and now,yes,self preservation.I need to put it first and formost,I love my mom so much but she is dying and I can't prevent that from happening,so I must let it and her go to save myself.It breaks my heart.

  
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BLONDEDOG 8/8/2014 9:01AM

    I am so sorry to hear this.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 8/7/2014 5:43PM

    emoticon I AM SO SORRY
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SPINNINGJW 8/3/2014 10:21AM

    emoticon I lost my mom in 1996.

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NELLJONES 8/3/2014 7:40AM

    I've been there. Prayers to you.

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon Praying for you and for your mom.

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MINILOVER1 8/2/2014 2:39PM

    My prayers and thoughts are with you. My mom passed away over 20 years ago and I still feel her presence around me every day.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 8/2/2014 2:29PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom. May God grant you the peace and understanding to help you deal with your mom's death.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/2/2014 12:16PM

    I've been through it. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find peace.

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FOOT WORK

Thursday, July 24, 2014

~ GoOoOoOOoOoOood Thursday Morning, EVERYONE!!!!.....Finally not so lethargic.....I have been under the weather all week; however, I am more than grateful it is very temporary.....I have nothing to complain about because my life on a daily basis is more than good and I am very blessed to have exactly what I do.....As of late, I have been staying in the positive no matter what and focusing on a stronger relationship with my higher power and the footwork I must do to continue growing.....I am participating in my presence, in my own life.....I am no longer willing to engage in insanity/chaos with others.....IF IT IS NOT MY OWN CIRCUS I AIN'T GONNA PLAY WITH DEM DRAINING MONKEYS!!!!......I always have time for those closest to me and for people who really want to help themselves; however, I make no apologies for not volunteering to interact with toxic, dysfunctional, beyond dramatic situations/people!!!!....It's about living the steps and walking the walk of recovery on a daily basis!!!! ~ KSS ~ Thanks for letting me share!!! ~

  
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    Glad you're feeling better and stronger! You're making forward strides for sure! emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/24/2014 8:19PM

    I also avoid toxic people - they can suck the life right out of you.

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    Great thing to hear you say that!

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God bless,

Dee

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NELLIEC 7/24/2014 3:47PM

    Yep, walking the walk to recovery!

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DENACARPER 7/24/2014 2:52PM

    Amen to that. I walked through that for almost 15 years with a toxic sister-in-law. When she was no longer in the picture - it was amazing the difference. You make a choice on how you live. Choosing to live with encouraging supportive people who just want to make you be a better person - is a great place to be!!

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