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Again

Friday, April 11, 2014      1 comments

I'm really tired of cycling back again, but I am going to keep writing about it and keep trying. I had another three weeks of abstention from sugar and I am on day three of another lapse. I wasn't losing any weight despite sticking to the plan. ... Read more

Day Two: Take 18231

Thursday, March 20, 2014      1 comments

So I made it nearly a month without sugar or grains, but then I caved on Saturday and had a four day relapse of bad eating. Unfortunately that short relapse cost me a six pound weight gain. I am on day two back on track. I am eating a ketog... Read more

Day One: Feeling TERRIBLE

Sunday, February 16, 2014      4 comments

I am feeling really terrible emotionally. I am on day one without sugar. I am facebook accountable (since apparently trying to stay accountable on here doesn't seem to work well). I declared that I was on day one without sugar. Hopefully the pub... Read more

Congestion of the Mind

Friday, January 31, 2014      2 comments

So yesterday didn't go exactly as planned, but I'm not going to be too hard on myself. I did binge in the evening and I only stayed on the treadmill for about fifteen minutes. I woke up feeling a little better this morning, but then I suddenly g... Read more

Enough

Thursday, January 30, 2014      3 comments

I think I've finally had enough. I have gained 30 pounds since September. Most of my work pants have been folding over because of my round midsection. I have not been to the gym since early December. I posted something on Facebook about nee... Read more

Stuck in a Rut

Tuesday, December 10, 2013      1 comments

I have been off track for a week and a half. I bought groceries to eat well, and yet, I continue to eat other terrible snacks on top of the healthy stuff. The scale shows a steady increase in weight. I am going to the gym today. I went on S... Read more

Yam Fries

Sunday, December 01, 2013      2 comments

Maybe it's a curse for me to post in this blog because I ran in to a couple of problems, and have cheated on the juice fast. First, my mom decided to stop her fast. I knew she wasn't in it for the long haul, so I don't know why I let that affect... Read more

Day Three of Juice Fast

Sunday, December 01, 2013      2 comments

So I continued eating like a maniac for days on days. I have finally surrendered and began a juice fast with my mom. My long arching goal is to eventually complete sixty days, in line with Joe Cross' Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead; but I am doing th... Read more

Crazy

Tuesday, November 19, 2013      5 comments

I can't even look my parents in the eye. I am so ashamed about my eating and about their "jokes" about hiding food from me. That is what Tony said. He said it was just a joke, but he gently tried to say that I have a thing for provolone and he d... Read more

Prioritizing

Sunday, November 17, 2013      4 comments

So I have been continuing to struggle with food, but I think that these struggles are giving way to some breakthroughs. Every day, I am going to try to pray for the willingness to eat for nourishment and health, and not for gluttony and self har... Read more

Sick and Tired

Friday, November 15, 2013      3 comments

I'm sick and tired of writing the same depressing entries, but I'm still stuck in a run and keep eating trigger foods and bingeing. I am really in need of some success again to put some wind in my sails. I guess I need to just incorporate small ... Read more

Day One: Back on Track

Tuesday, November 12, 2013      1 comments

I am declaring it day one, but I am still struggling. I came clean to my sponsor in NA about binge eating and throwing up my food. Although we both agreed I need to find therapy for these issues in particular, I tried yesterday to find a therapi... Read more

Soul Hunger

Thursday, November 07, 2013      3 comments

I went to my first OA meeting last night. I binged before and after on sweets in embarrassing quantity. I wrote in my last entry about the struggle I was experiencing. Well, I was obsessing yesterday about an eclair I saw in the teacher's lounge... Read more

Help.

Wednesday, November 06, 2013      1 comments

My excitement from the entry on Friday has dissipated. I have not trained since. I had another "candy" relapse/binge last night. I am really obsessing about food today. At first, I just wanted to make up for eating so much by fasting, but in act... Read more

encouraged

Friday, November 01, 2013      2 comments

Grrr. Blogging from my phone just led to a lengthy blog disappearing on me. I am feeling renewed with hope. My friend got me to the gym at 4:30 a.m. this morning and we're planning a juice fast after thanksgiving. I had a good workout to s... Read more


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