Days 22 and 23
Going to my therapist may be the best decision I've ever made. I'm not out of the woods, by any means, but I really like my therapist and I feel like I'm going to get good help.
I don't have the energy to type much at the moment, but I did... Read more
Today: work, therapy, workout.
So glad I get in to see the therapist today.
Public Service Announcement: I had a few people yesterday respond to my mention of depression by alluding to life being a roller coaster ride. ... Read more
Days 18, 19, 20
The weekend was a little hairy... I was emotionally pretty distraught and so working out was difficult (shoot, even just getting out of bed was difficult), but I did okay. I'm only missing two workouts at this point, and I'm catching up on that... Read more
Days 16 and 17
I bagged out of yesterday's workout because I simply couldn't find the mental energy to do it. Depression is like that... it can rob you of all of your will to do the things you normally enjoy. I decided rather than force myself to do it to in... Read more
My old scale was not functioning properly, so I bought a new one. It's fancy, and tells me my weight, body fat %, muscle mass %, water weight %, and bone density. It also connects to my phone via Bluetooth, so I have an easy way to track my st... Read more
So I bolted upright in bed around 1:30 am, and I was not able to get to sleep afterward. Pretty common for depression.
Tried staying in bed, meditating, reading, etc. - and around 5am, I figured it was pointless and got up. I worked out. ... Read more
Days 11 & 12, and 13
Did yoga, as scheduled, on Saturday.
Bagged leg day yesterday, but it was only because I was busy doing other things. I got up early and did yardwork, and for some reason I felt motivated to go on a cleaning jag and so I began moving my be... Read more
hey, here's a good link to describe what I am going through.
This is literally everything that is happening to me right now. It sums up pretty darn perfectly what depression is. I hope you read it - not to understand me, but to understand what everyone who suffers with depression goes through.
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Days 9 and 10
Yesterday, I found my brain so full of angst and static that - against my better judgment - I went outside and ran. I figured I could do a half hour of running and then do P90X plyo, but only half (each exercise once). I ran well, even in spit... Read more
Still on the exercise wagon.
Still hanging in there.... Read more
Days 6 and 7
I had to bag my workout yesterday - first day of my period is always rough. No matter - I brought my workout clothes to work today. My boss leaves at about 1:30pm, and so I will have the office to myself for the remainder of the afternoon.
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Days 4 and 5
Sticking with my workouts is proving to be very grounding. I was shocked at how good yoga felt yesterday. Usually I fuss and complain about it because it makes me feel creaky and old, but - maybe because I have so little energy to put any kind... Read more
Got up. Worked out. Pushing through. I have decided that working out and practicing music are going to be my constants and my daily "me time."
I thought I was getting better... but I backslid last night and I feel pretty bad... Read more
Upon waking up today, I nearly bailed. Didn't, though, because when I go home tonight, all I want to do is practice, read for a bit, and maybe put away laundry. That's it.
I got MOST of the way through plyo today, but stopped because my h... Read more
I got up early and exercised this morning... so there's something to be a little happy about. I hope that with regularity, it will help improve my mood. It wasn't the prettiest workout ever, but that's not the point. The point is to move and ... Read more