Rewriting negative self-talk
I like to think I'm not a terribly negative person as a rule. I tend to find hidden silver linings, look on the sunnier side of life, annoy others with my endless optimism.
That is, where anything not concerning myself is concerned.
I... Read more
Soo... the first two days of the diet overhaul went well in the sense that I stuck to my plan well. My significant other has been very encouraging. In fact, when I was sort of "slipping" a bit last night (mentally, I mean) he handed me an apple ... Read more
I will have to write more on my experiences when I have more time and if people are interested, here's the skinny (don't I wish! har har).
I met with a physician, a behaviorist, and a dietitian Tuesday evening as part of my enrollment in t... Read more
And another new record... but not a good one! Ugh.
I missed my weigh-in yesterday, so I did it this morning: 344.0
Umm... well, that sucks. I was supposed to be losing weight and here I am gaining it. Now 344 is my highest weight yet. Sigh. When I first started paying attention to myself it... Read more
I have a computer program running in the background (for my research) and I'm sipping black tea (not coffee! oh my!). I'm also AWAKE by 7am... it's as if I'm a whole new person today, hah!
It's been a busy rollercoaster of the past two week... Read more
Fear of hunger
Have you ever 'gone hungry'? I'm not talking for a meal -- or even a day. I'm talking about the constant, stabbing hunger that takes over your brain after, in my experience, 48 hours or without substantial food. Maybe, like me, you were a child ... Read more
"If and When were planted, and Nothing grew."
I'm a horrible procrastinator. Simply terrible. It's really quite amazing I've accomplished as much in life as I have. It's sickening to think that, if I've done as much as I have while constantly fighting against myself... well, ... Read more
Medical Weight Management Program
Today, I went to my GP for a routine mini-physical and prescription check-in. I left enrolled in a medical weight management program (dum dum dummmmmm...).
It's not a surgery program or even a medication-based program, FYI. As a PhD student... Read more
Finally, forward momentum!
Today was day two swimming at the Y. I finally renewed my membership, and to my great delight my SO decided to join with me. :) Swimming has been my favorite form of exercise for over a year now because of my ankle and back issues. It helps that... Read more
Goodbye, Fat. Hello, Muscle.
I make so many excuses to stay immobile. "My leg hurts too badly" or "I can't put any weight down". "I don't have a Y membership" or "I'm just too tired/stressed/depressed/(fill in the blank)".
It stops here. Today. Now.
I will not w... Read more
Day...? of the Reset
Haha, my, my how time flies!
I think it's been about 2 weeks since I hit reset. So, here's an update: in short, I've partially reached several goals but haven't reached any of them fully... and that's okay. I mean, ultimately, it's not but ... Read more
Day 2 of the Reset
So, I didn't meet any of my goals yesterday in full. But, you know what? I was closer to meeting them than if I hadn't tried at all. So, I'm counting it as a partial win. And as Anne Shirley said: "[Today] is a new day, fresh with no mistakes in... Read more
Back to Basics
Wow, I really can't seem to stay focused on my health lately. It's almost kind of pathetic. I make so many excuses... too many excuses. Those excuses end today. I could tell you how I'm too busy or I'm in too much pain; I could excuse myself for... Read more
Waxing philosophical late at night
I apologize in advance if I get a bit "heady" in this post. I'm laying here with a killer headache and monstrous body pain (per usual) and thinking about how to change my body and my life.
I was thinking about habits. We are all here on spa... Read more