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Life Changing

Monday, April 14, 2014

I went to a conference this weekend where they were talking about changing lives by being a "Spa-Girl." Yes, I'm a spa girl, I pamper women as one of my career choices. It was a great conference, full of positive people and yes, certainly attitude changing things... but LIFE CHANGING?

When I think Life Changing, I think SparkPeople and it's founder, Chris Downie.

Me now holding Spark Rallies to help people get well...

Me unable to help even myself... pre SparkPeople

SparkPeople. Second chances do exist. I'm really not just some picture on the internet. I'm a real person, who has eating issues and isn't that keen on exercise. I have to give myself pep talks all day long and use every trick in the book to outsmart my body rather than fight it's tendencies to want certain things. So I'm not any super willed woman, I'm just like you!

I got on Spark People and decided to be as I could be, bare and raw, not perfect by any means. When I gain weight, you see it on my ticker. When things go wrong, you see it in my blog and you see my solutions to those issues too. USE SparkPeople. The whole site is full of tools. Take the welcome tour, use SparkAmerica.com for a 60 second mobile quickie... just stay Sparking and never give up! It's only when you give up that you fail.

My point is that no matter how wonderful spa products are, you put them on. Real change is something you put in. Are you putting in or putting on?

  
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TATTER3 4/16/2014 3:45PM

    Yea You!! Keep Sparkin'~!

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CARINEVE 4/16/2014 11:47AM

    I love how you reference the fact that you are a real person, and not just a picture.
And it is very true that it is all about you put in, not what you put on :)
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BKNOCK 4/16/2014 11:02AM

    Great blog!

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GROGGYFROGGY 4/16/2014 9:14AM

    I love you! You are so real. You are all of us. Just trying to better yourself one day at a time! So Awesome!

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ELSCO55 4/15/2014 11:08PM

    Congrats and thanks for a great blog.

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NINAHAPPYHEART 4/15/2014 8:14PM

    Congrats for your successful weight loss,looking gorgeous from in and out.
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    Great questions.
Your honesty is what helps you make progress. Honesty will help us make progress.
Being honest helps us make changes.
You are ...
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PATTYKLAVER 4/15/2014 3:00AM

    Putting in definitely comes first. I haven't been doing that lately. Once I put in, I can put on as a bonus for reaching a goal.

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MARYJEANSL 4/14/2014 11:32PM

  So right!

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AJDOVER1 4/14/2014 11:09PM

    This is a change for a lifetime! Thanks for being such an inspiration

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DLYNN1113 4/14/2014 11:07PM

    Yes you are a "spa girl". You pamper us from the inside where it really counts. You reach down and touch our hearts and massage the parts no one else ever cared about. And sometimes it doesn't feel good working out the kinks or getting over the hard parts.... but without it some of us would never imagine us as ever beginning to be beautiful or feeling good about ourselves. You help "tone up" our courage to go on, when we think we can't continue, and when we fail, you are the mirror we look into to see that when you fall, you pick yourself back up and go on again. You, my dear Beth, are the best kind of "spa girl"; and I am so very thankful for you. emoticon

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JAMER123 4/14/2014 10:01PM

    You do a wonderful job of inspiring and motivating. I have a feeling doing the Rallies are doing a world of good for you as well as others. The RV Enthusists met for a mini rally last fall in Custer SD and we 7 couples had a great time!! So great that we are planning another this fall in Branson!! Just a little info to let you know a spark does fly far!!
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RAINBOWMF 4/14/2014 8:31PM

    Three cheers fro Beth emoticon emoticon emoticon

Thanks you.

Mary

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DIBANANA 4/14/2014 4:38PM

  Well said

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JUDITHANNIE 4/14/2014 3:38PM

    So true great blog Beth emoticon

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BAMAJAM2 4/14/2014 3:06PM

  Beth-- You are real, genuine, and wonderful! Thank you for the encouragement that you give to all of us. You show us "never quit" by your sweet example!
Thank you from my heart!

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Love Love Love your blog today

a well needed message for us all

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    Beautifully said Beth... just like YOU!!!!! emoticon

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    emoticon Amen

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AQUAGIRL08 4/14/2014 12:55PM

    Trying to put in!

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PATTISTAMPS 4/14/2014 12:38PM

    Oh, Beth... You are so much more amazing than you can ever realize. Have a great, inspired day, because you just gave me one!!!

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CHERIJ16 4/14/2014 12:35PM

    Every time I read your blogs I feel that you are speaking to me directly because you seem to identify the problems I am struggling with at the time. You are a great inspiration to me and so many others. Thank you so much for sharing this journey with all of us. emoticon emoticon but most of all emoticon

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NANFACEMIRE1 4/14/2014 12:14PM

    So glad you took advantage of your 2nd chance and found Spark People..

Great job.

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MTN_KITTEN 4/14/2014 11:47AM

    Being real ... is what makes us human. We can be the best we can be.

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EEKAMIGHTY 4/14/2014 11:37AM

  Wow. You are amazing. Thanks for reminding me that I, too, can be amazing.

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    inspiring! emoticon

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    Transformation... the path to health & joy emoticon

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JESS0107 4/14/2014 10:55AM

    emoticon You are such an inspriation and I just want to say a big Thank You for all that you do!

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GINA180847 4/14/2014 10:48AM

    Thank you for that reminder.

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1CRAZYDOG 4/14/2014 9:50AM

  Beth, for sure you give an honest picture of what's going on and have the courage to talk about it here which gives OTHERS the courage to be honest in their own journies, too, and moving forward!'' HUGS

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Regaining Weight Can Be Overcome- Here's HOW

Thursday, April 10, 2014

So you think you might be in trouble or regaining weight. Guess what? I do it too, and I lose it again and then some. I've done it for 9 years now on SparkPeople. It really isn't the end of weight loss as you know it and you aren't necessarily going to gain back all of your weight with extra pounds, UNLESS you give up. My motto, NEVER GIVE UP. That is the only time you can fail.

I'm going to write about 2 kinds of ups... when you gain because you are off track and when you gain because your body is re balancing and on a plateau.

When you start regaining because you are off track, you have to ask yourself why you are off track in the first place. Is there extra stress? Is it emotional? Are you extra hungry? If so, why? When did it start? Was there a medical reason for it or a supplement you started taking? Really think about what is going on. I realized that you cannot just rip an eating habit out of your life and not replace it with another habit. Mine was shopping. Yikes, the bills. Then I had to replace shopping at more expensive stores with thrift stores. So there is the habit component of it... Finding something you enjoy doing besides eating. There is also the emotional side of it, finding something to elicit the same emotions that food usually brings you. Ask yourself what you are wanting food to make you feel. I usually want to feel warm, safe and comforted. So my go-to is candles (scent), a soft warm blanket (touch), and a movie (sight). Notice that those things are all physical soothers to replace the physical soother of food (taste and smell). I believe it takes a physical soother to replace a physical soother and a physical habit to replace a physical habit.

Weight loss naturally has ups and downs. Yes, LOSS has ups too. It's the body balancing itself out with water and new muscle... When you lose weight and start working out, you are literally changing your body's composition from inactive fat tissue, to lean, active, muscle tissue. Muscle takes up less space than fat, so it looks smaller, but weighs more. Let's hear it for looking smaller! Yeah! The thing is that the body has to balance the books sometimes and it just doesn't seem fair. We get on plateaus, but they can't last forever. My favorite plateau busters are calorie cycling and increasing your workouts by just a little. Drinking lemon water helps too.

If you hate something, doing it is only going to aggravate your desire to eat, so I suggest you find ways to indulge yourself in pleasant activities in the fitness world, find foods you love that are healthy and really explore yourself. Not everyone is a protein drinking runner. I would LOVE to be a runner, but I am not one, I'm a walker at present. I used to be a swimmer. I think tastes change at different times of your life, so don't be afraid to explore. Find your passion about whatever healthy lifestyle you choose and then make some gradual changes to become that person that does those things.

Regain happens. Treat it like a danger blip on the radar screen rather than an inevitable failure. Never give up and stay the healthy course.

  
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POLSKARENIA 4/17/2014 3:10AM

    As always, a timely and excellent blog. There would be nothing left of me of I had just lost those extra pounds without regaining... still plenty to do, but it WILL happen.
Thank you!

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TLGRNT 4/16/2014 9:33AM

  Great blog!!!

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    thanks so much for sharing


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  Great blog! Thanks!!! emoticon

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GRATEFUL_BEING 4/14/2014 9:34PM

    Wonderful words of wisdom thank you.

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FREETJE123 4/14/2014 5:14PM

    Reading this was very helpful! I really needed this. Sometimes I just look to much at the weight loss instead of at the good things which come from healthy living!

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    Great blog!

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GWINNER1 4/13/2014 9:33PM

    Great blog! Thanks for the plateau busting tips.

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EASH5M 4/13/2014 7:18PM

    Thanks for the great advise!

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    What a helpful blog. I need to save it to read it again and again.

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ALIHIKES 4/13/2014 5:10PM

    Thank you Beth for this supportive and encouraging blog. It is a huge inspiration to all of us that are stalled or slightly up on the scale

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  emoticon emoticon We all need to hear that every now and then!!!

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RADIOACTIVEGN 4/13/2014 11:43AM

  Thanks - this is good to hear.

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APRILRUSSELL3 4/13/2014 10:43AM

    Thank you. I really needed that because I had a bad week.

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ANGELN325 4/13/2014 10:28AM

    Great blog and I will totally look at gains differently now and not just give up if I stay stuck at a plateau.

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    emoticon emoticon Just what I needed to read to help break the plateau that I have been on for some time now.

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DHUNTER67 4/13/2014 7:55AM

    Thank you, this really helped me put some things in order in my head.

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    I love reading your blog; you are so inspiring. emoticon

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PUPPYFITZ 4/13/2014 3:23AM

  Timing is everything. This was perfect for me at this moment. Thank you. Great insights. Thank you. ( did I say thank you?). Thank you!!!!!

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FAERIEBERT1986 4/13/2014 2:32AM

    Thank you, I so needed to read this. I gained some weight after my mom passed away last year, and I'm just now getting back into exercise. It can be so frustrating trying to get the weight back off, but I know I can do this! emoticon

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    Finding ways to make yourself happy & not beating yourself up make so much sense. Great blog! emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 4/12/2014 11:16PM

    You are so right. Finding things that make you happy is the way to go. Replacing eating with things you enjoy will definitely have you in the mindset to lose weight.

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GORDON66 4/12/2014 3:57PM

  I like the concept of replacing a warm and fuzzy feeling with another that has nothing to do with food. Thanks for sharing.

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CALIDREAMER76 4/12/2014 3:49PM

    Thanks,
I've been regaining since I started training for the Flying Pig half-marathon - LAST year. Walking the entire way, it was a great experience that left a sour taste, so to speak, because as I increased the exercise all the "experts" I went to - and they were very knowledgeable people said eat more - specifically protein, which I did, but trying to keep in moderation and then after the race I knew I had to cut back and I did both eating less and slowly cutting back to what I considered normal distances - because as you stated if you don't like it, you aren't going to do it. I didn't like how much time it occupied in my day, other things got behind, but I had a goal to reach and I did it. I'm glad to have had the experience, especially with the contingent of sparkers that were there last year. But the weight has slowly crept up to 30 pounds gained and it scares the bejeebers out of me. Talking to DeeJay - a long time sparker she said trust the process, but for a year the process feels like it is failing me.
Now next week I'm having blood work done to see if it's medical / hormonal and then see what new plan of action I can come up with.
Your blog especially having met you a couple of times is encouraging. Thank you

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GRAMMYX7 4/12/2014 3:04PM

  Thanks for your words of wisdom. I did Spark People for a while and lost 20 lb., then I was at a plateau and got frustrated. Well I am back and hoping to get back and do better. This time it will be one day at a time. Thanks for your encouraging blog.

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SHARONSIZE8 4/12/2014 2:43PM

    I, too, have lost and gained the same 40 - 60 pounds over the last 17 years or so. I have been back on my journey to health since April 1st, and this blog is what I needed to confirm that my efforts are worth it! emoticon

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    You are always full of wisdom!!

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FIT-AND-FUN 4/12/2014 1:10PM

    Thank you for this. I have gained and lost the same 30 pounds for years. It is time for some self-reflection.

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BELLE0308 4/12/2014 9:40AM

    Excellent blog! I love this. You explained what happens to me he only difference is I usually just give up. That is my main problem and you just handed me the reasons it does and how to deal with it. Thank you so much! emoticon emoticon

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SHARONCAPPS 4/12/2014 8:46AM

  Great post. Thanks for sharing with us. It is so true.

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Hubby's Cancer Results

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

Negative!!!! They got all of the precancer and there is no cancerous material! Praise God and thank ALL of you for each thought, prayer and message.

Beth and Chuck

  
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ASRMOM 4/14/2014 10:03PM

    Praise God! I am so glad to hear this!

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    So glad they got it all! emoticon

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SUEPERWOMAN 4/13/2014 8:19AM

   
Thank God, that is wonderful news. I know how worried you've been, what a relief!

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    So glad the news is positive. Now you can start breathing again. emoticon

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NEED2LOSEN2010 4/11/2014 11:50PM

    Praise the Lord! So happy for you.

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4RASCALS 4/11/2014 8:10PM

    That's great news. It must be such a relief for you. Take care,

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SMILINGEYES2 4/11/2014 9:44AM

    Such great news PTL

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NHES220 4/11/2014 9:29AM

    So happy to hear the news! What a relief!

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IRISHGAL46 4/10/2014 9:50PM

    Praise God. That is wonderful news.

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DLYNN1113 4/10/2014 8:08PM

    Praise God!!! So glad for your news!!!!! God is good all the time. Have a great week end. emoticon

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  I'm so happy to hear this!!

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POLSKARENIA 4/10/2014 2:05PM

    Great news!

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SEATTLE58 4/10/2014 11:24AM

    Thank goodness for modern medicine!!!!

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MNNICE 4/10/2014 11:22AM

    Wonderful! Early detection can be the key!

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EVIE4NOW 4/10/2014 11:16AM

  That is so wonderful. I'm sure you've had enough worry and stress to last a lifetime. All the best to you both.






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TMCAT1129 4/10/2014 10:12AM

    I am so happy for the both of you, what a blessing! Nice pic of the both of you, I wish you both many many more wonderful years to come. emoticon emoticon

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STALEYK 4/10/2014 5:16AM

    So thankful! Thanks for updating us! Cute - good looking couple!

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    Amen

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    Great news!!!!

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon Praise The Lord! emoticon Chuck!

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LOLAJO54 4/9/2014 8:26PM

    excellent news

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KAYTIE22 4/9/2014 8:14PM

    This is the best news! Very happy for both of you.

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1CRAZYDOG 4/9/2014 5:30PM

  Hallelujah! Praise be. I am thrilled for you both. HUGS

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 4/9/2014 3:10PM

    Such awesome news. I'm so happy for you both.

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MTN_KITTEN 4/9/2014 3:09PM

    Praise the Lord. Both of you are on a journey to get healthy ... never take it for granite.

I am 27 months and counting Breast Cancer overcomer!!!!

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    Great news.Stay well. emoticon emoticon

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KOMTRIA 4/9/2014 2:45PM

  Outstanding!

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CAROLFAITHWALKR 4/9/2014 2:11PM

    Thanks be to God! Kneeling at His feet and saying, "Thank You!", right now!

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KAREN608 4/9/2014 1:57PM

    So wonderful. You have a lot to smile about now!

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REDSPIRALWOMAN 4/9/2014 12:02PM

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SUGAR0814 4/9/2014 11:19AM

    emoticon Amazing! God is good all the time!

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PATTISTAMPS 4/9/2014 10:56AM

    emoticon Very happy to hear this!!!

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DSHONEYC 4/9/2014 10:50AM

    Relieved and happy/ PTL and thanks for prayers answered. emoticon

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HUNGRYWOMAN2 4/9/2014 10:21AM

    Fantastic news! Prayers are answered.
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    Wonderful news emoticon !!!

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SONGBIRDPAULA 4/9/2014 9:42AM

    emoticon Hallelujah!

God is truly the great healer! I am so glad for these results! I know that it is a burden that has been lifted for both of you! May you have many wonderful days ahead together!

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How Will Getting Fat (Again) Help?

Thursday, April 03, 2014

I received a comment on my blog that was GENIUS! Just what I needed to ask myself to give myself strength when fighting emotional eating- I call it emo eating.

How will getting fat (again) help?

WOW POWERFUL! I thought about the situations that are getting me down and none of them would be easier if I gained weight. They would be harder. Why? Because I recently regained my ability to walk and my freedom from a wheelchair. I need to stay thinner to take care of myself and my husband, whether he has cancer or not. I just now started working again and I need to stay mobile to do that. I do SparkPeople Rallies and I REALLY enjoy that part of my life. That too would go away of I got fat again. So everything I have worked so hard for= a life, would go away of I got fat again and I would once again lie in my bed waiting to die. Not going to happen.

SO WHAT IS IT YOU WANT MORE THAN FOOD?

I went back to thank the person for their comment, and the comment was either gone, or I couldn't find it. So thank you and all of the rest of you who said prayers, offered advice and care. I know I communicate in blogs most of the time, rather than individually. That's because I care about so many of you and I just don't have time to write each of you. I also want to encourage anyone and everyone who may happen across my blogs. My dream is that my blogs reach people in bed, just like I was, bedridden, who feel hopeless, and they learn that they too can do something... maybe not everything. Something is always better than nothing.

I feel lifted up and strong today! Woohoo! Let's do this!

  
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    Much success to you....Keep on reaching out to others.

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IMGLAMRUS 4/10/2014 9:07PM

    Thank you....It's really something to think about. Great blog!!!!

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LILIVW 4/10/2014 9:27AM

    Thanks, I loved this blog! I am going to blog about your two questions and think about how they relate to me personally. Glad your husbands tests came back cancer-free!

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BRADMILL2922 4/8/2014 2:08AM

    You have helped so many with your story and I have no doubt that you will continue to do so!

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TRAVELGRRL 4/7/2014 9:52PM

    That really was a genius comment! I'm going to remember that the next time I'm tempted to emo eat!

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SUPERSYLPH 4/7/2014 7:58PM

    What a wake-up call!

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FRABBIT 4/7/2014 5:14PM

  Great blog. Thanks for sharing!

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LOVINGKATE 4/7/2014 5:02PM

  Very awesome blog Beth. Thanks so much for sharing it. Great question to ask myselfand I will, often.

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MAGGIEVAN 4/7/2014 3:56PM

    Thanks for sharing. It meant a lot to me today. Be blessed.

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PUPPYFITZ 4/7/2014 10:45AM

  Very powerful message in such few words. Thanks for grabbing it and passing it forward to us!

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JLSKIDS10 4/7/2014 9:54AM

    thank you, Indygirl, for that wonderful statement "what would getting fat again do for me?" Although i haven't gotten to my goal weight yet, i am more active than I was 1 year ago. it is still difficult for me to be as active as I want to. However, I push myself past my comfort zone as often as i can, because i need to know that I can be active and healthy, regardless of the # on the scale.

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AZ_CAT_PERSON 4/7/2014 1:55AM

    A very powerful blog. I am going to have to remember that phrase. I have been having so much trouble doing all of this and your blog just gave me enough inspiration that I am going to try.

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IMAVISION 4/7/2014 12:34AM

    I wish you continued success in all areas of life!

You are such an inspiration to so many of us!

God bless!

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LINDSAYB2013 4/6/2014 11:37PM

    You are always an inspiration!

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    emoticon GREAT Blog!
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    Loved the blog!

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  thanks for sharing great blog

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    WooHoo yes we can do this together. Thank You for being YOU my emoticon

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MOMMAKNOWSBEST 4/6/2014 5:27PM

  Wow, such power in 6 little words!

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KRISTY927 4/6/2014 5:12PM

    great blog... I never looked at it that way.. thanks for sharing :)

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    thanks for sharing that

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    emoticon What a great inspiration you are to all of us! You have overcome your demons and now you are stronger then ever inside and out! We all have choices in this life, weather we choose to stay a victim or we will be a survivor! You chose to be a survivor! God bless you! Keep going strong! You are a powerful person! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ANGELN325 4/6/2014 11:04AM

    What a powerful question to ask when we are battling the demons that keep us in our prisons of sluggish bodies from carrying around extra weight. I will definitely ask myself that next time I'm tempted to just throw caution to the wind and go on a binge. I definitely want the scale to go down this year, but more importantly, I want to do things that take care of my body so my body takes care of me. Sometimes I need the reminder though and your blog gave me that today.

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GINA180847 4/6/2014 10:46AM

    Good luck with it all Beth, you have turned your life totally around and shown us all how to. Thank you so much!

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MEBAZI 4/6/2014 10:04AM

    Thanks for sharing! It is amazing how one question, one quote, one thought, one image and change your way of thinking completely, if you let it! Love it! I'm adding this question to my list of inspirations!!!

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LISA3TIME 4/6/2014 9:52AM

    thanks for the motivation.

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    Those simple truths can be the most important ones. We all need to be reminded of them. Thanks! emoticon

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  Keep pushing

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  Keep it up

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    thank you

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    THANKS FOR MAKING US REALIZE WHY WE KEEP ON "SPARKIN'!

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MARYJEANSL 4/5/2014 8:37PM

  That is a really, really helpful thought. I only wish I had thought of it myself. Thank you for putting it out on your blog!

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    I need to add a comment to this blog. I love reading this blog and see how great to stay connected with this community can help as it has help me also. what Patricia has gone through is something many people go through in their life. It seems almost a miracle and yet it is simple in a way .It takes a lot of strength to take yourself seriously , really love and care for yourself and just do what we are able to do here with so many tools . All we have to do is , we have to WANT TO.THAT'S ALL emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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  We all need motivation, sometimes.

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BABAOF4 4/5/2014 3:55PM

  Thank you. Need to practice " mindful eating" and only eating is something I have to learn. Also I need to learn how to plan meals in advance. God bless you and your husband.

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NOKOMIS57 4/5/2014 2:14PM

    thank you once again!

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SWEETLILBLUEYES 4/5/2014 2:10PM

    You always lift me up and give me hope. I have been very discouraged lately, and feeling like, how can it help, why does it matter, why is it always so hard? So thank you once again Beth, for helping me realize that I am worth the effort!

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    thanks for sharing

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DAISYPETAL 4/5/2014 10:50AM

    Beth, I wrote that statement to you and it seemed to help a lot of people. I think it even put it into perspective for myself. I am having a terrible time controlling what I put in my mouth. I can talk a good game but when it comes to myself, I let it slide. I am following my tracker and doing at least 6000 steps a day and mostly more. I drink all my water, I sleep the right amount BUT the food is different. I just cannot seem to get my crap together. I hate planning. I even tried not eating after supper but our lifestyle does not allow us to eat our regular dinner until after 7 or 7:30. It is VERY difficult. I am very thankful that I have not gained but I WANT to lose. Darn! Anyway, as I said, eating the wrong food, DOES NOTHING TO SOLVE CHUCK'S HEALTH. You are going to be the one to carry the ball and help him through this difficult time of healing. God is on your side girlfriend. Hugs and get that Dr. called and chew him out! :) Jude

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CRAZYGARDNER1 4/5/2014 10:10AM

  Just happened upon your comment and viewed your page. Your story is very inspiring. I plan to pass it on to a patient on mine who was so discouraged this week. She is a little older but needs new knees but she is not a candidate for surgery due to her weight. She has been turned down for weight loss surgery due to other health problems. We talked about spark people and other options that might be available to her. I hope your story gives her hope and inspires her as it did me. Thank you for sharing

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ALICIA363 4/5/2014 9:58AM

    Fantastic Question! I think I'm going to go and post it on my refrigerator now.
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I'm Still Here- Life Has Been Hectic

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

My husband just underwent surgery to remove precancerous cells from his colon. They think they got them all. The cells are now being biopsied and we need prayers that they are not indeed cancer.

Finances have been less than stellar. Ive been struggling with one of my bff's, trying to start an at home business to help with finances, and this emotional eating is on the rise... So I picked up a bunch of fruits and veggies lately to just have around the house to snack on. I can't seem to get a grip on eating, so I have to get a grip on WHAT I eat and what I do. There are many many approaches to weight loss and when one stops working for you, don;t throw in the towel, switch it up! Move more and eat better food if you can't seem to get a grip on your quantity at the moment. Fruits and veggies and lea proteins will help you lose weight with some moderate activity. Restricting yourself under stress, I personally have found, leads to totally nutty behavior. But hanging onto a healthy lifestyle and prayer gives me a sense of peace and control that wouldn't otherwise be there.

So, for those of you who have wondered where I am... I am struggling with life and am in need of prayers for my husband to not have cancer, for the finances to pay the medical bills, and for the emotional upheaval to settle down a bit. Thank you for always being here for me!

Beth

  
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NEED2LOSEN2010 4/11/2014 11:59PM

    Prayers coming your way.

God Bless you

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YICHE12 4/9/2014 4:28AM

    Oh, I hear you on this blog! My husband went through an operation also and it took a toll on my eating habits and exercises. Now that he is on the mend, things are somewhat back to normal.

Keep up the spirit my dear! Hugs. Lise

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BRADMILL2922 4/8/2014 2:06AM

    Hang in there Beth. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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KAYTIE22 4/6/2014 12:15AM

    My thoughts and prayers for you and your husband. Hoping that you will receive good results very soon.

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WENDYANNE61 4/5/2014 7:52AM

    Dear Beth, I am sorry that life is dark and difficult just now for you! After struggling with creeping weight gain after Christmas, I started to drink green smoothies about three weeks ago. Once my stomach had got used to so many vitamins and minerals, I have now observed that my cravings for cake and cookies has subsided and I feel more alert and have less aches and pains ... Maybe you could try them too .... I do not have an expensive blender, but they still work for me!

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JMARIES51 4/4/2014 11:40AM

    Prayers are coming your way.

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    Praying for you and your husband for emotional, health, finances and happiness. I will continue to pray and keep positive thoughts for you both. emoticon

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    Keeping you and your hubby in my thoughts.



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    You have my thoughts and prayers! emoticon

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    BETH, you are on my prayers. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    prayers for you and your DH

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DONNELDA22 4/2/2014 11:00AM

    So sorry you are going through a bad patch right now. Try to stay positive. Things will turn around if you don't give up hope. Our prayers go with you.

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DOTSLADY 4/2/2014 10:35AM

    You give good advice during your trials Beth. Unfortunately or fortunately, there is growth through challenges. I hope you have extra support during this time. Prayers and healing are being sent your way, Lovely.
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    Sending prayers your way!

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MARYJEANSL 4/1/2014 10:59PM

  I am in a similar situation - praying for both of our situations to improve!

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MNNICE 4/1/2014 10:50PM

    My prayers for both of you. Hang in there!

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ROCKYCPA 4/1/2014 10:14PM

    Prayers are going out for you that everything will go well financially as well as medically.

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JAMER123 4/1/2014 9:59PM

    Beth, it is good to hear from you. You have been missed but it is very understandable. Prayers are coming your way from many. Prayers for healing and for stability in life. Blessings to you and your DH! Hang in there with the eating. You have done wonders and maybe your body is feeling that starvation mode it can go into. Don't let it in. I did once and got to where I am. I now know what a fight it is to tell it to get out of my life.
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JUDITHANNIE 4/1/2014 9:55PM

    For sure Beth prayers coming your way. So glad you are back, you were missed. Keep me posted on Chuck's results. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 4/1/2014 8:43PM

  Oh Beth, I am so sorry you and your husband are going thru this. Prayers going up for sure. You (and he) are fighters. Sending all good vibes your way.

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BIBS4664 4/1/2014 8:08PM

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DLYNN1113 4/1/2014 7:17PM

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LUCYCAN7 4/1/2014 6:58PM

  Remember Beth We can do"ALL"things thru Christ whom gives us strength!
You both are in my thoughts and prayers Beth.May God be with you both.

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LOLAJO54 4/1/2014 6:55PM

    Thank you for the great advise -- I am out tomorrow to get more fruits and veggies instead of crackers or nuts to chew on..

Many prayers for your husband and for you.. thinking of you both...

thank you for inspiring us all and for great advice

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LOLA_LALA 4/1/2014 5:53PM

    All the best to you and your husband during such a stressful time. I hope the biopsies will prove to be negative and that removal of the cells alone will prevent any cancer from developing. I hope, too that your finances will improve soon... Sending you good, positive thoughts and lots of emoticon

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DELLMEL 4/1/2014 5:28PM

  As long as you have FAITH and BELIEVE that's all that matter. We have to keep those two things in time like this. Because he say if we ask in his name it will be given.

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EDWARDS1411 4/1/2014 4:43PM

    Life's curve balls can take a toll, but better times are ahead! Wishing you DH a quick recovery!!!
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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 4/1/2014 12:47PM

    Beth I understand how stress adds such a big block to eating healthy and being healthy. Hung on girl. You are always such an inspiration and full of support. Hugs and prayers that you will get good news from the doctors and that you will find help with the medical bills. They are always just out of site, Pat emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PATTISTAMPS 4/1/2014 12:46PM

    Absolutely keeping you in my prayers. I know the struggle, and it is always hard. You are finding good ways to deal with it. We stress eaters have to arm ourselves, because it is our way of coping with stress. My Mom had colon cancer, and fortunately it was caught early - surgery, no chemo. But means I have to watch carefully. We are lucky to live in an age when there are tests and remedies for so many things.

Hang in there! You can get through this!!!

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LADYBUG1943 4/1/2014 12:29PM

    What great advice! Thanks for thinking of the "bigger picture" when you're struggling with such major health and financial worries yourself. These are two huge areas of life! Sounds like your relationships are good, though. One out of three ain't bad.

Just said a quick prayer for you....

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Keeping you and your DH close to my heart and all my love and thoughts are with you. Be well and soldier on, Beth.


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IRISHGAL46 4/1/2014 11:34AM

    Good luck

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PROVERBS31JULIA 4/1/2014 11:30AM

    Always remember that you are enjoying God's blessings when you eat of His nutritious bounty in fruits and veggies - it's a win-win change!!

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ELISABETH1982 4/1/2014 11:10AM

  That is a lot to be dealing with at one time. Keep your faith in God, He will bring you and your husband through this. Both of you are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon emoticon

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DIASTER 4/1/2014 10:55AM

  You know you are surrounded by love and prayers. You have been there for us and we are all here for you at this trying time. You are in God,s hands and our prayers. Peace.

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    emoticon Prayers to my Lord for:

Protection of health with biopsy results to be negative for cancer.
Provision for all financial needs and freedom from worry.
Providence for strength for your faithful children to endure all circumstances.

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