So I have been having a rough emotional patch, to say the least. The details will not be revealed, suffice it to say this is the type of crap I used to overeat over and drink over as well. Since I do not actively partake in those addictions anym... Read more
Good News from Doctor !
Well, I usually hate going to the doctor but yesterday was awesome. I did labs on Sunday and got results back on Tuesday and saw Dr. on Wednesday, so its been busy.
I have had severe kidney disease for over a year, I get a GFR test (blood test... Read more
First Athletic Challenge EVER!
This is kind of huge for me, I earned a sweet little steel blue tee shirt for participating in a group challenge at my gym. I have never, ever in my life participated in ANY athletic competition or challenge and that is why this is such a big de... Read more
WOW So happy I lost more weight!
I was going to write about my zen hot tub experience, or my spiritual/fitness retreat over the weekend at Tahoe, or about how I am loving swimming 2 hours a day, but instead I want to write about losing 7 more pounds yesterday at the doctor!
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Hungry: But its NOT Dinner Time
Okay ..... lets get real, I have been having food thoughts this afternoon, lots of them, my mind is trying to make me go eat something that is NOT time to eat. I've been thinking, ok I could have a few of those new walnuts I bought today. Or I c... Read more
Well I never thought I would make it to day 100 ! I am feeling very happy about 100 days of lovely abstinence and sticking to my food plan and exercise program 100%.
I do not think I have ever gone 100 days before without cheating. I always lo... Read more
I've been reading recently about the power of incorporating meditation into exercise. I thought, hmmmm, interesting, but how does one do that?
So since I have been wondering about this quite a bit lately I decided to do something different ... Read more
Weeding my Garden of Feelings
Isn't it something how things can change in a few hours? Yesterday I felt wonderful, and I had a rough day today...... not foodwise, thank goodness, but emotionally, oh those peelings........ oh oh oh peelings.....
that's how I used to sing th... Read more
92 Days of Clean Abstinence
It's like a little miracle, this abstinence, this is so sweet and I am so very grateful.
Tonight I picked up a 90 day chip at my meeting, it was great, I almost cried. I've had
other 90 day chips, but its been YEARS! And never as sweet as... Read more
I know I have alot of triggers that can do alot of damage. So everyday is kind of a challenge, except when I am sooooo in the zone that nothing can penetrate it, which is not the case right now. I love the zone, I love that feeling that nothing ... Read more
I Don't Do Sick Well
Oh brother, okay have to figure this out now, I thought I was ok, but went for labs just in case and I still have either a bladder, kidney or uti still. This is after 7 days of the heavy duty cipro I took last week.
What is going to have to h... Read more
Not the End of the World
So apparently kidney infections may cause problems on the gfr results (best test to find out if kidney is up to snuff).
In a month I can find out if it was an anomaly or if my kidneys are shot or not. So that is some bit of possible good new... Read more
And I was feeling pretty darn good..... my kidney labs are somewhat worse.
I wrote to the nephrologist and he says the numbers are consistent with my chronic kidney disease. I have written to the renal dietician and told her everything I ea... Read more
Lost 3 More Pounds, Down 18 Now
Whew! That was a relief! I went to the clinic today after my 2 hours swim and jumped on that scale with a little fear, but did it anyway. I was so glad to see I have lost another 3 pounds in the last month. Yay! Do a little happy dance of JOY! ... Read more
That Bloody Scale
Well I am going to have to get on the scale again and I am afraid I will not have lost at least a few pounds........ I feel smaller, I look like I have lost weight, I got into a smaller bathing suit, but my brain is telling me I have not lost en... Read more