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  • Day 65 - Blessings!

    4/26/2015 2:15:37 PM, by CINDYSUNFLOWER

    Let me stop to count my blessings on this Super Sunday!! 1. Both daughters and their daughters came over this morning….what fun we have with our 5 beautiful granddaughters!!! 2. Husband can drive again…..now that is a blessing that I don't have to chauffeur him around….we do much bett... Read more

  • pain and loss

    4/26/2015 10:35:54 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    PAIN AND LOSS Really struggling tonight. Bawling my eyes out. Just want someone to hold but I have no one. I've been in a toxic abusive marriage and I'm still totally in love with him. I don't know what is wrong with me, I'm living in a room .,pennyless and he kept all my things and my 4 cats and ... Read more

  • Thought for the day

    4/24/2015 1:23:42 PM, by FITVENTI

    I've been thinking...eating intentionally and spacing my meals, stopping after dinner... I'm happier on less, and have not had the urge to see how many calories I can get away with, no urges to binge. Plus, eating less in the morning and mid day gives me wiggle room for the unexpected. Is... Read more

  • Day 18- Happy and Scared

    4/24/2015 11:46:14 AM, by NORDY44

    I've lost 3 lbs in a few weeks which doesn't sound like a lot, but for me is pretty amazing. I'm so proud of losing the weight and more importantly proud of the fact that I can fit back into the clothes that I want to be wearing. The scarey part is, the other part of me that feels anxiety about feel... Read more

  • Offer Your Depression

    4/24/2015 10:18:37 AM, by INARI_FOX

    www.lionsroar.com/offer-your-d
    epression/ I love the following blog post from Susan Piver. It is about Buddhism, depression, and publishing--three things I have experience with. :) Offer Your Depression by Susan Piver | April 14, 2015 Photo © Sarolta Sasa Gyoker. Once I... Read more

  • hopeful

    4/23/2015 10:49:02 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    i have not had a 5 dollar bill since feb,as my assistance from the state and government is pending!!!! i cant pay my rent ,get meds or buy my own toilet paper.its so degrading to me and my family says oh dont whine!!!! like geeeze,i just want to die.How can i make myself want to live under these cir... Read more

  • Day 64 - Blessings!

    4/23/2015 10:16:15 AM, by CINDYSUNFLOWER

    Thursday Gratitude! 1. My husband had knee replacement surgery on April 7th and he is doing really well….thank you! 2. He goes to Physical Therapy 3 times a week and has a wonderful physical therapist! 3. I am so glad that I am retired and can help him during this recovery! 4. I con... Read more

  • angry

    4/23/2015 9:54:46 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    The Real Me : I am feeling angry and full of rage this morning.Now that I left my abuser no one in the real world outside of these groups wants to hear my Voice now that I got me back!!!!! Not even my therapist! Everyone wants me to pretend I'm just okay now and happy and tells me i should just let ... Read more

  • Still losing on 5:2 Fast Diet

    4/23/2015 4:21:08 AM, by HARROGATEWEB

    Well just weighed in and lost again I'm now 118.4Kg, so now down 21.3KG since January. It's all good have started doing my 2 fast days back to back now and find it easier as I'm already in the zone on the 2nd day, and so far results have been good. Good luck everyone!... Read more

  • trash

    4/22/2015 7:08:20 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    feeling frustrated: this is really bothering me so i need advise please.I live with my landlady and she does my trash.she only has a trashcan in the kitchen very small like the bathroom kind!!!I have that much trash to fill it ever two days and every time i want to throw out my trash it is full,I ... Read more

  • I'm Back again, not doing good yet but trying

    4/22/2015 6:44:56 PM, by BECKY1960

    I'm back again, I AM NOT doing good yet but I am trying. I have not exercised yet, raining here. I have gained my weight back I have to fix my tracker I hate to but I have to for myself, so I can see and really try. I want to lose weight so bad, I will but I don't know how fast but as long as I try ... Read more

  • my story

    4/22/2015 4:04:30 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    I've been writing again for the past couple of days and I realized something so simple today that I can't believe that I didn't realize before....every time I kept silent about what he did to me and kept his secrets for him it gave him power over me. He fed on it and became bigger and bigger until h... Read more

  • Day #3 - ALREADY Tired! UGH!

    4/22/2015 12:43:23 PM, by LAURENSQUEST

    Yesterday was day #3 of my new adventure to become the woman of my dreams! Wouldn't you know it.... I was exhausted! I did all I could do to make it through the day! I thought I would be able to hit the re-start button when I went to my second job!??? Yeah, no it didn't happen. I just went... Read more

  • Day 16

    4/22/2015 8:43:43 AM, by NORDY44

    Wasn't feeling well yesterday. Took it easy and ate whatever felt right at the moment. Wasn't a stellar day for health and activity, but it was enough. Today I've been back on track. It has been so long since I actually took a real break from everything even when sick, that I feel relaxed and refres... Read more

  • missing you

    4/21/2015 4:06:37 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    I want him to know that I am the one who is done with him. I am the one who is choosing to kick him to the curb and I am the one who is choosing to move on with my life. I prayed for God to deliver me from his abuse and had hoped that God would miraculously turn him into a human being but instead my... Read more

  • Day #2 - Shining the Sink

    4/20/2015 5:21:03 PM, by LAURENSQUEST

    Yesterday was Day #2 - I didn't get exactly done what I WANTED to do, BUT I did shine the sink and did a load of laundry! WooHoo! Babysteps!... Read more

  • Week 1, again!

    4/20/2015 1:49:17 PM, by CHRISSYPA

    I am just going to say to heck with it and start over. I will try to post a blog once a week with my weigh in. Probably Monday's. My starting weight will be 194.2 which was my weigh-in from Saturday. I need to get back on the exercise train and get my butt moving! It is raining here this afternoon s... Read more

  • Day 14; still going

    4/20/2015 8:23:05 AM, by NORDY44

    Two weeks in, I'm feeling really proud of myself. I'm sticking with my goals without completely going overboard. I'm letting myself have a big meal every once in a while. I had a few beers this weekend (but less than I would normally have had), Nothing is really off limits, just smaller quantities. ... Read more

  • not really?

    4/19/2015 1:09:47 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    so sick of the abuse!!!!! when will i ever learn??i was invited last week for a cookout with my grandkids and i could not wait,now this morning my daughter tells me i cant come now cuz she invited someone else that does not like me,like what the hell? i just keep letting people kick me when im down,... Read more

  • o.k. when?

    4/19/2015 11:45:17 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    venting: I find when i get upset lately I get very angry and when i do i might think of over-eating like i use to do,so i vent instead!!!! what helps you?? there is only so much computer,reading and walking and tv one person can do.I hate not having my car or public transportation or being able to g... Read more

  • good morning life!

    4/19/2015 8:36:16 AM, by LAURENSQUEST

    Tax season is done. The house is trashed because if I don't do it.... it won't get done. But it is ok! Today starts a new life.... one that won't be perfect, but one in which I WILL WIN MORE BATTLES AND WILL WIN THIS WAR WITH FOOD! Food will become fuel and not try to be my friend. Exercise will... Read more

  • ouch

    4/18/2015 10:58:50 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    OUCH..... I am so grateful to be part a recovery group. Feeling very lonely today and haven't been able to connect with any of my local support people. My disease wants me to turn to the food or anything else. Right-like excess good is my friend-not. My self centeredness character defect is showin... Read more

  • I'm tired of sad birthdays

    4/18/2015 6:18:50 PM, by INARI_FOX

    My birthday will be spent alone and unacknowledged except for one bright note--my daughter will call me. How do I know that it will be this way? Because that is how most of my birthdays have been. I'm just facing the truth here. I will also be sad about it--something that is difficult for me to admi... Read more

  • When There Is No Answer To WHY?

    4/18/2015 2:06:27 PM, by TRUCKERSMRS

    Sometimes, when you want to scream WHY, you know you are not going to get an answer. What did I do? What didn't I do? Could I have done something better to avoid it? Yet there is no answer ..... My Mum has upset herself and blamed herself. Yet she is not to blame. Neither is my Nan... Read more

  • one day soon

    4/17/2015 9:08:49 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    time.... memories to replace the ones that are in the front of vision. most of all, I dont think of it as a hole or something to fill. I think of it as a spot/scuff/sticker/mask/dirt or smudge that is on my heart. like a stain. I need to work at getting it off and replaced. we are still who we are. ... Read more

  • Same Old, Same Old

    4/17/2015 1:23:49 PM, by WESTERNGIRL87

    I just read over my last blog from almost a year ago. The last line I wrote that blogging helped me the first time around. Here I go not taking my own good advice. I'm going to really try to blog at least once a week. If I can do that it will make staying on track easier for me. After I ... Read more

  • Day 9

    4/14/2015 9:37:07 AM, by NORDY44

    I haven't been perfect in these first few days of starting over. But, I'm not looking for perfect; I'm looking to find my good place. Healthy balance of healthful eating and exercising. I enjoy working out, so that is not normally the problem. It is the excessive eating. I love food and like to eat ... Read more

  • THIS TOO SHALL PASS BLOG

    4/11/2015 1:50:17 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    TRIGGER WARNING:THIS TOO SHALL PASS BLOG UPDATE: ......I just wanted maybe some advice or uplifting support..I am bipolar/depressive with PTSD. I take a lot of meds. Three months ago I left my abusive husband.I am permanently disabled and am waiting for my SSDI,health insurence and cash,had the us... Read more

  • Daniel Fast Day 2 and Watchman Nee

    4/11/2015 2:57:16 AM, by YOUWILLSUCCEED

    Yesterday was day 2. I ate porridge for breakfast (oats, water, coconut, banana), pasta for lunch (whole wheat pasta, chick peas, cherry tomatoes, olive oil, black pepper), and nut roast for tea (ground almonds, chopped hazelnuts, grated swede, thyme, potaoes roasted in a little olive oil, carrots,... Read more

  • Day 5

    4/10/2015 10:46:06 AM, by NORDY44

    Still feeling it! I want to hold onto this determination and never let it go. I am on the way to fulfilling my goals.... Read more

  • Daniel Fast Day 1

    4/10/2015 3:45:49 AM, by YOUWILLSUCCEED

    Day 1 went really well. It didn’t feel like I was fasting as you’re allowed so much to eat. My evening meal was tinned chick peas, whole wheat pasta and broccoli, with some halved cherry tomatoes, sliced mushrooms and mixed herbs which I heated slowly in a little olive oil. Here is a link... Read more

  • Another great weigh in

    4/9/2015 7:51:05 PM, by HARROGATEWEB

    Well, now in week 15 of my latest weight loss journey and couldn't really be going any better, using a combination of the 5:2 diet and walking my stats are now. Start weight : 139.7kg - 308lb - 22st 0lb Current weight : 119.8kg - 264lb - 18st 11lb So have now lost 44lbs, have also ha... Read more

  • Day 4 taking it slow but steady

    4/9/2015 11:20:36 AM, by NORDY44

    So want to be past the point of feeling like I'm not doing enough. I have this thing about taking on too much all at once; cutting calories and working out hard. This time I'm trying to take it slow, thus feeling like I'm pretending at this game of health. I will get there! I need to stay the course... Read more

  • change this

    4/9/2015 8:29:32 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    I feel like I will never be happy. I can never get my ex off my mind no matter what I do I have done what he always on my mind. I always worry about how I could have been good with him for 4 years if I didn't fight every two weeks what about me? I am so unhappy and depressed don't enjoy things I hav... Read more

  • God's promise of success. Day 1 on Daniel Fast. Estrogen progesterone balance foods etc

    4/9/2015 5:21:30 AM, by YOUWILLSUCCEED

    Yesterday I decided I have too much estrogen and too little progesterone which is what is causing my body to misbehave in a too many periods and cramps kind of way. After I did a quick bit of research to see what I can eat to redress the imbalance, I will be off to the store later to buy bananas, t... Read more

  • JUST RUN

    4/8/2015 6:38:34 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    I know a few people who are in some sort of an abusive relationship. Recently a woman died at her ex-husbands hands. She was dropping off their pet and all the public knows is that she was beaten to death and he's in jail. My point is, Don't minimize what happens or what happened to you. Stay away f... Read more

  • Did better last night!

    4/8/2015 2:23:01 PM, by CHRISSYPA

    Well, last night I did okay and my husband and I took the dog over for a walk and 75% of the snow is melted! I was surprised being that Sunday the road had about 4 inches of hard packed snow. There were places with a bit of thick ice on but we managed. I did eat a couple of things I shouldn't have b... Read more

  • Doing Daniel Fast tomorrow til Pentecost using free Kindle for PCs

    4/8/2015 5:11:57 AM, by YOUWILLSUCCEED

    Who knew? You can get a free app for your PC to read kindle books on! I found out when I went on Amazon to buy Susan Gregory’s “The Daniel Fast Devotional for Lent” and saw that, although it is only available in kindle mode, the free app was offered too. I’m a fine one, getting a book... Read more

  • REALLY?

    4/7/2015 3:42:42 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    feeling very upset and full of anxiety today as i found out my daughter has been nice to my face and relocated me when i did not want her too and today i found out the whole time she was paid by my husband to put/move me out when i was in the hospital,plus the whole 2 months she has been talking to ... Read more

  • Can anyone tell me how to reclaim self worth?

    4/7/2015 1:44:55 PM, by CHRISSYPA

    Hello, It has been more than a month since my last blog. I am feeling so down about myself. I feel like I am worthless and have felt this way for years. I am having such a hard time with not binging and just go back and forth thru the cycle. I cannot get the motivation to exercise and that makes me ... Read more

  • Day 2

    4/7/2015 8:59:33 AM, by NORDY44

    Yeah Day1. I did a pretty good job. Didn't exercise as much as I should have but will do that today as well as tracking what I'm eating. My goal for Day 2. Remember my overall goal of getting healthier and losing 5 lbs! I can do it! I have to want it more than my bad habits!... Read more

  • Day 63 - Blessings!

    4/6/2015 9:06:38 AM, by CINDYSUNFLOWER

    Marvelous Monday! It's been awhile but I'm back!!!! Let me stop to count my blessings! 1. Had a beautiful weekend…..time spent with children and grandchildren is the very BEST!!! 2. Saturday was so much fun with a boat ride out to an island with all 3 children, their spouses, and all of ... Read more

  • Starting over (again) Day 1

    4/6/2015 8:52:04 AM, by NORDY44

    life happens. I'm continually trying to do the right thing and then I fall off. Life happens. But, I can't help but wonder if I haven't embraced this healthy living thing completely or if it is a natural cycle of life. For today I'm not going to worry about it. I'm dusting off the old and beginning ... Read more

  • easter/not

    4/5/2015 11:26:43 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    I called the house to talk to him thinking we could finally have closure...we could talk things out rationally...as adults do....but what I got was someone very much in denial who just abused and threatened to torture me further. He was hateful He twisted everything around. He didn't physically har... Read more

  • hard day night

    4/5/2015 9:47:48 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    stayed in bed from noon to 9pm last night and stayed up for hours then slept 3 hours,wanted to go to church this morning but cant get a ride.no food here for almost 3 weeks ,been eating at daughters,cant get food or money or even a damn coffee maker or microwave or just a can of soda,cant go on like... Read more

  • bad emotions

    4/4/2015 11:47:46 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    I feel like a big bum!!!! I have been gone from my home siince feb. with 0 income and all the help i have applyed for has not come threw so i can buy nothing .I think i will just tell my daughter im too sick to go to easter dinner tomorrow as i feel like a bum i cant buy the granddaughters a easter ... Read more

  • TRY HARDER TODAY

    4/4/2015 8:11:56 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    I will try to keep my life calm & unruffled. This is my great task, to find peace & acquire serenity. I must not harbor disturbing thoughts. No matter what fears, worries, & resentments I may have, I must try to think of constructive things, until calmness comes! Have A Beautiful Day!!!... Read more

  • new day

    4/3/2015 10:58:25 AM, by WILDXANGELS

    I left him for the last time on Feb.14 2014., our anniversary!!!! He was extremely abusive and controlling. I mean we're talking borderline captivity/torture. I've attempted to leave tons of times, but always returned. I've been doing really well with my newfound freedom after many many years of liv... Read more

  • home

    4/1/2015 8:43:30 PM, by WILDXANGELS

    I escaped 6 weeks ago and after a hospital stay!!!! he was very calm and polite, no real conversation between the 2 of us but it really pulled at my heart strings, I miss my family being together I miss the illusion I had. I know I can never go back and I don't actually think he wants me back either... Read more