RASPBERRY56
200,000-249,999 SparkPoints 219,077
SparkPoints
 

RASPBERRY56's Blogs

Fair to middlin', I guess......
Sunday, October 15, 2017      5 comments

Some slight revisions to original plans, but most of yesterday went well.........am continuing with most of today's plans despite my misgivings about one of the events (don't ask)....... "It is what it is" - I don't really care for this phr... Read more
Sigh......
Saturday, October 14, 2017      3 comments

No spirit for this.........have decided I won't push things any further, and just "go through the motions" (with the exception of one discreet plan I have in place) - it appears that it's not my destiny to have a happy or high-quality life......... Read more
Two weeks have passed.......
Friday, October 13, 2017      7 comments

......since this latest life crisis began, and I'm STILL "not feelin' the love" around me - this, of course, is nothing new, but it's STILL tiring to have to deal with...........this time is somewhat different, though, as I am doing better about... Read more
Sigh.......
Wednesday, October 11, 2017      5 comments

Did get some positive news yesterday (indirectly, but that's fine)........however, it's still NOT ideal.........because of that, I am still open to and weighing options........ I don't like to use the phrase "new normal", but perhaps that's... Read more
The struggle is real, and continues........
Tuesday, October 10, 2017      5 comments

Am continuing on my action plan with the personal issue (intensity will vary depending on the day's circumstances) - have been trying to get my head and heart "right" to restart, but have been struggling........all I want at this point is to get... Read more
I think today is the day......
Monday, October 09, 2017      6 comments

.......where my worst fears may be confirmed (not absolutely sure of the exact date, though)....... $#!@#! - how the $#!@# am I gonna successfully restart this Spark journey when literally EVERY TIME I try - life smacks me around so much th... Read more
Still devoid of feelings........
Sunday, October 08, 2017      2 comments

Am taking this weekend to chill and do as little as possible.........won't make a huge difference in my overall mood, but I feel it necessary nevertheless...... ... Read more
Still trying, but still struggling.........
Saturday, October 07, 2017      6 comments

It's reached a point that if I can't have perfect outside circumstances,my *inside* ones don't stand a snowball's chance in h**l of improving......... $#!#@!#%^ ... Read more
I should be glad......
Friday, October 06, 2017      8 comments

.....that I was able to function normally with no real issues this week, but the cold, hard fact of the matter is that I simply CANNOT get past what has befallen me, no matter how hard I try.........and I'm STILL concerned for the future despite... Read more
Trying to do the needful........
Thursday, October 05, 2017      10 comments

Wish I didn't HAVE to, but with the circumstances being what they are (and my continued low mood as a result), there's no choice - I MUST do this for ME.........and if there's collateral damage/"unintended consequences" that befall others, well,... Read more
Working on coping with a *very unpleasant* "new normal"........
Wednesday, October 04, 2017      7 comments

emoticon... Read more
Can't get through this situation as a "softie".........
Tuesday, October 03, 2017      6 comments

Need to harden myself in order to deal - and deal, I will........on my OWN terms....... emoticon... Read more
When are things going to get BETTER?
Monday, October 02, 2017      4 comments

emoticon... Read more
Still anxious.......
Thursday, September 28, 2017      7 comments

Found out info that I wish I didn't learn :( - is NOT helping my stress levels as I'm now dealing with conflicting info........trying desperately to make sense of things........sometimes life simply s**ks :( ... Read more
Sigh........
Wednesday, September 27, 2017      7 comments

In a low and anxious place right now........ emoticon... Read more

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 Last Page »