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be happy

Friday, May 01, 2015      12 comments

trying not to let my depression demons get me...but it is really hard.though i wanted to just sit home and cry.i went out and had a good time.i know that not isolating is one of the important things in dealing with it..this will pass eventually.... Read more

pain and loss

Sunday, April 26, 2015      15 comments

PAIN AND LOSS Really struggling tonight. Bawling my eyes out. Just want someone to hold but I have no one. I've been in a toxic abusive marriage and I'm still totally in love with him. I don't know what is wrong with me, I'm living in a room .... Read more


Thursday, April 23, 2015      11 comments

i have not had a 5 dollar bill since feb,as my assistance from the state and government is pending!!!! i cant pay my rent ,get meds or buy my own toilet paper.its so degrading to me and my family says oh dont whine!!!! like geeeze,i just want to... Read more


Thursday, April 23, 2015      8 comments

The Real Me : I am feeling angry and full of rage this morning.Now that I left my abuser no one in the real world outside of these groups wants to hear my Voice now that I got me back!!!!! Not even my therapist! Everyone wants me to pretend I'm ... Read more


Wednesday, April 22, 2015      6 comments

feeling frustrated: this is really bothering me so i need advise please.I live with my landlady and she does my trash.she only has a trashcan in the kitchen very small like the bathroom kind!!!I have that much trash to fill it ever two days an... Read more

my story

Wednesday, April 22, 2015      9 comments

I've been writing again for the past couple of days and I realized something so simple today that I can't believe that I didn't realize before....every time I kept silent about what he did to me and kept his secrets for him it gave him power ove... Read more

blogging the pain

Tuesday, April 21, 2015      11 comments

BLOGGING THE PAIN: It is late in the evening now.. and I am watching "Les Miserables" because I wanted to connect myself to something beautiful, get me busy with something outside my world at the moment which feels so dark and lonely and just n... Read more

missing you

Tuesday, April 21, 2015      12 comments

I want him to know that I am the one who is done with him. I am the one who is choosing to kick him to the curb and I am the one who is choosing to move on with my life. I prayed for God to deliver me from his abuse and had hoped that God would ... Read more

not really?

Sunday, April 19, 2015      11 comments

so sick of the abuse!!!!! when will i ever learn??i was invited last week for a cookout with my grandkids and i could not wait,now this morning my daughter tells me i cant come now cuz she invited someone else that does not like me,like what the... Read more

o.k. when?

Sunday, April 19, 2015      4 comments

venting: I find when i get upset lately I get very angry and when i do i might think of over-eating like i use to do,so i vent instead!!!! what helps you?? there is only so much computer,reading and walking and tv one person can do.I hate not ha... Read more


Saturday, April 18, 2015      8 comments

OUCH..... I am so grateful to be part a recovery group. Feeling very lonely today and haven't been able to connect with any of my local support people. My disease wants me to turn to the food or anything else. Right-like excess good is my frien... Read more

one day soon

Friday, April 17, 2015      10 comments

time.... memories to replace the ones that are in the front of vision. most of all, I dont think of it as a hole or something to fill. I think of it as a spot/scuff/sticker/mask/dirt or smudge that is on my heart. like a stain. I need to work at... Read more


Saturday, April 11, 2015      9 comments

TRIGGER WARNING:THIS TOO SHALL PASS BLOG UPDATE: ......I just wanted maybe some advice or uplifting support..I am bipolar/depressive with PTSD. I take a lot of meds. Three months ago I left my abusive husband.I am permanently disabled and am wa... Read more

change this

Thursday, April 09, 2015      13 comments

I feel like I will never be happy. I can never get my ex off my mind no matter what I do I have done what he always on my mind. I always worry about how I could have been good with him for 4 years if I didn't fight every two weeks what about me?... Read more


Wednesday, April 08, 2015      10 comments

I know a few people who are in some sort of an abusive relationship. Recently a woman died at her ex-husbands hands. She was dropping off their pet and all the public knows is that she was beaten to death and he's in jail. My point is, Don't min... Read more

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