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A friend may come and stay with me

Wednesday, March 04, 2015      2 comments

So while Kelley is gone "figuring out what she wants" I may have a friend come from home and stay with me. I was not ever what you would consider independent so I am learning but with 4 kids even thought 3 are adults I could use the company....S... Read more

She's leaving.....

Tuesday, March 03, 2015      4 comments

Kelley is going to Oklahoma. She is going to see her mother and some other family members, find a house and a job then come back and let me know what she wants....She can't figure it out here she needs time on her own....I get it but I don't hav... Read more

would you please make up your mind?

Monday, March 02, 2015      3 comments

It was bad enough when she told me she wasn't in love with me anymore. Now she tells me she doesn't think she can be without me.....WHAT does that even mean?? She didn't suddenly say baby I was wrong I am in love with you, she just said she does... Read more

can't miss me until she's gone

Sunday, March 01, 2015      4 comments

She don't know if she will miss me cause it is hard to know if your going to miss someone who is still here....After she leaves if she decides she is actually still in love with me she will come back for me.... I would have followed her to the e... Read more

How long before I don't have to fake it

Saturday, February 28, 2015      5 comments

Yes I am faking it! I get up and pretend everything is ok....The kids don't need to see that I my heart is broken, Kelley does not need my hurt thrown in her face. It is what it is but how long before I can get up everything is ok?? How long bef... Read more

Well it is a start anyway

Friday, February 27, 2015      4 comments

my oldest daughter thinks that we can keep the house just her and I. I myself think we need a room mate so I have talked to a couple people and they will get back to me. I am thinking of ways to cut bills. This is what I have figured out so far ... Read more

have no idea where to go from here

Thursday, February 26, 2015      6 comments

I feel like with what is happening between her and I my life is going down the toilet and I can't figure out what to do or where I go from here. If one more person says I should go live with my dad and his wife I am going to snap, I swear. Why w... Read more

I trying to figure out how to...

Wednesday, February 25, 2015      5 comments

how to what? Move on? Pick up the pieces? What do you do when your partner for 17 years tells you out of the blue she will always love you but she is not in love with you anymore? How do you move on from there? If falling out of love is so easy ... Read more

I am on spark today because

Tuesday, February 24, 2015      6 comments

I am having a rough day and thought instead of just going back to bed and crying self to sleep I would get up and walk on my treadmill (not counting for exercise cause I got 3 and half hours of back to back classes tonight) and am doing spark! Y... Read more

going to the gym

Monday, February 23, 2015      2 comments

getting ready to go for my classes at the gym and thought I would do a little spark.... Read more

moving on

Sunday, February 22, 2015      4 comments

need to move on from negative things and people in my life... Easier said then done but I am going to get there, I am going to do this cause it's better for me. I need to stop putting other people and things before what is good for me. Hope ever... Read more

Not a really good day but....

Saturday, February 21, 2015      4 comments

The weather is crappy and I am not having the best of days but I am enduring and I know that somehow I am going to be ok, even if it doesn't seem like it right now. Wish my mom was only a phone call away...Really miss her....Hope everyone is hav... Read more

went to dinner

Friday, February 20, 2015      3 comments

I took my oldest foster daughter out to dinner at the Chinese restaurant while hubby and boys went to Golden Corral. We all had a nice time. It is odd that out of all the kids by both birth and adoption only 2 like Chinese food and 1 more can ea... Read more

finally back to the Y

Thursday, February 19, 2015      4 comments

Yes the Y had classes, I was happy, was conncerned cause got a text from them this morning but it was just telling us it was closing at 8. Well at least they didn't close for 6 again....I know there were some really unhappy people in the pool, t... Read more

closed again

Wednesday, February 18, 2015      5 comments

Yes the Y is closed again today and I am not hopeful for tomorrow.... Just going to walk, use my treadmill, maybe some wii fit plus and my step up so when I do get to go back to the Y Alpha steppin doesn't kill me.... Read more

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