Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Today is the 9th anniversary of my 35th birthday.
We celebrated last night because my hubby has to work today and the rest of this week. Hospitals never close and those who work there have wacky schedules... My husband and kids took me out to Macayo for the birthday dinner. Had enchiladas b/c the gum was swollen and sore, so soft foods for me. Also had a nice pomegranate margarita.
Then we came home and the kids put a big 3 and big 5 in a giant chocolate chip cookie and Bill lit them up. I made some wishes and blew out the candles while my family sang to me.
My husband got me a new weight bench with an adjustable squat rack that I can put my barbell across and do pullups with (yes, I'm going to use it for squats, too). My old bench was REALLY old (20+) and I had pretty much worn it out - it was covered in duct tape & I had actually glued a couple of the screws in b/c they kept working out of place. Course, the sentimental side says "look what we've been through together" a billion years ago, I benched my own weight on that thing - at that time, I weighed 156. Now, I can't even bench half that & weigh a LOT more than 156. still.....
My children got me new Pyrex mixing bowls so we can put what is left of my grandmother's set into semi-retirement. I broke the big green one a few months ago and just cried. I know the memories of cooking with her when I was a kid didn't break with the bowl, but did realize just how precious these bowls are. So the new ones will get used more often and Nana's bowls will be put on the table as serving bowls to honor her.
All in all, a very nice birthday.
But today has been a time for reflection. Looking back, looking forward, assessing where I am right now. In some ways, I'm so thrilled that I've actually made some progress in my weight loss and fitness. At the same time, I know that it's pathetically slow. Other people with my disease started AFTER I did, had more to lose and are running way past me at an alarming pace. Makes me hang my head a little. It's hard to keep a positive attitude when something feels almost entirely out of my hands. I've decided to go see a naturopath that's been recommended to me and try something completely different.
Just knowing I have other options has brightened my day today.