That's great! You've found the right "formula" , one that works for you and has made your quality of life not merely tolerable, but - from the looks of the happy mom in the picture, on the beach with her two children - I'd say wonderful too.
I suffer from bipolar type 1, so you can probably imagine that yes, I would have major depressions. But I also have dysthymia, even when I'm "level" which I've managed to control with a very basic method necessity taught me after the birth of my first child, my son, Ian, at 41. It's your standard "fake it 'til you make it" attitude and lot of self taught behavior modification.
wake and as soon as I've shaken off enough of the fairy dust to realize what day it is and how soon my responsibilities to others are going to start I roll my eyes, take deep breath, head for the coffee machine and count my blessing every day.
I'm a concoction person by nature (who ever heard of peanut butter mayonaise and tomatoes on 7 grain bread before?) so I guess it makes sense that each day I need to take a kind of medication soup mix. I have fibromyalgia and need meds for that too, and one of them is (guess what?) an antidepressant that works on pain - one of the tricyclics.
The I take Wellbutrin which alone doesn't work for the likes of me so they got about the big guns and added Effexor, and finally Topamax to help with my bipolar disorder, and of course, to "elevate my mood". And as if that list isn't long enough, I'm on Methadone
FOR PAIN - not for any addiction problem, Abilify s the primary med for the bipolar,
and occaisionally Ambien for sleep.
But at 47, with a five year old child recently diagnosed with high functioning Autism, I am mindful of my diet, I practice yoga and exercise, have a house and a part-time job as I try to hone my skills as a writer of short stories and plays, and a car and all of those basic things we all want - and then some - and I have to say, I'm having the time of my life!
Depression - be it dysthymia or major depression or both, has taken the lives of too may good people with promising futures they couldn't bear to wait for.
I still struggle with the blues periodically but try to let it run a time limited course like that of the common cold before I simply refuse to participate in it anymore.
I tell myself I have no choice but to attend to my life - and to tend the life of my child !
At that point I make a decison to think about all the good things, all the luck I've had in my life, and about the future which, like a good book, I just have to know how it's going to turn out.! I can't just put it down or throw it a away because I'm at a difficult part to get though or which I don't understand. I figure, sooner or later it will all become revealed somehow and I want to be around til the end.
Bishops corner in West Hartford
- 4/20/2008 2:32:31 AM