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  Week of 4/7/2011 - Featured Blog Post

Being on the Other Side

I'm able to do more now than before. I didn't try Zumba out at the beginning of my journey. I was too scared. Too intimidated by all the skinny girls at the gym. Now, I've noticed I'm more confident when I'm doing all the moves. I push myself now better than before. My willpower to stay away from the "bad" food is still strong as ever. I do treat myself sometimes though. I don't completely deprive myself. I go with how my body feels when it comes to eating. I haven't counted calories since November of last year! It was hard for me. My last weigh in was March 6th. Tomorrow is the "official" weigh in for me. But if it's the same as yesterdays weigh in then I have lost 2 pounds in the last two weeks! I must be doing something right.

I can't wait to see what the future holds! I feel like I'm finally coming out of my shell. A shell I've built over the years. Ever since I was a little girl actually. I've always considered myself ugly. Heck, I HATE my pictures from when I was a kid. I had no idea what I was doing and my mother never led me in the right direction. I don't want to blame her though. She did her best to raise me, her AND my dad, and give me everything I needed. I could have used more direction in other parts of my life though. Now, as a mother I hope to do that with my daughter. I don't want her to go down the path I went down on. I want her to be happy. I want her to have everything I never had. I want her to feel confident about herself. Make lots of friends. Go to prom. :-) Be happy in her teenage years. I feel like, now at 30, I'm finally able to live my life! Right now I'm just working on a better me AND trying to move out of here! That's going to be a long process but my future looks REALLY bright from here!!!!!! :) I've never been so happy in my entire life!!!

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