I Don't Know, Bad Day or Good?
Not sure if today was bad or good, well why should there be only those two categories? I'd say today went along slowly, and there were a few stumbles. Like when I zoned out at work, thinking too hard about my weight and how bad I feel about myse... Read more
Stupid Me, Stupid People But Oh Yeah Did I Say Stupid Me?
Stupid. Stupid stupid. I feel... dumbfounded. And hurt. And depressed.
I was with a few "friends" and I overheard them talking about me. This is what they said: "Have you seen Jenny? She looks like she's a 50 year old woman, look at her! W... Read more
Coming Off a Binge
I think I'm always going to have thoughts that bother me, that interact with my food choices. Maybe not for every meal, but there's always going to be me talking myself out of overeating. It's much better than it was before, MUCH MUCH Better. M... Read more
I Hope to Feel Better After This
I am writing this with the hope I will feel better when I finish. I feel so low right now.
I'm feeling low because i hate my weight. I don't know what happened but my meal plan i made went out the window. I think I'm going to go back on it bec... Read more
I Still Struggle Sometimes...
But now I have stronger willpower. I read somewhere willpower is not enough to lose weight because it doesn't last. Eventually, you give in. It's still something for me to sit here and decide that no, i will not be going overboard with the jun... Read more
I'm thinking a lot today.
I'm thinking of my goal date in May. And if I'm 50 lbs thinner by then. Thinking of how nice it will be to go get my passport photo taken 50 lbs thinner. I'm sure a lot of people can relate!
I'm looking through... Read more
I've Done It Before
In the past, I can think of a few major moments in my life where I've decided to stop doing something and I've Done It. Losing weight can't be too different from that can it? I " stop" the excuses and do what i need to do.
Losing weight has ... Read more
Date Is Set
This is ridiculous. How long am I going to keep doing this dance? I keep trying to lose weight and give a half hearted attempt. Although my intentions are good, i WANT to lose the weight, i simply don't follow through. And it's been like this fo... Read more
I suspect I've gained weight. I have been eating badly this past week and I'm STILL sick so not been going to the gym. BUT I made a meal plan over the weekend and am proud to say I've started it today! Breakfast was scrambled eggs, and my snack ... Read more
Sunday Night Blog
I made a meal plan. I'm starting it tomorrow: eating 5 times a day. For some of the meals I put "prepared chicken" from the grocery store;I don't think I'll be able to cook 3 times a day. (And ditto Lean Cuisine meals.)
My mom said somethin... Read more
Wanting to Play Tennis Again
I was looking for something in my closet today and I found something that made me feel a bit nostalgic. Seeing it and holding it in my hand evoked feelings I needed to be reminded of- of a time I'd forgotten. A time where I felt happy because I ... Read more
Infuriating Person I Unfortunately Know
Ok. So I'm coming home after work, so I don't look my best. In fact I was already feeling sad and embarassed about something that happened earlier, and kind of stupid for opening my big mouth when it wasn't necessary!
So I see one of my mom... Read more
Ramblings of a Lactose-Intolerant Woman + Winter Preparations
Boy does it feel good to get outside! First day I'm feeling semi-normal since getting sick! I went to the grocery store. I didn't get much, but I got enough for the next few days. Unfortunately, I don't have time to cook a meal, so I'm making a ... Read more
Long Shower = Thoughtful Jenny
Today, I was thinking about the past few months' events and felt very bad towards myself. I have been going along, but not as quickly as I once thought it would be, or hoped. I have been enjoying food too much as well, and not thinking things th... Read more
I Figured It Out
I now know and understand why I need to lose weight. I will never be happy being plus sized.
A worker came to my house today. He was gorgeous. I, of course, was unable to talk to him, except for the standard questions. "Can you fix that too... Read more