The only thing I ever post....is that I am starting over AGAIN. The last two years have been rough, at one point i was up to 296 (please don't tell my family) but right now I'm 259. I can see a difference in how i look but right now I'm in the m... Read more
I turn to Spark in Times of Loss and confusion
Now to convince myself to turn here everyday. It is hard to go through life changes alone, espeically when someof us have not chosen "aloneness" so much as chosing "un-abusedness". If you've never been in that situation you won't understand what... Read more
9 monhts ago
nine months ago I lost my daughter and I've kind of lost em too, along the way. Both the youngest and i are still mourning, jsut not ever second of every day now. So muc we could have said, or done. Oddly, I know that if she were here right now,... Read more
Getting to a better place?
Well, i made this a post and realized its more of a blog. I lost my 27 year old daughter this past month, and haven't been "right" since. sorry, but that is how i feel. i don't even know that i'm back yet....but this last six months has been awf... Read more
4 a.m. and I cannot sleep
So I decide to take the dog for a walk, because all I've been able to think about since midnight is Ben and Jerry's and thank goodness the kid is spending the night at friends', or she and I would be on our way to the grocery.... But...I digress... Read more
So why do i sit here.......
So why do i sit here
eating these crackers
when I know the calories
make me go quakers
I know that the wheat
makes me feel fatter
makes tummy puffy
and never grow flatter.
I eat and I snack,
I chomp and I chew
and all the goo... Read more
Finally decided to invest. Works like a dream if you follow the directions. I will give it some time to see if the liquified fruits and veggies works for me -- i love veggies but hate fruits and this is an effort to balance my diet a little.
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So far, so good
So even though I ate junk, I stayed below my calorie and carb limit. Trying hard to think of stuff like frozen greek yogurt as alternatives to hardcore junk foods. So far, so good. I could have eaten the whole container, instead of soemthere bet... Read more
2013 has been very stressful. I don't think i know anyone that hasn't had a death either in their family or close circule of friends in 2013. Tomorrow is the service for my dear friend and religous advisor, my "cousin from a different oven". He ... Read more
Temporarily, my Coffee plan is derailed
I spent this week detoxing from coffee. I felt like I was coming off heroin (and I have a child that was addicted to heroin, so we know what it is like). Did real well. I think I finally shook it.
THEN I GOT SICK. Like S*I*C*K. You guessed... Read more
So it's all on my butt again.......
Finally forced myself to get back on the scale and yesssss indeed I am back at 280. I'm actually surprised it is not more, but still. The combination of the holidays and a very traumatic death in the family just about did me in.
Methinks i... Read more
Man made disease: Diabesity
In my work, I had a client request that I do a study on "diabesity" for them. I'd never heard of it. Much to my surprise, many parts of the world are calling the combination of diabetes and obesity "diabesity". It's not a very complementary dise... Read more
Not at my house, it doesn't.
Scary. Today I made a great casserole (very tasty) that served 4. Carefully I split it up and put half in the fridge for lunch tomorrow. Angel and I had our serving.
We worried about food all evening.
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An on-and-off pattern
Clearly there's an on-and-off pattern in my behavior! It seems that Spark People is the first thing to go when I'm under stress, even though I'm literally desk-tied. You'd think that with being forced to be on the computer all day, Spark People ... Read more
The Unofficial I WILL NOT QUIT PLEDGE, passing the spark!
Wednesday, September 12, 2012 - Fitting pledge for today!
"Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today, and... Read more