Soo... the first two days of the diet overhaul went well in the sense that I stuck to my plan well. My significant other has been very encouraging. In fact, when I was sort of "slipping" a bit last night (mentally, I mean) he handed me an apple ... Read more
I will have to write more on my experiences when I have more time and if people are interested, here's the skinny (don't I wish! har har).
I met with a physician, a behaviorist, and a dietitian Tuesday evening as part of my enrollment in t... Read more
And another new record... but not a good one! Ugh.
I missed my weigh-in yesterday, so I did it this morning: 344.0
Umm... well, that sucks. I was supposed to be losing weight and here I am gaining it. Now 344 is my highest weight yet. Sigh. When I first started paying attention to myself it... Read more
I have a computer program running in the background (for my research) and I'm sipping black tea (not coffee! oh my!). I'm also AWAKE by 7am... it's as if I'm a whole new person today, hah!
It's been a busy rollercoaster of the past two week... Read more
Fear of hunger
Have you ever 'gone hungry'? I'm not talking for a meal -- or even a day. I'm talking about the constant, stabbing hunger that takes over your brain after, in my experience, 48 hours or without substantial food. Maybe, like me, you were a child ... Read more
"If and When were planted, and Nothing grew."
I'm a horrible procrastinator. Simply terrible. It's really quite amazing I've accomplished as much in life as I have. It's sickening to think that, if I've done as much as I have while constantly fighting against myself... well, ... Read more
Medical Weight Management Program
Today, I went to my GP for a routine mini-physical and prescription check-in. I left enrolled in a medical weight management program (dum dum dummmmmm...).
It's not a surgery program or even a medication-based program, FYI. As a PhD student... Read more
Finally, forward momentum!
Today was day two swimming at the Y. I finally renewed my membership, and to my great delight my SO decided to join with me. :) Swimming has been my favorite form of exercise for over a year now because of my ankle and back issues. It helps that... Read more
Goodbye, Fat. Hello, Muscle.
I make so many excuses to stay immobile. "My leg hurts too badly" or "I can't put any weight down". "I don't have a Y membership" or "I'm just too tired/stressed/depressed/(fill in the blank)".
It stops here. Today. Now.
I will not w... Read more
Day...? of the Reset
Haha, my, my how time flies!
I think it's been about 2 weeks since I hit reset. So, here's an update: in short, I've partially reached several goals but haven't reached any of them fully... and that's okay. I mean, ultimately, it's not but ... Read more
Day 2 of the Reset
So, I didn't meet any of my goals yesterday in full. But, you know what? I was closer to meeting them than if I hadn't tried at all. So, I'm counting it as a partial win. And as Anne Shirley said: "[Today] is a new day, fresh with no mistakes in... Read more
Back to Basics
Wow, I really can't seem to stay focused on my health lately. It's almost kind of pathetic. I make so many excuses... too many excuses. Those excuses end today. I could tell you how I'm too busy or I'm in too much pain; I could excuse myself for... Read more
Waxing philosophical late at night
I apologize in advance if I get a bit "heady" in this post. I'm laying here with a killer headache and monstrous body pain (per usual) and thinking about how to change my body and my life.
I was thinking about habits. We are all here on spa... Read more
Fallen off the wagon, and run over by it... again and again. ;)
I can't possibly condense the nearly two years I've been gone from spark into a single blog entry so I won't even try. But, I will list my biggest hurdles/stressors, and tell you all what I plan to do about them:
- Partial spinal fusion: I'... Read more